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stream vod is up + apologies
🕑 Added 2025-07-28 02:36:23 +0000 UTChello pengoon...uhm i would like to apologize again for today ๐I guess I'm just not in the best place mentally. I'm still learning how to do this whole thing, figuring out a routine for myself and I just freaked myself out too much by thinking too hard and having tech issues etc that just made my mood bad...
i asked during the stream how to make it up to you and well the most popular vote was a seggsy pic so...i'll give that to you soon! >.< probably on tuesday to line up with my public asmr stream then...
i strive to give the best to you that i can so i feel real disappointed in myself for this, i really want to improve and get better...i guess i've been dealing with a lot lately, donothon rewards, tier 2 recordings, planning future content (lot of things ive been wanting to commission), that I was just so busy I didn't even think too much about what I would do this week with you...and even today I woke up with a preeetttyyy bad headache so I didn't really wanna think about it then either, and I still had a stream to do earlier today....well, yeah, I know it's all excuses, hopefully it helps you understand at least a bit. at the end of the day it is a bit hard for me to explain myself...maybe i need more time to prepare during the day, need to feel sexy, performance anxiety, etc etc...
i'm kind of a shy anxious insecure autistic girl at the end of the day so i sometimes have problems like this...not USUALLY but yeah last week too was an issue as well, i guess i just have dumb stuff in my system...next week should be normal tho raahh let's manifest i'm gonna plan something good!!
link: https://gofile.io/d/0GbDPs
pw: phen7K9DD9Nl
*this is actually missing the first few minutes bc i forgot to record, i will try to grab the FULL files soon it's just a lot to deal with rn, since i went over an hour i gotta download 2 files and put them together...bleh...will try tomorrow tho!
uhhmm yeah big big love and thanks uuuu ๐๐๐๐thank you for being patient and understanding with this dummy...
ALSO doing a movie watchalong in my discord server to help feel better and make it up a bit, join if u want...๐๐ discord.gg/zenyahima dummmyyy
Comments
AP-1138
No need to apologize, Commander! We're here for you, and understand when things get rough. We all love you a lot, so you don't ever need to feel like you're failing us in any way. If you ever need to take a break, don't worry about! Better than completely burning yourself out. You're the best, Commander! We're all proud of you, and want you to not only be the best you, but want you to feel the best you, you can be! We're with you all the way, Commander!
Gale
No worries, consider taking a break if you want one. In general I think fans are pretty accepting of that when its announced beforehand (otherwise people get scared something happened to their streamer/oshi). You'll figure everything out in time, thank you for being open with us and for the great communication. Things WILL get easier in time.
