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Im okay, but I need to talk about this...
🕑 Added 2025-04-08 00:44:29 +0000 UTCI'm sorry for being so so damn quiet and I can explain... I had to see a psychologist and a sleep specialist because of what was happening to me. For the past month and a half I have been so stressed and depressed because no matter what I was trying to do I had about 22 people message me or put in the comments of my posts, "You're taking too long it's starting to get annoying." or messages saying that I need to make my stuff move less and less "cartoony" and make longer and longer animations to compete with other people that it made me beyond stressed out.
I was losing SO much sleep that I would only be able to sleep until 8 - 11am and then wake up at 2 or 3pm because my head kept screaming, "GET BACK TO WORK!!!!" And literally.... TOLD BY MY PSYCHOLOGIST, THAT I WAS GOING INSANE. I was showing signs of stress induced psychosis because I wasnt sleeping right at ALL.
It was so bad, that I would have these random episodes of disassociating and hallucinating that I didnt know what day it was, where I was, who my roommate was, and even my own name. I literally was starting to lose my mind. I started having INTENSE nightmares of being R*ped, murdered, chased, skinned, shot, all sorts of nightmares and they were every single night. I was losing my mind...
But, there are good news at the end of this all. Both doctors told me just how important proper sleep was and so week I tried forcing myself to sleep at 11pm without the use of melatonin... Because thats a whole other roller coaster that I dont wanna go down... But I forced myself to sleep at 11pm on thursday, and I slept until 4pm the next day. I missed that much sleep. And so for past weekend I had a status on my discord that had me on DND and saying I needed alone time. I turned off my phone, turned off notifications on discord, turned off notifications on everything and just let myself do what I fully wanted which was FUCK ALL NOTHING for 3 days straight.
And I cant stress enough how much I needed that... Because already after 3 days of forcing myself to sleep at 10 - 11pm and waking up at like 9 or 10am? I feel 300x better INSTANTLY. And my short term insanity has already diminished significantly. I can actually THINK again and have a good mindset to actually want to work.
So... Im okay, I've got things sorted out, I've talked to professionals, and I'm gonna be okay <3. Im going to continue to work on animations, the Lycaon and Mav animation as well, and as a quick PSA
GO THE FUCK TO SLEEP ON TIME!
YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW IMPORTANT SLEEP IS! TRUST ME!
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Mav Sharkie
PK!?!?! KJASDHHGFLKJAH DFKLGDJsahg:jklHF IM BEYOND HONORED!! OH MY- AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! I LOVE YOUR STUFDF SO MUCH! I CANT EV-0
PK - Hot Ramen Audios
"Artists create the needs of their audience, not the other way around." That's the best advice I ever heard and it's kept me sane throughout every endeavor I've taken on even now. For what it's worth, the reason I like your work is that it's unashamed. Your movements are aggressive, exaggerated, cartoonish. Your sound effect choices are bassy, lengthy, and harsh. In a scene where the most popular animation style is often very floaty and imprecise, with characters moving like they're in molasses, I've always liked how deliberately your characters move. I would hate to see that go away to appease people who clearly do not care enough about you as a person, let alone a creator. Self-indulge, and we'll indulge alongside you. And look, I'm not going to like everything you make. But then again, you're not going to like everything you make either, are you? It's just what happens as a creator. So swing for the fences, take risks, tap into your most primal, horny, shameless side and just make what gets you going, because my opinion (and others) whether it's unanimous praise or disinterest, should always be second to your happiness. Because as the artist, your needs become our needs. Oh, and be good to yourself.
Pena
Hope you’re okay, you don’t deserve any of that ❤️
