Erinsomnia
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Health update: Semi-hiatus
🕑 Added 2020-08-10 15:02:06 +0000 UTCI apologise for not posting about this sooner. I made a small announcement on my discord server, but I wanted to keep patrons in the loop as there is a chance of things being slow coming from me for a while.
I'm still pretty heavily disoriented, so I apologise if this is written a little odd.
I'm usually not clear enough wen things are wrong, so I do apologise in advance if this is hard to read, but the TLDR: is im home but need to rest a lot more than I have been.
CW: blood loss, needles, abortion, sickness.
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So, we were planning to have a second baby. Long story short, my body rejected this pretty badly. I wasn't able to eat or drink (even fluids) for weeks and had been in and out of hospital throughout for dehydration and heavy weight loss. Regardless of medication, nothing would stick unless fed through a tube and it got to being too much with a child already at home who needs me.
We made the difficult decision at 8 weeks to terminate. Neither of us wanted this, so it was hard, but we figured that if I can get an operation for my hernia (main cause of sickness) we can try again next time.
Unfortunately, that didn't go well. I received medication for the process to happen at home, and I very quickly lost a lot more blood than I would like to admit. I passed out a few times and was rushed to hospital where I needed multiple blood transfusions. Because my veins were shot due to the severe malnutrition, it took over 30 attempts across my second stay and an ultrasound to even take blood or get me hooked up to another IV / transfusion bag, so my arms are super purple all over. Its like a galaxy in reverse, ahah. We got there eventually though.
It turns out, the pregnancy this time would not have worked anyway, which was oddly relieving to hear that I hadn't done this all for nothing, because it was inevitable The issue is, my body was passing blood heavily and constantly to push things along faster, without removing anything, so I had to go into surgery which was successful.
More blood and enough iron to build a small weapon and I'm back at home again. I had to go back int hospital again since all of this because I completely overdid it after I came home and I got badly sick. I have just been trying to get back on with life as normal to put all of this behind me, but I got told off by my body and my Doctor for that.
If I am honest, I havent emotionally processed any of this at all, so I can imagine taht is due, but for now I think I need to take much more of a break than I did when I got out of hospital last, because I really don't fancy becoming more f a regular than I have been this past month. But I can eat now, so thats something.
Thank you all for the support while I have been away
