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✨It's Okay That Disability Isn't a Superpower✨
🕑 Added 2024-06-03 14:51:37 +0000 UTCA part of being autistic that's very testing is constantly being exhausted. Just from daily rituals, talking, masking, putting on a face and performing 'normality'. I'm not here to compete or contrast with anyone else's experience. It's just mine and I find it hard.
I am never not tired. And I know that's true for a lot of people. And in my downtime, often I'm too exhausted to read or watch tv or even play on my phone. So, I clean myself, I shut my blinds and I just lay in bed - because I am a fat 2002 laptop that has 50 tabs open all at once.
And that's okay. That's my experience and I just have to do what I have to do. And that's true for you too.
So, don't worry if what you're going through isn't quirky or fun or fashionable. I have never been any of those things and I still have worth - to my dogs, my family, and mostly importantly to me.
You don't always have to see the good in things. Sometimes, it's really helpful to say - this isn't great.
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Robert Allen
You know what you say is too god damn true, its a lot more worse for me cause I not only have Autism but also have ADHD which can make it very worse, while very young I ended up acting odd to the point where looking back made me wonder “Why did I do that?” afterwards I ended up taking medication to help me deal with it. Which worked for a while, eventually the medication into my high school days ended up making me feel like I’m someone else, which once you come back to reality after school didn’t feel right to me so got myself off of the medication, and I was very glad I did cause I feel like the me that wants to be happy finally broke free and would like to stay, yeah sure adult life as jolly as it seems but we all have to make the most of it even if we don’t like it and even if it’s taxing, we just got to deal with the cards we’re all given. It’s the only way to truly move on.
Samwise Thebravee
of course including myself, I have 2 conditions that cause exhaustion and medication on top of that doing the same but my lifestyle is still shit I wonder if I fixed it how much it would help
That_dutch_guy
I grew up with it too, even to im from 2002😅
Lachlan Parker
I don't fully have a choice though, since I still live with my parents (who overall are pretty fucking good). The only reason I force myself outside of my small comfort zone is because my dad wants me being productive, and my mum wants me to socialise (as well as not be inside the house 24/7 despite being a homebody and gamer with five fur-babies). Although while my dad's reason isn't really helping in my opinion, my mum's is. But I just want to be an Msub puppy and househusband, because despite my Executive Disfunction (which is worse than any other aspect of my autism without a single doubt), acts of service is one of my two love languages (with the other one being physical touch).
Lachlan Parker
I grew up using computer analogies to explain to myself how my mind worked, but this one caught me off guard. It's beautiful in both the nerdy and "Whoa" kinds of clever.
That_dutch_guy
"because I am a fat 2002 laptop that has 50 tabs open all at once. " i love this imma use it
deathmetal62
I get it, Tea. I'm neurodivergent and there are times where I just can't even get out of bed. It's so tough to get out into the world and it's difficult to feel like anything other than a failure. Luckily, words like this remind me i'm not alone, at least, so thanks
Samwise Thebravee
and I thought being exhausted all the time is bcs of people's lifestyles (of course excluding lime diseases and dietary conditions etc) 🤔
Dhorannis
Honsetly, I completely agree. Being a "normal" human is quite the chore.
Pingu
Ive been feeling this a lot latley and only just now realizing how small my social battery actually is
Ravenforce3
Modern society is exhausting. It's doubly tough when you are physically isolated by distance from your support network. Most days I feel I'm barely able to cope with all the THINGS one has to do as an adult...and I may never do better than "barely." All we can really do is hang on as best we can.
Phoenix Brave Hideki
I know that feeling of being exhausted and constantly have to keep pushing forward. Thank you Tea for saying that we can just lay down, we still have worth and for the post.
Super AntOreo!
As a neurodivergent, I completely relate. Thank you for sharing Tea!
Blindluck92
This is validating as heck, to be honest. Thanks, Tea.
Gawain
Couldn't have said it better. Basically, it's just work. Irritating work, to be sure, but necessary work nonetheless to function. The fact we often still have some kind of prop or ritual to help us get through the day is always a comfort, but not quite as comforting as taking the mask off
Michael Garrett
You do you in your own time. It’s enough.
