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Feeling a bit better
🕑 Added 2017-10-17 15:58:45 +0000 UTC Like I said previously, This week end I was invited to a themed wedding.I was really anxious of having to face a dizzy spell coming out of nowhere.
The last time I went to a party was 8 months ago ( last time I was out to go anywhere else other than going to a doctor appointment)
And I had a blast !! First time in a whole full year I'm so happy. I got to forget the pain and the dizziness for a few hours. My old self got a chance to come back to life !
I had the dress in my closet for 2 years, I bought it at the Opera Comique in paris during a private sale. I should have bought more, the costumes are magnificent and 100% handmaid
At first I was shaking because of too much emotions and too many people , head spinning, strong muscles aches . That's when I took the first 3 pictures above. I was feeling like I was going to pass out. ( Totally invisible I know.)
But then, as the day went on I started relaxing and chatting with more ease ( star wars talk makes anybody at ease though Xd) , I felt better and better.
When they put music on I was literally fidgeting with my butt stuck on my chair . I wanted to dance so badly. ! From the couch, I started playing with a little kid and she made me laugh and having fun, and then there I was , standing up and moving my body, dancing ( not really the word but close XD), despite the pain !!! I couldn't believe it ( my friends who have seen me not even being able to walk 20 meters had their mouth agape).
I didn't sleep at all that night, I was too excited, and I had to take pills to help me calm down on the morning before entering into a full panic attack mode . ( my nervous system is a mess, causing mania , panic attacks, pain, etc etc)
Now 2 days after , pain and dizziness have returned , especially fatigue but I feel happier. Hope is back. (I was getting really depressed and all I needed was to see some friends and have fun!) and I'm not stuck in bed!
I guess my body offered me a big shot of endorphins .
My friends getting married were having the best day of their life and without knowing it they offered my best day of the year !
When I was looking at them, lost in each others, I was wondering if someday I'll get the chance to experience the same.
Thank you for being so supportive and staying with me. A bientôt !
Comments
Tu vivras ça j’en suis sûr! Bon même si j’en suis un peu moins sûr puisque je suis marié depuis 11 ans, tant pis pour toi! Donc en fait le remède c’est d’aller à des mariages d’amis, va falloir passer le message ! :D Au moins une petite pause ça t’a fait du bien au morale ! <3
Delighted to hear that you were able to enjoy the moment. You look beautiful, but then you are! Hope the good days start to out number the bad.
ENFIN !!!! Vraiment heureux pour toi que ton corps t'ait permis de redécouvrir les plaisirs simples de la vie !!! Comme l'a écrit Anduril, "des amis, de la joie, du bonheur, des rires", c'est ce qui t'aidera à avancer dans la direction, celle de la guérison ! Continue à prendre soin de toi, et du coup merci à tes amis de t'avoir redonner la pêche (et toutes mes vœux de bonheur aussi ...!)!!
C’est cool de lire ce genre de news ! 😀 J’espère que tu as d’autres mariage de prévu prochainement ! Tu vas guérir grâce a ça !! Des amis, de la joie, du bonheur, des rires, le top pour avoir la pêche !
Wonderful to hear! So happy you were able to have fun. I knew you would be a Joy for them to have at the wedding. Happiness all around and a wish for many years of wedded bliss for the happy couple!
