Recap part 3 ( health and old bonus)

Thank you for your message Chris. I know I'm experiencing a flare up but fortunately KDN is already helping since I still have some energy left to walk. Which wasn't the case a few months ago. I just didn't think I would have one (being too positive Xd) I also agree any emotions is interpreted as stress by the brain. This is why some of my worse panick attack occurred when I was extremely happy or anticipating something with joy. Now that I'm able to actually do something with my days ,I'm becoming very impatient and even more frustrated. But you are right I already did big steps considering how I was doing at this same time of the year just one year ago ( bedridden almost all the time with lots of neurological troubles along with pain and extreme exhaustion , eating only zucchinis and chicken on good days, WOW o_0 ! ) I also refuse to believe there is no way to cure conditions like CFS/fibromyalgia/lyme... and a lot of others auto immune conditions. They want you to believe you can't heal from them and have to be debilitated for the rest of your life. I want so much to be a living proof of the opposite.. I may be unrealistic , but this is a part of my motivation to get better. Anyway. It's time for me to go on a slow walk and soon I'll be able to do more interesting things :) A bientot.

Take a deep breath. The pain level should return to normal with a bit of time. What you are going through is likely an autoimmune flare up (which is common with nervous/immune system dysregulation which is what the LDN is treating). A flare up can be kicked off by any unusual physical and emotional stress. You had plenty of both during your recent adventures (from a sympathetic nervous system perspective, any strong emotion (good or bad) is interpreted as “stress”). The good news is that time should set this right (though I can’t give you any kind of timeline). More good news, the LDN should help make the recovery quicker (we can hope). As to the walking, don’t push yourself too hard but low-impact exercise (like walking) should help more than it hurts. It boosts the immune system (by raising the body temperature and getting blood flowing) and enhances the mood. Getting up and doing what you can (as much as you can) is definitely a good plan. But the best thing you can do for the pain (and the ongoing mental battle) is take a look at what you just accomplished/experienced recently. Really let it sink in. Relive it in memory if you can. Then think about where you were only a month or two ago. Yes, you may have pushed yourself a bit too hard but this was a step in the right direction, a milestone. And better things lay ahead. As you get better and continue to test your limits, your limits will be pushed ever outward. In your worst moments just remind yourself of this: better things ahead. You won’t die as long as you keep fighting. You’ve already come a long way. Don’t let a hopefully brief setback take away all the good you just experienced. Keep fighting for those better things to come.

I love you as Alice, it is what brought me to your pages initially. I would love to take your pain away from you, but can only hope it diminishes quickly. Take care, little leaf, draw comfort from knowing that the exhaustion will pass, eventually, but the memory of that big smile will stay forever.