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🕑 Added 2019-05-05 08:17:25 +0000 UTCHello There.
It's been quite some times since you've seen me like this but unfortunately since end of March, things have been going backwards.
After a prodigious amelioration of my health getting me to think I was finally over with all of this , the pain in my right side came back more insistent everyday . I've been doing weekly acuponcture and massages but it has only been getting worse and worse. And today it's back to like it was in January 2018. Not only the horrible pain in my right side but almost everything came back: dizziness,nausea, exhaustion , strong burning muscles , brain fog, congested throat, daily fever, parestesia came back and I feel so ... well I don't know how I feel anymore. At least I don't get panic attacks anymore thanks to meditation.
I'm not even going back to the doctor or the hospital because... what for ? They weren't able to help me these 3 previous year so it's not going to change anytime soon .They' ll say everything is fine and that I must learn to live with pain... Well that's what I'm doing...
But I'm definitely not fine . There is a reason my right side is killing me like this ( is it lyme ??). They just can't find it. This doesn't mean it's fine....
I'm not losing faith . Life didn't get me 3 months of feeling better just to take it back with a fingers snap. There must be a solution.
I just can see it at the moment.
I hope next post will show improvement.
see you my dear Patrons.
Comments
Still thinking of you, Clef, and wishing you the best of everything.
(Don't) Call Me Angel
I'm so sorry that you're dealing with a relapse in pain, but it's good that you aren't giving up. Despite this set back, I hope it's not too long before it resides again.
Dear Clef I was looking back the other day, noting that the last photo posted (on Instagram) of your being ill was October last year and hoping that your absence was down to your having too much fun and being too busy creating new costumes. Unfortunately, what I dreaded was the reality. I'm sure you are tired of being told that "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger" you have proved so many times that your resiliance knows no bounds and so it will be again. You are blessed with the knowledge of who your true friends are and, even in the throes of the exhaustion of death, you are still beautiful - I can only prescribe chicken soup and mummy-hugs - hold tight to the fact that you will get through this and you will attend future cosplay events, I have faith in you. The soup would, obviously, need to be minus all that you find difficult to digest, so would probably end up as just warm water, but it is the traditional remedy for all ills so I had to add it in. Oh, and finding something to smile about each day releases endorphines which may not do anything, but will make you feel better about it :-) see! Best wishes to you, Clef.
And stay strong. I truly believe everything happens for a reason though those reasons can be impossible to see at times. Other than cheerlead and propose possible diagnoses, I don't know what else to do to help. :-( I'm told my fiction trope is the wizard so searching for the right lore just seems to fit the general plotline of my life...
Steamboat Willie
I will keep my fingers crossed for you!
Je suis toujours triste quand tu donnes pas de news pendant plusieurs jours, car j’imagine toujours que ça va pas 😓 A juste titre cette fois ci.. Désolé de lire ce genre de news.. J’espère que c’est « passager » et qu’avec l’arrivée de l’été tu vas pouvoir profiter du soleil☀️ Courage, prends soin de toi ! 🙏🏻
