claracosmia
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LAST FEW DAYS TO GET PHYSICAL REWARDS
🕑 Added 2019-10-26 22:36:28 +0000 UTCAfter Oct 31st, no more physical rewards will be available via Patreon, therefore November will be the first digital content only month. 
Okies, due to my health decline, and no pick up in the foreseeable future, I'm in the process of redoing my tiers to be more accessible/manageable with my current extreme physical limitions of only being able to work a few minutes a day (at best, and at worst days on end in a dark migraine hole of pain loooool)
I'll be messaging out detailed changes info to anyone at a tier that's affected but in general I'm shifting towards digital content only for the foreseeable future whilst I try and get a balance on a workload I can support myself on without sacrificing my health (where I've been for the last year), and catching up on my health induced massive backlog of physical rewards, so I finally have a better way to get the sheer degree of my damn appreciation and gratitude across to everyone that has supported me and been soso kind and patient waiting for their content β€οΈ
So, as I mentioned, November will be the first month with the new tiers. If you're a current patron you'll be charged midnight Halloween for Nov content. Anyone pledged before Halloween will get the current tiers with physical rewards.
If you want signed prints, Polaroids, pledge at a tier w them in before Halloween (for the extra special custom hand made Hogwarts acceptance letter that comes w a Polaroids make sure you're pledged at Tier 4).
I cannot even explain what a huge huge role my patrons have played in helping me support myself through this huge murky learning curve of turning my platform into something to benefit as many people as possible (through advice, or bobs, or just silliness bringing a smile) and give me back a feeling of purpose I honestly didn't think I was gonna find again after becoming disabled.
Thank you thank you thank youuuuuu for liking my work or believing in me as a person enough to invest your time and/or money into me. I am incredibly behind with rewards, and bcs my brain is great at things the anxiety of worrying I'll look like I wasn't worth it or worse don't care about my patrons freezes me or spirals me into a panic attack when I try to explain anything on a one on one level about being late, Esp for a higher tier bcs I feel like I let them down harder somehow. But just know I haven't forgotten anyone's content, I a pay ho and will like track people down just to return seething I borrowed or pay th back, so fear not you will def still get your content (unless I die tryin hahaha) it's just gonna be a little till back on my feet and caught up yet!
I'm sure it sounds really dumb for a neurotypical brain that processes things and stress normally but the best I can explain it is the terror and reactions my body and brain have trying to pen that email feel as real to me as if a lion suddenly appeared in front of me and looked at me like dinner.
Like this isn't the way I want to run my business, I hate feeling flakey, but again when I'm incapacitated majority of the time but I'm also the sole producer & the product itself... It gets complicated haha. Especially because I'm super fucking broken. But I mean I used to think that meant I wasn't worth anything till I got "fixed", but you guys helped me see the beauty and value in the never ending work in Progress that is my brain and body and I'm just trying to share some of that back cause I don't think a single one of you has zero worries at all you know?
Everyone's got their demons, it's stupid to pretend we don't & then try to battle solo π€
PS here's a lil peek of a noodz piccie - it's uncensored here
Comments
VitAnyaNaked
Do not be nervous and do not panic, you are doing well and we believe in you) Let's look at new tiers in November.
idk man you're just a great person like highkey fantastic friend material and people are drawn to you we should call you clara charisma get it lololol sorry
Omjesus I don't know what I did to deserve supporters like you lady, you're like all "man sorry I can't support you anymore in the way I'm already supporting you but like here's alternative ways that maybe I could support you more?! TAKE MY HELP BISH" thank you π brain no word so good these days so I will def take you up on that!!
it's cool man I really hope you start feeling a lil bit better π I get migraines as well and I cannot begin to imagine that combined with all the other physical and mental symptoms you've gotta deal with it sounds like literal hell and I'm honestly so in awe of you and all the things you've managed to accomplish with so much going against you and I wish I could afford to support you more monetarily but if you ever need help with the email writing and stuff I actually have a lot of experience writing and I studied English at uni for like 2 years before I became an art major π but anyway I'd be more than happy to help any way I can (^-^)
