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Myriad Hiatus
🕑 Added 2023-11-09 20:43:33 +0000 UTCThe patreon is paused. No payments can be charged and new members cannot join. This will be the case until I have more concrete Myriad plans. Every plan I currently have is drastic and I need some time to really think things over. I may not have an answer until January, but this would always have been the case as I do not wish to run any campaigns during Nov-Dec holiday season.
With the info I shared some time ago on twitter about being bipolar (https://twitter.com/SterLovesFood/status/1691209551872249856), I have not been mentally well enough to run Myriad games lately. The last short game, Blackskull Tavern, was an important test for myself. It was exceptionally difficult on me every week and I failed the test worse than I could have imagined, but professionalism is important to me so hearing that may come as a surprise.
Currently I am deeply thinking if I should quit the project for sake of my mental health or if there are other ways of approaching it so that it may work better for me. The other directions are quite dramatic and not ready to be shared, but they come with the fear that if I make the significant commitment to see them through I will still find myself back in this situation once again. I am doing much better now, but preparing campaigns might be the catalyst that returns things to how they were. I need the time to even be able to trust myself that this is really what I want. Lately, I've wanted to simply enjoy what I have, just focus on streaming, rather than challenge myself to make more complicated content -- but when I'm not working on something like Myriad I still have that creative itch that wants to push me back into doing more. The only way I can get a fresh perspective is with time away looking from a different angle. I want to look from every angle before I confirm anything and hopefully by January I feel more comfortable with a conclusion.
The intention of what Myriad was originally meant to be has changed a ton. I wanted to get people together that I'm not even friends with anymore. I wanted fully original content in a time before live streaming full TV episodes was normal. In many ways I think I was naïve going into this, but I also believe you need to be to accomplish things sometimes. If you were fully aware of how much would have to go into the path you set yourself down and understood the full scope it would be overwhelming to the point of not even starting. The drastic options I've mentioned represent a clean slate where I can really re-evaluate everything I want right now against how much has changed.
If I do stop, I would only feel bad that I let down the community of interested viewers. People who have put their faith in me through things like this Patreon. I feel I have overpromised and under delivered. I have greatly enjoyed the journey, though, and my time doesn't feel wasted. I look back on everything very positively and it will make me better at anything I do in the future. I just don't know if I can succeed here without sacrifices I'm not sure I am willing to make or a different approach that makes it fit into my life easier.
Comments
Robin W
Dearest Ster, i am a massive Myriad fan, ive rewatched some of the older series a bunch of times and am enjoying what it is now. I feel that you should always put yourself first and if this isnt right for you, its okay to stop. People like me will still support you, no matter what, and we are the majority. That being said, i also really enjoyed your original DnD content. It was refreshing, this dark and special world you created, and i was never bothered that we didnt reach the peaks of the world story, but instead enjoyed fools (you know what i mean) hanging around in that world. It was fun, it was you, and whatever you make or do next, i will watch your content and am sure i will enjoy it. If a pause is healthy, then a pause i accept. If this is the end of the Myriad, so be it. Much love, a fan
Flomlette
What Myriad has become is something that inspired me a lot personally to start working on my own TTRPG system and every Myriad session gave me the motivation needed to continue writing my own thing. I m sorry about the toll that Myriad took on you , my brother Ster, but in the end your health should take priority. Nothing good comes from forcing yourself to do something you don't want to do for the views. It's important that you enjoy what you do and then indirectly the viewership will enjoy what they watch!
You reignited my passion for TTRPGs with the lore, system and content you made with Myriad. I don't know what your goals have been or what you expected, but that alone has been more than I could have ever asked for. I usually cycle through all of Myriad while I'm in the car or out on a hike, so thank you for providing me with content, entertainment and inspiration that I can put on repeat. While I would personally rather consume Myriad over Critical Role (which I have also watched/listened through), if this is the end of Myriad, I am simply happy it was created, and grateful for what it brought me. Take care of yourself and find what makes you happy. Much love.
