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CONTENT UPDATES & MORE xo
🕑 Added 2025-09-30 20:38:56 +0000 UTCHi loves!🤍✨
I hope you’ve had a lovely September and that spooky-season decorating has begun! My Christmas tree is still up from last year, so I’ll just be pretending it’s not there while I start putting out my fall décor. I expect you to also play delulu for a moment and act like it’s not there as well. Thanks!
First and foremost, I am so beyond blessed and grateful to have you here, sharing space with me on this human journey. Your love, light, and presence have meant more than you could ever know. If at any point I’ve made anyone feel unsafe or uncomfortable here, please know how deeply sorry I am.
A Little Life Update
This has been one of the hardest months of my life. Losing my health insurance meant losing the medication that’s helped regulate my heart for the last nine years. Without it, my heart rate has been dangerously high (often resting without movement all day and night 130–135 bpm even at rest), leaving me exhausted, breathless, and in pain.
Because of my conditions (POTS and WPW syndrome), this has led to extreme fatigue, tremors, nausea, and panic attacks from the chemical surges in my body. I’ve been mostly bedbound this month and trying my absolute best to cope.
I also need a heart ablation and ongoing infusions to stabilize my blood pressure and heart rate, but without insurance (which is $600/month) I can’t currently access them. This has been scary and overwhelming, etc.
To protect my health and life, I had to step back from the internet which was driving me into a scary dark place. There were moments I didn’t feel safe with myself. (I feel completely safe with myself now ofc) that’s when I had to really pull back. A gentle reminder that words are so powerful they can impact people‘s lives for the best or for the worst. I hope in your human experience you choose kindness over wild witch hunts that take drastic tolls on people’s lives.
Content Updates I’m doing my best to keep content flowing, even if it’s slower. Whispering and controlled breath work have been especially hard with my heart rate, but here’s what to expect:
Basic Loves: Today’s content will roll out. If my breathwork isn’t stable, two videos will go up by the end of the week.
October Bonus: Within the first 2 weeks of October I’ll have an ASMR private livestream for everyone as a thank-you, and next month I’ll film an extra video for Basic Loves to make up for delays.
If this doesn’t align with your needs, I completely understand…. please just send me a message here with the word “refund” and I’ll process it for you.
For Each Tier
Custom & Connecting Loves: If you’re okay with delays, please let me know. If not, send me a message requesting a refund and I’ll take care of it.
Spicy Loves: Content (photos + video) will be up by the end of the week, plus an extra try-on haul. The Spicy tier will stay open through October; after that, all content will move to my O to the F page. If this timing doesn’t work, please request a refund and I’ll get that started for you. (Shortly, I will share my O to the F page and what it’s under)
I’m always taken aback by the empathy and grace you’ve shown me for almost ten years. Thank you for making this community safe, loving, and respectful. My words of gratitude will always fall short.
If you haven’t heard it lately: I’m proud of you. I know you’re doing your absolute best in this human experience. If life’s curriculum has been tough and you’ve felt alone, please remember you are so loved and wanted.
all my love and light
XOXO
Comments
Violet Lily
Always sending you all the love and support Maddie. You’ve helped me through very difficult nights and I hope you feel just as supported by this beautiful community you have created. Hope that you feel so proud of that and sending you all the best wishes with your health this month and always xx
Nic
Thank you for everything you do Maddie. You have given us countless hours of peace, comfort and a safe space. We all owe you in return (:
