GenevieveMarie
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Please Read: Life Update
🕑 Added 2022-06-30 18:06:00 +0000 UTCHello everyone. I want to start off by saying that I usually don't share too much about my personal life online. Especially negative things because I like keeping this space fun and positive. Cosplay and my page is an escape for me as much as it is for all of you (I promise this post isn't going to be a total downer). But I respect you all a lot and I think you deserve to know a little about what has been going on behind the scenes because it has been affecting my work and my relationships.
Last month, I ended my relationship with my fiancé of 7 years. I never imagined this would happen. He was the first person I fell in love with and before then, I didn't think I was capable of romantic love. I thought falling in love was something other people could do, but I simply wasn't built for it. I couldn't have been more wrong.
I loved this man fiercely and with every part of my being. It is what drove me in my darkest moments and what made me feel god-like in my greatest triumphs. I started thinking about my life, not in the singular, but in the plural. Ours. We. Us. Such a simple idea that changes so much. This concept was, and still remains, precious to me.
For many years, I thought we would be together forever. I was going to build a life for us and when things got hard, I was going to fight for us, no matter the cost. Sadly, I didn't realize what the price would be. In the end, it came down to choosing between me, or us. Choosing us meant letting myself wither away. There would have been nothing of me left. That Genevieve would have been someone neither I or my friends and family would have recognized. So, as painful as it was, I chose me.
Ever since the breakup, I've been feeling more and more like myself again. I see wonderful opportunities to pursue and have found projects that spark new inspiration. Over the last two weeks, I've felt a wellspring of new creativity. Some mornings I'll wake up in giddy excitement because I'll have a new project to share with you guys.
It's true that I still cry some days when I think about what has happened. Sometimes, I'll imagine what could have been or I'll ruminate on the bad moments. But then I remember that I am more content now than I have been in a while. I'm very excited to see what this new path will bring.
The reason why I am telling you all this is to say that, even though I don't share what's going on in my personal life, I know people were starting to see the cracks beginning to show. Maybe some of you thought I was just slipping on a few things (deadlines and such). But I wanted to take this opportunity to share and really let you guys know that although things were not okay for me the last couple months, I am getting better. I plan on not only getting better but being the best I've ever been.
The last month has been very difficult for everyone. Know that I really appreciate everything you all do for me. Your support, well-wishes, and friendship mean so much. We can get through the hard times and enjoy the sun when it shines on us, together.
Comments
Thank you, I'm looking forward to the next chapter of my life. I've got so much to share and I'm not going to let this bring me down.
Thank you, I really appreciate your kind words. The last two months have taken a lot out of me, but all the effort has been in the service of a bright future.
Gen, we live in very different realities, but I understand you very well. It takes a lot of courage to accept the need for change and take the necessary actions, even if they are very painful. Rest assured that all pain will soon turn into growth and you and the other person will have your paths filled with opportunities and accomplishments. I wish you the best! Sending love here from Brazil!
Patrick Carey
I am so sorry to hear about this. I hadn't noticed any decline in your work, but I hope you can move on with the next stage of your life. I would hope travel might give you some recharge of your batteries. Focusing on new projects might be helpful, but if you feel the need to retreat for awhile at some point, do whatever you need to do. We love your work, but we love you more.
