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State of the Reward's progress! [With Special photo]
🕑 Added 2020-05-31 16:37:19 +0000 UTCHello my Sweethearts!
I'm here to share on our current progress with the rewards, as the title says. And share a bit of my thoughts on parting spring (not sure if I used correct adjective)). Anyway, today is the last day of Spring, which means almost half of the year past.
It wasn't easy time for all of us and still brings some harsh things. There were so many strangely unpleasant things, so I'm in mental condition, where I lost any energy to react or being upset. I think, most of us can relate to this.
And when such mental condition comes, I believe true good changes start to come. Just need to pull ourselves "up" a bit, to be able to reach to this changes and ambrace them fully.
As you noticed, I was not that talkative in May. Not that I was less introverted before, but even for me it is different level. )
There is the reason. Not BIG of a reason, but at some ways it makes a bit difficult to go forward with head rised high. I started to feel "Burned from inside".
I'm starting to feel, that as time progresses I start to feel less love in what I love to do - photography. And it is scary and depressing thing. Everyone of us felt same at one point of our lives and you might needed a lot of efforts and strength to help yourselves.
So, this is where I am right now.
Depression is here and I'm desperately trying to overcome crisis. Eventually, after long talk to myself and with people who were near, I came to some conclusions and decisions for future. I hope it'll help. Crucial thing for now, is to leave bad emotions and thoughts. Which is hard and need a lot of tears to shed.
Good thing I don't sink depression in alcohol and drugs, hehe )
Before sharing with you, I was thinking, is it a good idea to do so? In the end, we all have problems on our own.
But, I consider every of you as friend, and I wanted to be honest with you. Like it should be.
I wanted to say, that there is always the way. As not that positive minded as I am, I believe you can overcome anything, if you'll decide to ask for help.
Please take proper care of yourself. Don't hold bad feeling inside. Enjoy every minute of your life. You all are great human beings and nothing will change it.
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I'm doing my best and working hard on May's rewards. There is still a bit of work left, but I can assure wait will be short. Two days not less. I want to make everything faster than it was in April. )
Before I go, here is photo from our Special "Moon Reflection pt.2" still with me as model. More photos from this project, yey! I know, it is upsetting to see same model for Specials for several monthes, but all complaints to our Tao )
Have a great day and please stay safe!
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