Cherry
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Deepest Apologies: October/Indefinite pause (update)
🕑 Added 2024-10-01 03:25:08 +0000 UTC(TLDR at the end) -
As I am writing this, I will be waiting to pause payments for October (it is not available yet). - I would also like to apologize in advance for the rambling nature of this post. My thoughts are not clear right now.
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I am currently still substituting teaching (FT/OT), and currently do not have the headspace to figure out content. So naturally, October will be paused.
How long until I can hold a pencil again? I frankly don’t know anymore. The most truthful answer is I simply haven’t been able to. I have a lot of ideas, but no desire to draw them. The strange thing is, this has never happened before in my 8 years of content creation, the way I dropped cold turkey. I had always picked myself back up, but this time is different. I just couldn’t. Not right now. I don’t know when, of if I will ever be able to. I just don’t know.
Naturally, I can’t (and won’t) charge if I’m not producing content, especially here. So I’m pausing until I pick myself back up again, or start drawing once more.
I’ve also realized I’ve been really, really unhappy for a long time, and the recent death in family made me finally admit it. I’ve slowly fallen out of love with drawing, and constantly fell into a cycle where I would compare myself with other paid creators.
I also have a “Sanity Meter” with kinky stuff. It gets old fast, so I need to lighten it every once in a while. I know the top earners draw the most extreme stuff, something I can’t ever do.
I realized, I don’t know what I want to do anymore. I have no desire to do anything creative or go outside. If you’re on the discord, you will know I’ve been spending a ton of free time playing Genshin Impact - it’s kept me happy. Happy, or distracted? Happily distracted? Both, lol..
I just.. don’t know when I will be drawing again. I also don’t want to delete this page, because I’ve invested so much time and effort into it, even built a commmunity. It was the only thing I built all on my own, with no outside input. I simply don’t have the heart to delete 3 years’ worth of content. But I’m also at a standstill - so now this place is just a placeholder. No one new can sign up, only exit. I got so far but events set me back so far down. If you feel the need to leave all this time, I don’t blame you. I completely understand and wish you the best.
I need time to figure myself out.
Thank you for your time and patience.
-Cherry
Maybe if I draw something, it will be posted for paid members only. But what are the chances at this time? :”v
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TLDR: indefinite pause (for now) until I can pick up a pencil again and figure things out.
Comments
Jan Payares
take care dear, the pursuit of happiness isn't a linear line, there's no one solution and in the end you gotta do whatever feels right for you.
Tim TheFoodDude
Please take care of yourself and work on healing before anything else. You don't owe us anything. I can guarantee most of us want the best for you and will do what we can to support you in what you want to do and what's best for you.
