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DS : Chapter 120
🕑 Added 2025-01-07 15:37:59 +0000 UTC[3rd POV]
It was the same night as when Muichiro came to Seiji. In the room of Kanae Kocho, two girls were facing each other while sitting on the bed.
"Now that we finally have private time to talk, I want to start by apologizing to you, Mitsusri," Kanae said, bowing as deeply as she could.
"I have wronged you deeply by going after Seiji while knowing about your engagement. I am truly sorry," she said so sincerely that her voice quivered like a guitar string.
She met the girl not too long ago but after only knowing her for two days, Kanae found herself guilty.
For the longest time, she had been believing speculations that suited her. Seiji's fiance probably did not love him, it was arranged by their parents. Seiji was likely the only one truly in love, the girl is only after his money and looks. They only met recently, surely the girl would not love him as much as she did.
She had been telling herself these excuses to reduce the guilt she felt whenever she went after Seiji. But after meeting the girl and getting to know her personally, she realized how wrong she was.
She had been so selfish as to get in between two couples that loved each other perfectly, just because she was too unwilling to accept her own mistakes.
Mitsuri stayed silent and gazed at Kanae who still remained in a bowing position. She was upset when she learned this, but that was a long time ago.
"It's okay," she said, her voice kind, "I understand,"
Who better to understand what Kanae was going through than Mitsuri? Both girls were in love and even that with the same person.
Mitsuri was well aware of what love did to a person. How it could make them selfish like thieves and sacrifice like saints. When love comes to you, it becomes everything.
She felt wronged, sure. And she did not appreciate that someone was trying to take a portion of, probably what she loved the most in the world.
But..
"You loved him first, didn't you," Mitsuri said.
Kanae felt her breath go deeper into her stomach instead of coming out of her throat. Her mind briefly played the memories she had of the past, the time when she first met Seiji, the time when they sparred together, the time he brought home her favourite flower and in return she fixed his haori which got torn from climbing a mountain to fetch said flower.
The memories played so fast yet everything fit in that short span of time. She didn't know how. Maybe because all those memories, years in time, could be summarized into one feeling, one emotion, one word.
That was happiness.
Or love. They're the same thing really.
"I guess I did," Kanae said and straightened her back with a bitter smile, a ridiculous smile. How come happiness brought a bitter smile?
Mitsuri observed Kanae closely and she too, felt guilty.
Wasn't she the one who got lucky and was engaged to Seiji through their parents? She was the one that came between a love that bloomed first.
Was that really fair?
Kanae chased after her love, a little late maybe, but she was brave and determined enough to chase after the love she found. Beyond selfishness, beyond morals, she gave it all.
That was something Mitsuri couldn't relate to because she never had to chase after love.
Love found her on the day Seiji found her in that room while she secretly was dyeing her hair. She never had to fight or run after love, desperately asking to love her back.
The most she had to do was accept the love that found her, in all its truth.
Was that really okay? She didn't know.
"Do you hate me?" Mitsuri asked, rather timidly.
Kanae was caught off guard but soon caught on to what Mitsuri meant by her words. She tilted her head, the faintest smile on her lips.
"No," she said, she didn't hate her.
She wanted to, but she didn't.
"Why not?"
"Because he'll be happier with you," Kanae admitted. It was like stabbing at her own heart to admit that because she always thought no one would ever love Seiji as much as she did and so he would be the happiest with her.
But that has been proven wrong in recent days. She had witnessed what they were like together, Mitsuri and Seiji. It was almost like a scene out of the romantic book she used to read.
She witnessed how he laughed and she giggled, two sounds mixing into a melodious vibration of joy. The way he talked to her, the way she replied. His hand, on a constant search to find her and she melts in every embrace.
Kanae, for the first time, was glad to be blind. Because she feels that the scene might kill her if she saw it.
She did notice very cleary due to her blindness though, how his voice naturally turned softer, gentler and a little silly when he spoke to Mitsuri. It was a natural change in the frequency, love manifestation in sound. It was stark difference to how he talked to her. with the intent of trying to impress.
"Look at me," Kanae said and leaned back so that Mitsuri may take in the full sight of her.
"I have nothing to even offer anymore," a single tear left one of her eyes. The other eye could not even cry.
"I will likely never be the same anymore," she said, "I can't see and I can't enjoy the wonders of the world with him anymore. My body would recover but I won't be able to fight by his side, the best I could do is stay in bed and pray, have a smile on my face and be happy, like I am supposed to be. I have no future for him, I'll only hear and he'll only see,"
"But that's okay," she said. Because in that battle, she was able buy him a few seconds when he needed it the most.
"I'm not saying this for your pity, I am fine," she insisted, "I'm telling you to stop caring how I feel or whether you did something wrong, you didn't."
"You are perfect for him,"
"Just make sure he continues to be happy like he deserves to be," she said, "He saved me already, that's enough for me,"
The love between her and Seiji was always awkward even at its best. It never fit perfectly like it did between Mitsuri and Seiji.
"Oh and make sure you give him lots of children, he always wanted a big family," she said, a small chuckle came out even when tears fell.
"....."
"Nuh uh,"
"....hm?" Kanae blinked in confusion.
"Nuh uh," Mitsuri said again, "I can't do this anymore, waaaah,"
Mitsuri embraced Kanae in a big hug with tears falling down like a waterfall. Mitsuri was always one to be overly emotional and can't control herself so of course she would cry when she saw Kanae like that.
"This is so saaad, don't give up Kanae!!" Mitsuri encouraged her, regardless of how weird that was.
"You don't know how much he loves you. He was prepared to end everything with me just so that he could remain by your side. Your love isn't bad at all," Mitsuri said amidst tears.
"In fact, no love is bad. Everyone deserves to be loved,"
Kanae's eye widen in surprise before they closed in relief. She hugged back the girl who hugged her so tightly that she could barely breathe. She is really strong, Kanae thought to herself.
"Seiji loves you too and will continue to do so, there is nothing even I can do about it, I've promised to love him despite everything," she said.
"And after meeting you, I am not upset or jealous, not even one bit," Mitsuri reassured Kanae.
"Everything will be fine, your eyes will be healed soon, Seiji promised and he always keeps his promise,"
Kanae could not help but feel the warmth in her embrace. She could not comprehend how such a kind hearted girl could exist.
To say all that to someone like her..
"Thank you," was all she could say.
The two girls spent that night together. Thet talked and got to know each other, not to get close but to get familiar with the soul that they already got so close with.
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Author : Sooo.... That's how it is I guess. You wouldn't believe how many times I rewrite this arc only to realize it's a fucking fanfic and use none of the drama heavy ones lol.
Comments
heh
If anyone would accept nontraditional forms of live, it would be the live hashira
Martin Lervoll
Do I like Harem, yes. But no harem is probably better like 99% of the time. This is one that I feel is better with a harem. As you kinda set it up very early on to be a harem. Well just take your time to write, This was a nice chapter π Keep em coming.
