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Using Me as Your Stress Ball [MSub] [Dom Listener]
🕑 Added 2024-04-17 18:26:08 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: You come back from a tough day at work and need something to squeeze…
Tags: [M4F] [Roommates] [Teasing] [MSub] [Light Bullying] [Very Submissive] [Ass Groping] [Handjob] [Nipple Play] [Kissing] [Use of "Mommy"] [Promise for more Fun]
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So it turns out there are people who actually read these blurbs where I tell you to have fun jerking off or remind you to take care of yourselves.
That's according to some of the lovely chatters in my Discord, at least. I stopped writing out anything too lengthy because I figured nobody cared, but I think I'll actually use these as an opportunity for some general thoughts that have been percolating in my mind in the interim.
It's never far from my mind the concept that I need to not only be good at the things I set out to do, but that I need to excel. I don't agree with this mindset. It goes without saying that I do everything in my life to disentangle myself from such a worldview that we need to always be the best, which I think is incredibly poisonous and only reinforced by years and years of authority figures telling us that we need to make everything into a competition.
It'll soon be almost two whole years of me having done this erotic audio stuff here on Patreon. In the beginning when I set out to do this, I really thought I'd ease into it to a point where I would want to do it more and more and get better at it and network with other folks to work on all sorts of related creative projects.
But that spark never really came for me. I get that feeling with other things in my life: my writing and my streaming, for example. With those things I feel almost this sublime feeling of "this is something I'm really good at, and I enjoy it so much that I'm able to kind of escape my body for at least a little bit." The kind of feeling you get when you're watching an extremely good film that just completely absorbs you to the point where you're almost dazed by the time the credits roll.
I never felt that with erotic ASMR, even though I sometimes wish I would. Again, as I've said many times before, it's not because I'm not enjoying myself or because I'm not giving these audio performances my all. I am always giving 100% to the things that I do. It's just even still a slow realization for me to understand that -- and I'm not saying this for pity or sympathy -- I am perhaps very mediocre at this stuff, and that is completely okay. I am okay with not being the best at everything that I do, because I would rather be someone who creates an atmosphere where people enjoy themselves instead of looking into each other's pockets for who has more or less than them.
Wow, that was long, sorry. In summation, I'm just reiterating as I always do how much I appreciate you all being here. I hope you're all taking care of yourselves. I always say on stream that it's important to appreciate the people who are here while they are here, so I want you to know that I appreciate y'all and I hope you're doing well.
Catch me on stream being goofy if you want to.
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Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Levi Min | Max | Muffinbutt | Nani | Nexus | PurplishBlue | Samín | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
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