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"I'm Your Baby Boy..." [Taboo] [Real Org*sm]
🕑 Added 2024-07-03 17:17:11 +0000 UTC
I just posted this audio to the Discord. Be sure to join!
Script: Coldtofu
Summary: You walk in on me masturbating and decide to help your baby boy out...
(art by @kakinomai)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
Have you guys ever listened to the song "i" by Kendrick Lamar? If I were to contextualize it, I would say it's an anthem preaching self-love specifically to the black community in the face of a world that teaches you to become rather numb and scornful of all the things that are working against you in society.
I was obsessively listening to it when it first came out (almost a decade ago) specifically because I really liked the bridge where Kendrick says "I've been dealing with depression ever since an adolescent" after repeated choruses of "I love myself." I was in my late teens and horribly insecure and depressed and I just found nothing more beautiful and revolutionary than making a song about learning to love yourself even when the world tells you that you have so many reasons not to.
And even when I'm having an incredibly tough time with my mental state, I always try my best despite it all to recount all of my many gifts, as well as the wonderful people I've met in my life.
So this week I'm going to recount my blessings by talking about my lovely friends, specifically my friend Honey whom you might all know as one of my scriptwriters here. I need to remind everyone that it was a confluence of a few things that made me start doing Patreon stuff: I went viral on TikTok briefly because of some gross-out videos I made, and my friend DareDeity redeemed a massive point redeem on my Twitch streams where I would basically moan on mic on a secret alt Twitter account. The reception to people enjoying my voice and moans made me start up this Patreon side hustle.
I was admittedly in a bit of a panic when I first started because I had no experience with NSFW audio stuff (FYI: I still feel like I don't) and so I scouted the people who were already subscribed for their interest in writing for me, which is how I met xoxo, Max and HONEY. It's honestly kind of crazy to look back at old conversations between me and Honey and realize how formal we were with each other, because nowadays I cannot imagine them just not always being a presence in my life to make me feel like things are going to be okay with their unabashed silliness that I love. You have no idea how relieving it is to just have people in your life who check in with you and want to make sure you're doing okay, and Honey never fails to put a smile on my face.
It's coming up on a little over two years since I first met Honey as well as started this whole Patreon venture. I'm very thankful to have you all here. Even just last night, for a brief moment and prompted by literally nothing other than my own insecurities, I felt a small sense of bleakness about what I was doing with my life. This was before I eventually snuggled into the arms of my partner and felt instantly better, but I do notice very palpably overall how much I'm able to pull myself out of those moods by reminding myself of the lovely people I've met like Honey. I would not change that for anything in the world.
Thank you all for being here.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Crieft | Max | Nani | Nexus | Vade Vafurous
Comments
Enrico Zenitani
I really appreciate that, and I'm happy to know that people are actually reading these ramblings. In my free time recently, I have actually been trying to find an avenue for blogging more just about my life and stuff because I do have a site where I write things but it's more just creative fictional writing. If I ever do decide on anything, I'll be sure to mention it here.
testtesting123
Bro, you should start a blog or something. I find your weekly thoughts well-written and thought provoking. As someone who also deals with depression and insecurity, seeing someone who seems both talented and well-loved struggle in similar ways has made me re-evaluate how I perceive myself. This post has also inspired to practice gratitude and take time to acknowledge the people in my life who love and care for me.
