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Getting Sweaty Together in the Park [Wholesome] [Shy Himbo]
🕑 Added 2024-07-10 17:59:09 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: After school, we go jogging together in the park, and you start to get aroused at my shirtless, sweaty body…
Sequel to: "Blowing me in the Locker Room" and "Fucking You in the Locker Room"
Tags: [M4M] [Park Date] [Himbo] [Shy] [Jogging] [Sweaty] [Public] [Blowjob] [Pec/Armpit Play] [Standing Doggystyle] [Gentle into Rough] [Affectionate]
(art by @nayoshi_(r-744))
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
I want to start off this week by thanking testtesting123 for the very kind comment on my previous post. Aside from a few people on my Discord whom I chat with and adore, I honestly do not ever expect anybody to read through my ramblings. I've had this weird urge lately to want to spout off more at length about certain things in my life that I feel would be fun to share if only to make other people feel more connected and less alone, or to just educate people on something they might not have any familiarity with. I really have considered starting up a blog. I'll let y'all know if I do decide to do just that.
This week I'd like to talk about resentment. This kind of goes in line with what I regularly talk about in trying to navigate through feelings of bleakness whenever I'm in a depressed mood, and I think what oftentimes goes along with that is a feeling of being spurned by certain people in my life who, in looking back, affected my life for the worse.
Something my therapist has helped me kind of reconcile in myself is just how much I seem to still harbor so much of that resentment for the people in my past who've wronged me, whether that's people I thought were friends of mine who ended up abandoning me because they felt that they "outgrew" me, or exes who were just straight up abusive and hurtful. I'm in a much better place now obviously with where I am in my life and the fact that I have a partner who regularly checks in on me. And so it's become kind of a difficult idea to wrap my head around the fact that I still find myself thinking about these old circumstances as if they do in fact have any bearing on my current situation when I'm a completely different person than the one I was at the time these things were happening. Why does my brain still latch onto this resentment?
This isn't to say that you shouldn't process and properly internalize the shitty things that have happened to you and that you should just paper over these feelings by suppressing them. It's just that after a while, these feelings of resentment become little more than emotional brooding, and the narrative in my head is said so many times that it becomes self-serving and I realize I only say these things to make myself feel better without actually doing anything, thus repeating a cycle of just disengaging from the immediate reality around me and becoming numb to everything by saying that everyone else is wrong except for me.
Lately I've been in a very rant-y mood, and I've been trying my best to balance the feeling of reassuring myself that I'm doing fine by not associating with certain terrible people, and not letting that throw me for another mental loop where I just implicitly tell myself how great of a person I am just because I'm not like those people. It's a very delicate thing but it's very important for me to distinguish those things to keep myself humble.
In any case, I hope you're all well. I appreciate you all being here, and I hope you have a great week ahead.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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