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"You're so beautiful..." [Body Worship] [Confession] + Bonus(?)
🕑 Added 2024-07-17 18:22:20 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: You’re not feeling beautiful, and I’m here to remind you...
Tags: [M4F] [Friends to Lovers] [Insecure Listener] [Beach Body] [Confession] [Affectionate] [Gentle] [Teasing] [Praise] [Compliments] [Kissing] [Body Worship] [Cunnilingus] [Clit Stimulation]
(art by @mizugaki_tougo)
Also here's a quick and unedited audio of me masturbating in the middle of recording this because I couldn't handle how horny the scenario was making me.
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
In the days leading up to today, I felt like I had a lot to tell you guys about. I'm still on this performance improvement thing at work that'll determine if I still have a job in a couple of weeks, I'm still plugging away at all of my different projects both in terms of content creation and personal stuff that I want to accomplish, and I have a lot of thoughts going on about stuff that's happening in the world around us.
Overall I just wish things could at least return to a pace where it didn't feel like monumental events were constantly happening at every moment unabated. I'm not one to advocate for apathy at all in saying that you should all unplug and turn your brains off, but something about the last few weeks specifically has been getting to me, and the other day specifically after watching more footage of these people in Gaza living in squalor having to deal with even more death and destruction, I just silently broke down and cried to myself.
I'm not saying any of that to fish for sympathy at all -- the one thing I absolutely do not want to do when I'm talking about a humanitarian issue is center myself of all people when I'm just a spoiled American who's relatively privileged compared to so many others.
And that's kind of what I wanted to talk about today as well, even though I just have this slight feeling that I've talked about it before already? If I have, please let me know.
There was a person who used to watch my streams that recently blocked me because I took them to task over some tweets they made that just straight up did not make any sense and could be interpreted as being a little bigoted. They somehow misinterpreted me asking for clarification as me attacking them for their beliefs and did a whole stream where they felt the need to say I'm "stupid" because all I do is "read a lot of books" and I don't know the world. Honestly I was relieved that they had blocked me because they seemed genuinely a little dumb and constantly liked to talk out of their ass.
But that kind of got me thinking about a lot of other things about my interaction with people online. Do I come off as intimidating at all? Do I come off in a way where you would prefer to not engage? There have been a number of times when people wouldn't confront me head-on about something they perceived as a disagreement with me, and instead of just asking me outright (keep in mind, these are friends of mine) they would just let it fester and then distance themselves. I've always found it to be a pleasure to engage with people who might want further clarification about the things I believe in.
I probably read too much into it but I hate to think that there's something specifically about me that puts people away from wanting to engage. The incident with the person above really shocked me because I tried to use as non-provoking language as possible, and they still interpreted everything I said as an attack. I know that says more about them than it does me, but even so it just makes me worried that I have a harshness about me that I'm not recognizing.
This is kind of a half-formed and jumbled weekly ramble, I will admit. It's something I'm still mulling over. I hope you're all well regardless.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Max | Nani | Nexus | Vade Vafurous
Comments
Azrael
I don’t think you’re at all intimidating, En. You’re a beautiful person with an amazing personality. The willingness to sit down and explain your beliefs is admirable, not everyone would take the time to do that. People are quick to snap, as I’m sure you’ve seen. We all sincerely appreciate the work that you do and you’ve been doing such an amazing job! (I’ve been loving the rants lately! Keep it up man!!)
