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An innovative algorithm (selfies, diary)
🕑 Added 2021-08-10 18:45:03 +0000 UTCIt was so powerful. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ynmbNWEP-oE
Diary. When I write a new innovative algorithm in my psyche, it always has consequences on the mental and physical levels. The new algorithm begins to squeeze out from the depths of my mind what contradicts it. Sometimes this is accompanied by vascular spasms and pain. And these pains continue until I understand the essence of the inner conflict, the essence of the lie with which I have lived all this time. ... It is important to resolve this inner conflict as quickly as possible, otherwise such things end badly. This requires a very developed and mobile mind, and I sometimes cannot understand what my problem is for years. ... The new algorithm of the absolute natural initial psychic individual freedom and separation of me from everything else caused consequences and destroyed one of my main values and one (as I thought all this time) of my main virtues last night. ... I will not voice the changes in the details, but I will say that over one sleepless night I radically revised my attitude to mercy, compassion, someone else's pain and suffering, and to someone else's life in general. And now I feel better. Sometimes the roots of the lies and the most terrible things go so deeply into the mind and are hidden behind such attractive and right masks that, on the one hand, you are horrified when you understand a certain fact, but on the other hand, you feel relief and joy because now, you see the truth, you understand the mechanics, you understand exactly how it works. And the body cannot be fooled. Spasms go away only when you have formed a correct understanding of things.
