Nonexternal
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Update - and the future ahead
🕑 Added 2022-03-13 16:53:10 +0000 UTCEmbed image URL, this post might be a bit chaotic and back and forth, but I'll try to make it somewhat easy to read.
Why am I making this post?
- I want to make it clearer to new and old followers what I do, don't and might do with my art
- Give you guys insight to what's going on with me and explain what I want to do/envision and look at what I do.
- Overall just want to be more transparent and try to convey a clearer picture to you
All this is to reduce stress on my end and confusion on yours, and maybe it will help us understand each other a little better
My art
I see myself as a character illustrator, not a modeler or animator.
- The reason is that i enjoy the creation of new characters, designs and capture personality and motion of things
- I use a lot of techniques that is not optimal for animations/game ready characters -
My rigs are super heavy, and it would require A LOT of work to make it into sellable models, and that's honestly not something I'm very interested spending my time on right now(MAYBE in the future, but it's not a high priority
How I see myself
I am chaotic, and i struggle with structure
As you know, I'm a bit chaotic and go with the motions of things; Because of this, a lot goes into the well-o' forget-ness and it makes it hard for me to be methodical and structured.
It is something I'm working on, but it makes me depressed and stressed out if i push myself to much with structure, as I tense up very easily if there is a lot's of do's and dont's and timelines.
So if im late, or forget something, it is more likely because I'm either caught in a motion or am drained out - I don't mind reminders from you, as this helps me out to re-center myself.
When I'm drained, I can be grumpy and short
Some of you might have experienced a super positive energetic dude, that turned into an old grump that might be snarky and rude. Well, that's at least how I experience myself XD And I know that when im tired, it takes a lot of energy for me to interact with people, and i often skip it, am short, snarky and "clever" and sometimes outright rude.
Im explaining this because I want you to know that I ultimately don't like being like this, but I can't always see it in the moment then and there. Again it's not an excuse, but it's an explanation, and I ultimately don't want to be rude towards people, my goal is to help wherever i can and be inspiring!
Commissions
For me commissions take a lot of energy, it's something i try to take seriously, and i sometimes takes it to seriously which tires me out. I try to give it my best but sometimes that gets in the way. That among other reasons is why I can be so slow on working on commissions and do so few of them, Because i wasn't to feel the piece i work with, to get the best result; and that is something I can't really force.
So if i work on other stuff when I have your commission, that dosn't mean I don't like it, it's just something that demands more of me then doing personal pieces, since It matters more what the end result is as i want to make the costumer happy!
What I want to do and updates onwards.
ATM I'm on social money until June, and I want to spend this time preparing myself to go full freelance, as i might get less room to improve and such when I have to get started for real.
Find an assistant
that can do small jobs concerning patreon, web page stuff and other frontend things. I have yet to figure out how to orchester this.
If you have a proposition, feel free to contact me about this!
Update Patreon
I want to make my patreon even cleaner, and clearer that patreon is more a gateway into the full package that u can get on discord.
Make it clearer on what I do, what you get, and why things can be a bit chaotic.
More community stuff
I like helping people, and creating a community, but it's not something im good at. But I will try to focus more on doing community streams and other stuff when I have the energy for it <3 Feel free to come with suggestions.
Update webpage and commission info
to make it clearer what I do and don't, as well as what price and product you might expect
Webstore
Due to reasons I can explain later i'm not able to have a merch store other than Patreon right now, but u can expect hearing more about this around summertime
Hope this all made a little sense, and thank you all for your support <3
If you have ANY questions, feel free to ask!<3
Comments
Mazin Magician
It's ok! Just do your best and make more of what you've done before! Assistant would probably be a great idea! I would love to see animations in the future, but I definitely understand the technical difficulty with making models animatable. Regardless, I'm here to support you as you take the time to learn and grow as an artist! Also, fuck schedules and structure! "All art is unstable." -David Bowie
