Nonexternal
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Life update
🕑 Added 2023-07-06 15:32:43 +0000 UTCIts a bit hard as always to make these, cause I feel like I complain. But these are meant to update you and keep you in the light of my situation. Cause it impacts the patreon-rewords etc.
Anyways, the short version
I feel like im getting worse again and a little bit more
Discard Poste away, it requires more and more mental effort, and the mental rewards are fewer and further between.
Some might say: suck it up; but i've tried to, i've tried to make it a dicipline thing, but it just tears me more and more down.
Mentally I want to do 3D, But if thats because I feel i should, and because i've invested my 4 last years into this IDK.
IDK if this is just a long downperiod and anytthing i've mentioned above is because I've deeply lost ambition in it, or if its because of some mental instability or w/e.
On top of this it has been a lot of thoughts around what to do further, should I move, get a drivers license etc?
So yeah, it feels like its either a midlife crisis, art crisis/blockage, or it might just be mental downtime for whatever reason.
All in all, its frustrating, to feel like everything is declining, and I don't have anything to work on to get better. I've tried relaxing multiple times and thought a lot about this. But as things feels like now, it still standing.
I must again thank you all for the support trough these hard times. And dw, i would understand if you are not keen on supporting when theres way less rewards!
Anyways, thank you all for the support!
