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Gay & Straight Orgasms | The Horny Post | 4/13/24
🕑 Added 2024-04-13 19:00:32 +0000 UTC
Last week, we mentioned the existence of two different types of orgasms. A gay orgasm and a straight orgasm. Now, let us expand.
My attraction to men and women is different from each other. I have two conflicting desires. On one hand, I am a subby bottom boy who wants to be ravished by a man who doesn't care how much I cry. On the other, I have typical heterosexual male desires and I hate this part of myself. When I first got on HRT I was also on testosterone blockers. These pretty much killed my desire to have sex with women. I still was bisexual, but my attraction became more emotional that physical. But eventually, I got off testosterone and the feelings came back.
A gay orgasm arises from my feeling of taking cock. Rather I am masturbating normally or have my thruster in my ass the feeling is the same. When I cum to thinking about getting fucked, I feel the orgasm in my ass. It's sweeter, more intense, and emotionally satisfying. Being with men in my more natural state and has no guilt associated with it.
A straight orgasm feels completely different. It is not a response to an emotional drive but a completely carnal one. As my t-levels went back up, I had more of a desire to top a woman. When I cum to the thought of women, it is blunt and sharp. It comes from just wanting to get the cum out of my body. When it finishes, I feel horrible. (Watching hentai certainly doesn't help.) That post-nut clarity goes hard. I was raised entirely by women and have been a feminist since before I can remember. Hence, I feel an extreme level of guilt about nutting to women. I feel I am betraying my roots. That if I am to be having relations with women that my sexuality should take on an egalitarian form. This is rendered difficult to the constant media portrayal of women as sex objects. Hence, I try to avoid watching straight porn as it is made to show the dominance of men over women. Which then contributes to my internalized hatred of men.
Gay and straight orgasms differ greatly, but I am hoping I will be able to rationalize the difference into a sustainable form where I can view them as equally valid form of the same thing. Or... I just get back on t-blockers and kill my masturbation habit again. That would be good.
