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Sweaters and longer hair
🕑 Added 2021-09-15 07:49:58 +0000 UTCHello! Here’s a little textual ramble about mental well being in how I look.
One of the things that has always plagued me growing up, has been my need to look a certain way. When I was in primary school I was bullied a lot for being quite small and skinny, and when I grew taller I was made fun of for just being skinny. My hair had always been a big part what I had control over, so I always spent time every day making sure it looked good.
I used to take showers every morning, put product in my hair, put on a nice outfit, and with those things I could feel confident and good throughout the day. And while that is a perfectly valid and healthy thing to do, what was not so healthy, was how I felt if I didn’t. I had such a bad time if I didn’t do these things in the morning. I’d even go home early from school, or just completely disassociate from the world.
I’ve always been restricted to a long morning routine, for my mental well being and confidence.
For the first time, I have decided to try and challenge that mental restriction. I have let my hair grow longer than it ever has (not that long so far) - and tried not to care so much about how it looks.
So here I am, in the morning, with a borrowed elastic, sitting with my silly sprout, trying to figure out how I feel about myself.
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On another note ~
Thank you to everyone who wished my mother happy birthday! She really enjoyed the walkman, and sends me daily snapchats with her listening to a new song.
I’m looking forward to showing you the next thing I’ve been working on. 🌱
Much love, Crunchy ❤️
Comments
Anira
Your sprout 🌱 is looking awesome 😌 It stays with us what we went through when little, especially because it’s such an important moment of our lives, where we are growing up… I’ve always suffered about my weight and height, so, my posture has always been crap because I kept trying to be the same height as my friends, leaving me in a hunchback and all lol and being overweight/fat just made everything worse. So I would just wear too many clothes, pants all year (I’ve only learned to use and enjoy skirts and shorts when I was like, past 25) etc. Happy that you’re taking care of yourself. Cheers! Many hugs 💛
Aw man, I'm sorry to hear that, school and in general teenage years are such an awful and toxic time, so I can very much relate to that experience and...I mean, most probably can to be fair. Luckily, you are now able to have such a (I would guess at least mostly) lovely community, which isn't nearly as bad as such superficial people and I'm glad that you are in a better spot now~ Also, apart from that, happy belated Birthday to your mother and I'll be glad to see the upcoming content you'll upload. Have a good one~
