pinktaco
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a farewell for now
🕑 Added 2025-07-31 11:59:40 +0000 UTCi no longer believe i can keep trying to make a living out of my art despite wanting to. i'll try my best to give a clear explanation, because you guys deserve it for the support you have given me over the past 5 years.
my track record has become very bumpy with several month long breaks, inconsistent comm openings, gradually less art and a decreasing presence in multiple spaces on the internet. since around october2023 it's been noticably difficult for me to not feel a crippling mental pain when creating art. though i can see some early signs of similar struggles dating back to around apr2022.
i took breaks, did studies, tried various schedules, changed tools, experimented with styles and processes, explored other hobbies like music and games, maintained a healthier diet, got more sunlight, more conscious internet usage, ... none of which have made a permanent improvement to my art making struggles.
throughout the past 2+ years i tried to narrow the potential problem down. my best guess, as of right now, is that it has to do with my most desirable needs not being covered by my art. it has covered my needs for skill growth and sexual comfort, but my needs for financial self-sufficiency and control have always remained unfulfilled and have grown stronger than my other needs. with this assumption it makes sense that i would have an immensly difficult time to motivate myself to get out of bed to draw, despite having a lot of ideas and images i'd love to see realized as an illustration or animation.
i'm 100% sure there are other factors that have hindered my mental capabilities as well, but if my struggles really do boil down to my needs not being covered, then good news, that means once they are covered i might feel the desire to make art again. though likely as a hobby rather than a jobby.
as for the patreon and discord. they will stay accessible! i rebranded my page as an archive already, just now for the time being there won't be any updates and removing the discord won't yield any benefit. i'll update the discriptions to make sure it's clear the patreon is inactive, but people can still support the existing art if they want to.
the character polls will be paused! for the current characters on the to-do list (Sable and Ramona) i can't deliver any art for the time being. if you feel like this warrants a refund i understand and can offer to refund the pledge amount you gave from jul2025 - aug2025. pledges starting with sep2025 won't be refundable.
one last thing. i may have to make a last-ditch effort before the year ends to earn some money through my freelance activities. it's part of an obligation i have to the artist's social security office that has helped me cover my insurance costs for the past 3+ years. if there's no other chance i'll think of something like doing a "portrait sketch comm opening" or something small stakes like that.
i've made some great connections with some of you. many of you have also supported me with incredibly kind enthusiasm and appreciation that has helped me to understand that my art and by extension my dreams are valued. i like the waters here despite the occasional rough currents, but my boat finally capsized and i'll need some time to fix it up before i can hopefully return to my beloved sea.
thank you for everything <3
Comments
Matthew
Damn I just found your art and subbed instantly, a shame that real world pressures are often hard on artists such as yourself. Build a life first, we will wait for you to come back, and welcome you with open arms when you're ready again.
pinktaco
glad i could serve as an entrance and exposure to the art community for you! i will certainly keep an eye on the server and occasionally share art from others.
pinktaco
i highly appreciate the determination!
Cab
in the words of Douglas Adams. "so long and thanks for all the fish"
ShadowDawn
Just saw this. You were the reason I started looking more into the art scene. It’ll be sad to see you inactive but I’ll wait as long as I need to. Hope life starts going your way soon. Also you still gonna be active in the discord at least?
Bonezilla
I don’t care if it takes 100 years or more, I’ll be here for ya!
pinktaco
it is indeed difficult to just 'hope' all the way through, even with stubborness and constant reminders of where i started. whenever it will call i make sure to answer it.
Cactus
Of course, you need to take care if yourself first and foremost, Pink. I hope that one day art can call to you again, and ill be on the lookout for the openings! As an artist, i get it. The stability is so important, and its so scary to just 'hope' you'll make it. We'll be here when you can come back, rooting for the best for You.
brownie
real life should always come first, take care of yourself.
Khanaar
Ill still be here when you decide to come back i love your style and characters and what you do. Take care of yourself firstly though
pinktaco
i can't express with just words how thankful i am for your thoughtful and sympathetic response ;_;
pinktaco
thank you kindly for the reassurance ;_;
Guinnessgrip
Pink, thank you so very much for walking us through your reasoning. I 100% agree with your conclusion and I'm glad that you've deliberated on it and weighed other options first. Your work will always be treasured and I hope you can feel proud of how much joy you've been able to impart on others through your work over the years, even when it wasn't kind to you in return. I'm very excited to see what this new chapter in life has in store for you, I'm rooting for you to find what you're looking for!
Baldur the Impious
Forever one of my favorites, weather you are drawing art or not. ❤️
ICantFindSock
Put yourself first and foremost, reasonable people will understand. Thank you for all the wonderful work you have shared with us, I treasure the pic I had gotten from you and hoped to have gotten one more from you (never say never, it may be years but I can wait) but I still very much look forward to seeing what you still may come up with as a hobbyist. It may not be as often, but it will be your work, in your style, with your sensibilities, so it will be good. I hope you find stability and comfort in your new path as you deserve it.
Dang
When the capsized boat is fixed and back out on the waters, we will be here for you. Thank you for all the wonderful content and for being such a kind and lovely person.
