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3 Months Out; Where I'm Going.
🕑 Added 2021-05-09 01:03:42 +0000 UTCBeen a bit too long for one of these huh? Well, I suppose that just means I have more to say. But in all honesty...I think I've also been kind of...drawing inward I guess? Becoming withdrawn as the fire experience sets in more, and we continue to go on without finding a place to call home. I know that's not a good thing...so I'm trying to fight against it as best I can.
So as I said, we haven't found a home here in NH. We've pretty much thrown ourselves at everything that we could at this point, but nothing has really come from any of that. We're on several totally pointless waiting lists for apartment complexes that have way too many people ahead of us to even hope that something could come up in two years let alone two months. And in the one wild instance that a place actually had an opening come up out of the blue, they gave it to someone who put down the deposit sight unseen, something I wasn't even aware we could do based on the way they made 'going through the process' sound. Craigslist was no better. Eighty percent of the people I emailed never got back to me, another fifteen didn't take my mom's housing voucher, and the remainders were either scams or totally dropped off contact out of the blue. Needless to say...I'm just...I mean it all just feels hopeless at this point.
Earlier this week I came across the old paper handout the town had given us just days after the fire and it just.... made me feel worse I think. I mean, the town did help us with the hotel stay and gift cards, but...there was so much in there about 'advocating' for us, and helping us find our new homes. It was enough to prompt me to send them one final email to them, expressing gratitude for what they had done, but admitting that helping with the burden of finding a home was more important than anything else, and I felt they had honestly fallen short of that.
Their response? I wasn't grateful enough, and that I sound depressed and should set up to see a therapist which they offered to help with. (Paraphrasing there). It was essentially kicking a squid while he was down, despite my email not being an 'angry' one, but a more pleading and vulnerable email about my feelings. I messaged back that I said multiple times I was grateful for the cards and hotel stay, but I also reminded them that in order to get help with anything else I had to twist their arms to varying degrees to get them to agree to help, and in those instances they made sure to shame me over needing it and reiterating whatever it was would be a 'one-time thing'. I mean, they shouldn't have made such bold claims and promises if they were going to act put-out whenever someone had to ask for them to make good on them.
Also, I pointed out therapy wouldn't exactly help the 'lack of home' thing, and with that being the root cause of the current depression, it means it would be an exercise in futility. At the very least replying made me feel better...I guess...but it didn't really get me anywhere new.
Since then I've turned purely to focus on Colorado and the trip that awaits. We're slated to leave on the 17th, So I've still got a few things to get settled before we take the Rental RV across the country. It's a more expensive method of travel than I initially planned, but keeping my mom's needs and personal comfort in mind, it seemed like the best option, with the added bonus of being able to make some nice tourist pit-stops along the way. I can even hitch the 'Bellwagon', (My smart car) to the back of the thing, so...I'll still have something of mine when we finally get to grand junction.
Still, even staying with my brother...I don't know if house searching will go any better out there...but at this point, it's the only option in terms of keeping me and my mom together and not breaking the bank while in the process of finding a place.
Now on to...I guess lighter news stuff? I'm still drawing. In fact, that's been part of what delayed this update as long as it has, as I was investing my time into drawing rather than writing up this long update post. (And by the time I'd finished I'd feel too tired to compose this). I'll be dumping some stuff shortly after this...a lot of sequence work, featuring mostly my Zoot characters. Got something adorable and wholesome, and something more...risque. Expect them soon.
One more thing before I get to the Patreon thank you's. The Gofundme for me and my mom will be closing soon. I'd like to thank all of you, backers, fans, friends, everyone who threw something in to help me and my mom. It has really helped and will go on to help when we eventually find a place and start actually buying replacement furniture. This is, of course, not to put down those who could only offer emotional support. Even that was extremely appreciated and has really been helping me from slipping completely down into the darkness. That said, if there are any folks interested in a last-minute donation, I will link it a final time below.
If you miss it and still want to help, you can always hit up my "Buy me a coffee" as well.
https://www.buymeacoffee.com/S3KT7Ejtw
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Thank you guys so much for your continued support, especially during this time. It means the world to me, and hopefully, I'll be able to provide you with some better work than just traditional stuff soon enough.
That's all I can say for now...just going over that stuff sorta put me in a bad mood. I'll aim for a short update before I leave for Colorado, just before we go radio silent for a week or so. Don't want you guys thinking I just completely dropped off the face of the earth, do I?
-Wasty
