Anon42
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I am so sorry. Also thankful.
🕑 Added 2017-08-14 07:27:09 +0000 UTC Before I get to the meat of this post, let me start by saying that nothing is wrong with the update. As a matter of fact, I managed to fix all of the bugs the collision engine update caused for the Slimes today, which was the biggest thing that was holding it back - I had already spent a while trying to fix them and made almost no progress, so I wasn't sure how long that was going to take me. The update is proceeding along very smoothly and I fully expect it to be out in a day or two. If you're not interested in a lengthy post with apologies and the like, feel free to stop reading here, and I'll see you in a few days with a real update!The reason behind this post, as you may expect from the title, is for me to offer a sincere apology to every single person who has pledged to me recently - and beyond that, every single person looking forward to Crisis Point. The funny thing about major life events is they kinda screw with your perception of time. In my experience so far, the more serious and life-changing the event, the more it fucks with you. Over the last year, I've nearly died in a car crash (making me truly realize my own mortality for the first time), gained about $7000 in debt, flown all the way across the US four times (when normally I travel once every few years at the most), lost my father to cancer, moved to a new apartment.. it's been a busy and overwhelming year. I don't mean to use any of that as an excuse, I just figure it's worth writing it down for perspective. A few hours ago, if you had asked me how long it's been since the last Crisis Point release, I would have sadly told you it's taken me 3 months. A few minutes ago, I realized that was wrong, and it's been five. 5 months in a row with barely any progress made.. and still so many of you are here. I am humbled by the trust and generosity you've shown me, and truly ashamed of how little I've done with it. I don't know whether to thank all of you or apologize. Probably an equal amount of both, with a healthy dose of getting-my-shit-together on the side.
The last year - especially the last 6 months - has been the hardest time of my life, and I'm still coming to grips with all the things that have changed, and all the things that need to change going forward. I can tell you with confidence that I am improving; I'm more ready for this project than I've ever been, to make it something excellent for everyone to enjoy, no matter what hardships I go through to get there. I am truly sorry for how long it's taken me - but instead of focusing on the negatives of how bad I feel, I'd rather focus on how unbelievably, indescribably thankful I am. To all of you who are still here donating to me, to all of you who aren't, even to all of you who never have - every word of encouragement to help me keep going, every dollar given to make sure I don't starve, you've been there for it all and I owe everything I have to you. I know I've said it before, and I might not have always come through, but that old, unreliable Anon is dead now - I killed him off myself, and it's time to look towards a brighter future. One with even more boobs than we have now.
<3 you all so much. See you in a day or two with an update release!
-A42
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Love~
Cmon big boss, dont fucking give up, we will always be here for u and with u, take your time and then start again as better as u can
Anon42
Whoo!
Anon42
That's a great point, thank you! After such a long time without a major update, it often feels like I shouldn't post unless it's something big and exciting, to make up for the wait, but you're absolutely right. Next time I start feeling that way I'll remind myself of this comment and keep the updates flowing, size be damned!
Just here to cheer. Yeah!!!
John42bravo
I think an important thing to keep in mind is that something is better than nothing. Like turning in a half asssed homework assignment if you dont have enough to qualify a full update then at least give us a little something to show that you are still working on the project. If you have just solved a recent bug, then give us a before and after comparison so that we can see what you have done and why it is important to the game.
Anon42
<3
Anon42
I'm so sorry you joined in during this of all times, but thank you so much for sticking by me despite that! You're absolutely right; there's nothing I can do to change what has happened, so all there is to do now is move forward again instead of getting bogged down by guilt and sadness. That's the only way to make up for it!
Anon42
I'm so sorry, your year's been just as rough as mine. I can't imagine where I'd be without my SO around to help keep me sane, but major kudos to you for keeping it going! All we can really do is own the future, no matter what comes at us!
Anon42
I completely understand! You're all pledged for the game just as much as me, if not more so. I do like to keep you all updated on my personal life, but anyone's going to get tired of listening to that eventually if there's no game inbetween, especially when the personal life posts are depressing. Thank you so much for sticking around so long!
Bootycelli
No problem, fam. Shit happens. I get money being important and those who pledge to high rewards, but in the lower ones it's literally no problem. Besides, we're helping out an artist who clearly cares for his work and was going through a rough patch. It's all good.
Kian
Gotta admit I was getting ready to leave as well because since the day I joined in April their has not been a single update, these things happen in life but the important thing is to get back up and keep moving forward and its nice to hear you finally got back up on your two solid feet =)
BoogerBrigade
Eh, I see people suffer, I might drop some cash, but when they offer something lewd, I drop the pants, so you've got me hooked on through the ride. Lost my dad, got cheated on by my ex fiance and my biological dad basically disowned me in the same year, so I know the pain. Keep your chin up! Only gets more rough from here. Best look sharp and ready!
Glad you've made a step in the right direction, I honestly was one more sad, depressing post away from taking back my pledge. I do appreciate how much insight you give us though, way more than anyone I've pledged to before. Hope shit starts turning around for you dude. Keep trying your best to pump out updates and keep us informed, speaking for myself but I'm sure a lot of other people will stick around for the ride.
