daichi777
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Will be away next 2 weeks. Please give me extra time to send links.
🕑 Added 2022-05-28 05:19:01 +0000 UTCHi everyone. It's hard for me to talk or do anything right now so please bear with me. I am pushing myself as nothing will get done if I don't and I don't have anyone really irl.
My little sister, and last remaining blood relative committed suicide 2 days ago, and yesterday couldn't be resuscitated. I am going through more than I can handle right now due to having to move, only having enough to cover rent and bond for new place while now having to get a loan to travel back to NZ for her funeral which I still know nothing on as we didn't keep in touch much and I am still trying to find out who is organizing what so I can find the dates to return to.
I will be alright, I just need time to myself but I will still send links and such out asap when I can but they might be a day late as I will be travelling. I have someone covering dmca and all that stuff while I am away but I need to focus on finding help to move if I am away when it happens.
I will still be getting images and stuff made for next month as usual as I need stuff to distract my mind. And I always have my policy of please only sub if you feel you are getting something you feel for your moneys worth. So please do not feel bad if you want to unsub as I understand the pressure of everything in the world happening right now.
I've always been alone and constantly though hardship my whole life, so I'm not one to talk things out or hold onto things as it's never helped. This is why some of you don't understand why I go off at bullies and idiots and why they never fazed or bothered me. And why people who are so used to hate online instantly label me as someone to dislike because of the attitude I show online, think I'm opinionated, or that I don't listen to feedback. I can take the abuse from bullies and others as I never take it on, and I'd rather it was put on me instead of someone else who can't or did not deserve it. In our community there is a lot because so many treat it as just adult content, and as if people don't have feelings or matter. This is why I try to make it better so people don't have to suffer needlessly, and for others who do it, start regretting everything when they get older. It is also why I don't charge things individually as I want people to enjoy stuff in the hopes that it makes their day or lives better, as I know what it's like to suffer alone constantly in darkness in situations that are normally out of your control.
Be the change the change you want to happen in this world. On your deathbed, make sure you don't have any regrets. The world will try to stop you, all it takes usually is for someone to say 'no' and people will stop their dreams. Right now, I've realized from her suicide video that she needed me for the past 10 years. And me not being there for my little sister in time as I had thought I had a few more years to try go back and scatter mums ashes with her and try be a family again is something else that will haunt me for the rest of my life. To those that knew, thank you for your condolences and I'm sorry I can't get back to all of you as it is really hard right now to type with everything I have to do now.
I will send links etc when I can as usual. And I will be working on Tsumi next month as usual when I am back.
Comments
Throwaway Phantom
Holy shit. Dude, take as much time as you need.
Bombur
You are a lot stronger than I am. I'm so sorry. I cannot even begin to comprehend how you are feeling right now. Just never forget that you are loved by your peers and those who have had the opportunity to have gotten to know you are better off for having done so. Take care and take all the time you need.
Landwasser
These are heart-breaking news. I know the sadness of losing someone in the family. Even if not particularly close, the pain is real. Don't let dark thoughts get to you, especially not your hypothesis of what you could have done better or not. This kind of questioning can happen at any time and on any subject and if you think about it too hard it will only lead to ruin. For now, rest. Two weeks, one month, two months if necessary. This game comes last. While I can't do much about it other than write how sorry I am for you, my thoughts and prayers go out to you and your sister.
sus
I can't imagine the amount of pain your going threw right now I actually was watching your discord when you announced the news but I just didn't know how to respond as someone who dealt with abuse and loneliness threw out there lives I can sort of relate to that especially how you have zero tolerance to bullies and generally trash people all I can say is forget about this game all I care about is your well being we will be here to support you
turboman500
Hitting like doesn't seem to convey the right message, so I'll just say I'm sorry to hear this happened. Losing a loved one is never easy, and I'm guessing that in your situation, it's far worse than normal. I'll send a shout out for you to the big guy up stairs. I hope you get through this period of your life and come out on the other side stronger.
Kyuwu
I'm sorry. Please take all the time you need
Paco Gonzalez
I'm sorry to heard. You got my best wishes, and if I can do anything to help, let me know.
