Amawdz
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Sorry for the lack of posts lately! (somewhat important...)
🕑 Added 2025-07-30 12:33:17 +0000 UTCI've definitely neglected this Patreon and rewards, as well as social media in general, struggling quite a bit with personal life, depression and burn out.
That being said I will be pausing billing for the next month. While I attempt to catch up with rewards for the previously billed months, expect a submission post soon!
And in the upcoming future I will be reconsidering Rewards as a whole, possibly stopping them by Mid 2026. I will bring a more "official" update soon enough.
(And that's it for the important part.)
...As for where I've been the past couple of months.
Starting this year I got a bit negligent with my own work, taking way more than I can chew, starting way too many pieces, projects, and not finish a single one.
And weeks had passed and I had bunch of stuff laying around, hours of work and no drive to finish them, burning myself out in the process, without a thing to show for it.
There wasn't exactly an order of operation, my work was unbelievably hectic, and my incompetency lead me to piling up months of rewards, and I kept looking for that push, that drive to get me through it, that one day I will wake up and start pumping them, one by one.
But that never happened.
I just got more agitated, frustrated, stressed, and unhappy with my work, never being able to finish things on time, never feeling satisfied with anything I had drawn, making me restart pieces which were nearly finished. whenever I managed to finish something, I felt embarrassed, ashamed and simply didn't want to share it, thinking that I should probably finish what I owe, the rewards that I've had piled up.
And by all means this is not an excuse,
it was self-inflicted, and it just lead me to be in a worse state-of-mind, and this is where I'm currently at. Moving on I will definitely be a bit "looser" with my work, hopefully get myself in a state where I can get back to pumping more work, and be less harsh on myself.
Thank you for reading this, and I appreciate everyone who is still supporting me despite all of that.
Comments
Mbow 1
you got this twin <3
substitute
i want you
Sebastian Marx
ayy happy to hear it, hope youre feeling better at least
