Flavie Eidel
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What A Shoot of Self Love taught me?
🕑 Added 2020-11-08 17:00:00 +0000 UTCHello you!
To launch my dear A Shoot of Self Love Program, I decided to challenge myself to use the program myself and take a Self Portrait a day during a week.
The Sunday before it started, my self documentation was basically selfies that looked pretty similar to the ones your grandma posts on Facebook, screenshots of fun texts I've been exchanging with people, and... That's pretty much it. So let me tell you how NOT convinced I was at the time by this whole thing.
Until I got a shoot of my own medicine. ;)
Self Confidence x Creativity
Honestly, Monday I really had to force myself to start and not postpone it for another week. I was really not inspired by my idea and felt dumb for wasting my time and YOUR time in this. That's why the Monday picture is barely edited or composed. I really did it because I said I would do it.
But quicker than I could even imagine, I started to play my own game and got more and more excited about it everyday, and my personal investment increased proportionally, of course. While the world was, once again, falling apart around me, I was blowing balloons, playing with glitters and seeing myself under a pleasing light. And I think this distraction saved me from falling as well.
Seeing myself that way had a direct impact on how I felt about my image, and how I presented. My self love exploded. It felt right, and honestly, the timing couldn't have been more on point.
I gave myself the opportunity to try out ideas I had in my head for MONTHS and to discover myself through the game of creativity and self kindness. Instead of thinking about everything that could go wrong, my brain was focused on creating, discovering, exploring.
Projects x Community
If this challenge taught me one thing about entrepreneurship, it's that projects only become real when you believe in them. And that, sometimes, you have to talk about them to give them a chance to exist in the real world. The more you talk about what matters to you, the more people will understand your vision. Don't be shy. Your ideas matter. Even the weirdest, biggest, or dreamiest! Talk about it, get scared, and do it anyway! What if it worked out? ;)
People will support you in the kindest ways if you are convinced enough to convince them. This challenge was a pure ego trip and I was quite scared I would receive lots of hate from the outside and myself for it. But NOT AT ALL. It was actually the freaking opposite. I was covered with love this week, beyond what I could have dreamt of. And the most important part is that people got inspired by the idea of self portraiture! I'm so thankful for it, since it was my ultimate goal :)
I also explore and expand my self confidence to guide others through the experiment themselves. :)
Conclusion
After these 7 creative and pleasing days, I am now so motivated to give myself new challenges, to push my limits and to try new things. I am happy of the way I look and the way I feel, about myself and others. I am more and more comfortable taking space and as a woman recovering from layers of trauma, it is unexpected. I am also currently feeling more playful with my way to approach life.
I clearly want and need more of this in my life. So I've decided to take a self portrait/week, to keep the magic going, and keep learning lessons that I can then share with y'all through the program A Shoot Of Self Love.
A BIG thanks to Guillaume who, for my previous birthday, kindly offered me the balloons I used on Saturday's self portrait. :)
