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3.17. The Realization of Mistakes Made
🕑 Added 2022-09-17 16:45:05 +0000 UTCI woke up expecting to see the sunrise; instead, the room was pitch black, the snores of exhausted hunters all around me. Even Tegen, who was supposed to be keeping watch, was slumped over asleep at the door. My Status clock said that it was only eleven in the evening.
Yuki?
Ikfael is here.
I must’ve been out of it, my mind a foggy mess, because I realized then that she’d been tugging on my hand all along. I recognized the feel of her paws, so I cracked open my spirit eyes and saw her glowing faintly in the dark. That sent a thrill of alarm through me. Ikfael’s spirit was usually much brighter.
I sat up in a hurry, which pulled my hand away, and I noticed I was holding... a piece of jerky? I even cast Night Eyes to make sure, but it was exactly what it looked like.
The jerky must've come from my pack, which was on the ground nearby, with the main flap open and Ikfael’s statue laying on the ground beside it. Had she taken the jerky and put it in my hand?
When I looked back at Ikfael, she looked diminished—not in size but in presence. Her shoulders were hunched, and her fur bedraggled. Was being one with the stone costing her more than I thought?
She signed, “Good, you’re awake. Give me the food.”
Confused, I did like she asked, and as soon as the jerky passed from my hand to her paw, Ikfael’s spirit rippled, growing a touch brighter. Under normal circumstances, such a small change would’ve been unnoticeable, but with how dim her spirit was—
A sudden realization rolled through me, quickly followed by dismay. Yuki felt it too, the feeling echoing between us. So much had happened that we’d both forgotten we were supposed to make dinner for her each night; it was part of our arrangement with her for this trip. And clearly it wasn’t just a meal at stake. The exchanges she made had a real, material impact on her wellbeing.
I mean, I wasn’t dense—I’d recognized early on that Ikfael's trades were important. Why else did she value them so much? I just didn’t expect a single dinner to affect her to this degree. Unless... unless it wasn’t just dinner?
I fought to think through my grogginess, and recalled the warmth I’d felt after I’d been shot. It had radiated from behind my heart, almost as if it had come from my back...
“Oh, Ikfael,” I whispered. “You helped save me, didn’t you?”
She glared at me, and signed. “I’ll have none of your pity. What I do, I do for myself.”
“It wasn’t part of our deal, though, and it cost you. I know it did—I can see the effect on your spirit.”
Ikfael turned away, and refused to look at me.
“Can you talk to me about it? Explain how the exchanges work? Maybe Yuki and I can help.”
She still didn’t say anything.
“What about if I gave you a gift? Asking nothing in return.”
In response, Ikfael glanced down at her paws and clenched them. She also guarded her spirit, so that her feelings wouldn’t leak out.
She’d been excited in the past when I’d given her gifts. Usually, it was just extra food beyond what she was owed, but there’d been that one time when she’d arranged for me to learn the Healing Water spell without cost. The whole process had felt like one big workaround, which hadn’t sat well with me, so I’d given her a bunch of stuff anyway.
She’d been so pleased, she even showed off the gifts to Diriktot, who she’d been hanging out with at the time.
Ikfael deserves the world, Yuki said. She’s been so good to us.
Yeah, she does, doesn’t she?
So, I removed my favorite knife from my belt—yes, I slept with it—and put it at her feet. I removed all the rest of my knives, and placed them next to the first. They were prizes I’d won from my enemies, zombies and parasitic worms, and each represented something meaningful to me—hours of labor, utility and defense, my life saved.
That somehow still didn’t feel like I enough, so I carefully got up so as to not disturb the others and went to retrieve my bow. I put that at her feet too.
“I—” I started, searching for a way to articulate how grateful I felt, but she turned to place paw on my hands to stop me.
“Foolish boy. A hunter never gives up all their weapons. Why did I save your life if you’re just going to give it away later? No, no, that will not do.” She pushed the stilettos back towards me. “These are irreplaceable; hold on to them.” Then she returned my bow, as well. “This one is closer to your heart than you realize. Do not be so quick to give it away.” The rest of the knives, though—the ones I got from the zombies—those, she picked up and put in her pocket. “These I will keep. They are easy to enough to replace, and heavens know you have the money to do it.”
Her spirit had perked up when she took the knives, but it was still uncomfortably dimmer than before.
“Yes, I can do that, and I bring you more things too—”
Ikfael grabbed my hands again. She let go to sign, “Things are more complicated than you think. Spirits are—” She stopped partway, though, as if unable to continue. Then, she smiled, her eyes asking me to understand that she couldn’t explain.
The only thing I could think was that there was some rule or law in place to govern how spirits interacted with people—something like Tenna’s Gift. Which... which would make sense given the potential for danger and/or abuse in the relationships between people and spirits.
I’ll have to ponder this some more, I thought.
We can also ask the others about it, Yuki said.
That’s right. People will have investigated deeply into something as important as this.
In the meantime... “Can I make you something to eat?”
Ikfael glanced at the sleeping hunters around us, and lifted a wry eyebrow at me.
“There must be a kitchen somewhere we can borrow,” I said, and made my way over to the door. Moving Tegen out of the way proved to be challenge, but given time and his deep exhaustion, I was eventually able to do it.
Well, I was beat too, but there were things a man didn’t skimp on, and taking care of his family was one of them. Long story short, I was able to make Ikfael her dinner. We were nearly caught by the inn’s staff, and the meal itself was simple, but I got it done.
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The next morning, the hunters who were supposed to have traded watches during the night were embarrassed for having fallen asleep instead. Tegen, in particular—the poor man—I didn’t know his face could burn that bright a red. Fortunately, Ikfael and Yuki had been there to take on the responsibility, and everyone had been able to get a solid night’s rest.
Everyone still looked haggard from the previous days’ exertions, but there was a life in their eyes that had been muted before. Their spirits were more settled. Not good or easy, mind you, but the grief-soaked hunger for revenge seemed to have dimmed. Watching Mumu, it occurred to me that last night might very well have been the first sleep she’d gotten since Inleio’s murder.
Mulallamu the Lodge Master (Human)
Talents: Scout-Born, Tracker, Wild Sense
Nascent: Money Lover, Guardian of the Lodge
And she’d had a breakthrough last night, picking up a new nascent talent: Guardian of the Lodge. First Teila and now Mumu—as difficult as this journey has been, it’s been a productive one for my team.
Our gear, unfortunately, hadn’t weathered the trip as well, and it took about an hour to clean and tend to it. By silent agreement, no one spoke of the assassination attempt. That would come later when all of Voorhei’s hunters gathered for a briefing. Instead, I used the time to grill my team about spirits of the land.
I learned the following:
- As might be obvious from the name, spirits of the land tended to be tied to geographical features, and their territories grew in size when the spirits grew in power.
- There were spirits with and without avatars. Mumu thought it was because some started as ghosts—they wanted to remember the feeling of having a body—but Tegen cautioned the idea was unproven.
- Almost everything about spirits was, in fact, unproven. Mostly because the spirits themselves weren’t allowed to talk about their natures; not even to say what divine gifts or laws constrained them.
- And there were definitely constraints—the big one being that favors had to be exchanged. Yes, people frequently gave gifts, and those seemed to help spirits grow, but there were almost no stories of spirits offering anything unreciprocated.
- Which was immediately disputed by both Teila and Haol who regaled me with multiple tragic stories about spirits and people falling in love, almost all of them ending in one or the other—sometime both—sacrificing themselves for the other.
- I mentioned meeting the moonlight wolf who was the Beloved of Leiluminwei, a spirit with a territory near the Glen, but the hunters shrugged in response, not knowing anything about what it meant or how it happened.
- Spirits grew naturally over time as they cared for their territories. They could also absorb silver and darklight directly to speed up the process.
- Woe to any hunters entering a dark spirit’s territory. The land itself conspires against them.
- Another danger was when spirits fought over territory, and when that happened, any people or animals in the area suffered.
- Fortunately, it was more common for spirits to settle into hierarchies, wherein greater spirits ruled a territory, but delegated sections to the smaller spirits under them.
- Finally, there were spirits of the sea and air, as well as the land, and the rules—mysterious as they were—appeared to the same for them all.
By the time we were done, Mumu was just about bouncing in her seat. She’d forced herself to be patient—to let her team take care of themselves and their gear—but the sun was steadily rising, and there was a lot to discuss with the rest of Voorhei’s hunters.
Her spirit might’ve been more settled, but she was still anxious to catch Borba, as well as to apologize to the other hunters for her recent behavior. Eventually, she couldn’t take it anymore, and sent me and Teila to check on them and see if they were ready. If so, we’d meet on the inn’s second floor.
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The second floor had a couple of big common rooms used for cheap accommodations overnight. For a single taak, someone could lay out a bedroll alongside anyone else willing to pay. The only caveat was that they had to be up and out of the space shortly after dawn, so that the room could then become available to rent during the day.
Mumu shelled out the money for one of these big rooms, which is why we ate our breakfast accompanied by the funk of unwashed bodies, wet leather, and old farts. Still, it was a price worth paying to be able to talk in private.
After Mumu had briefed the other hunters about the assassination attempt of the previous night and I contributed my observations about the healers, she began her mea culpa.
“My brothers and sisters,” she said. “I have been wrong. You all know me, and understand that this is not an easy thing to admit, but I say it to you now: in my sorrow and anger, I made decisions which I regret.”
“Those damn cutter hawks,” Susu said.
“Yes,” Mumu replied. “I did not expect you to fight them. I thought you would go around and continue following.”
“We might have,” Dura said, “except for Teila’s plan.”
“I underestimated you, all of you.” Mumu paused to look every hunter present in the eyes. As she did so, her spirit rippled with glimmers of the silver I’d seen the previous night. “I promise not to do so again.”
“You won’t run off on your own anymore?” Susu asked.
Mumu’s brow furrowed. “I can’t promise that. The decision to split the teams wasn’t wrong, but continuing to chase Borba once it was clear that three hunters were not enough to kill him—that was a mistake. As was driving Haol, Tegen, and myself to exhaustion.”
I watched as Mumu felt her way through, looking for the right words. “There are times when we fight half-broken, but this did not need to be one of them.”
“The Long Dark,” Ahlrein muttered behind me, and the hunters all nodded along.
“So, what happens now?” Dura asked.
“We continue our hunt for vengeance,” Mumu said, her voice grim. “But we do it the hunter’s way—together.”
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After that, we dived straight into strategizing. And eating. Breakfast was apparently included in the big room’s rental fee, and the inn’s staff carried in a big pot of corn porridge, along with a tray of grilled vegetables and pork.
The longer we waited, the more difficult it’d be, but Mumu seemed determined to make up for her earlier mistakes. In addition to tracking down Borba, we had to watch out for the Healer’s Lodge, and that required a different kind of planning.
“There are factions within the Healer’s Lodge?” I asked around a mouthful of the vegetables.
“There are factions in every lodge,” Mumu said.
“Not our lodge,” I protested. “We sometimes argue, but that's different.”
The mood in the room was a hard one, bloody-minded, but that didn’t stop the hunters from chuckling in response. Even Mumu briefly smiled.
“Our Inleio was very good at helping people find ways to get along,” she said.
“That’s one way of putting it,” Susu said. “He had a knack for knowing when trouble was brewing and arranging training sessions for everyone involved.” She shook her head at the memory. “Training was what he called it, but it was really just him knocking sense into m... into people. Other people, you know, troublemakers. Not me.”
I saw more than a few embarrassed smiles, and Mumu waited for the moment to fade for continuing. “There’s a good chance the attack on Eight was one faction of healers setting up another, but we don’t know enough about the inner workings of their lodge to know who was responsible. We’ll need the grandmaster for that.”
Haol added: “This faction attempted to kill two birds with one arrow: to hurt their competition and rid themselves of a thorn in their lodge’s side: Eight.”
“But the damage has already been done,” Susu said. “Our Eight’s spells are already within the Hunter’s Lodge.”
“The spells I have now,” I said, “but what about the ones in the future? Because there’s no way I’m going to give up looking for more. Magic’s much too precious. It’d be like... like cutting off my own hands.”
“Our Eight is talented, and his path is a bold one,” Mumu said.
The other hunters nodded along, and I felt heartened to see the support on their faces. The previous day’s events had left me feeling unsettled and uneasy. There were people out in the world who wanted to kill me. Sure, that was something I’d expect from the forest’s predators and unstable Ghitha, but from faceless people I’d never met? It was a strange idea for someone who’d once been an office manager and sometime-producer of documentary films.
I was also pissed, which was reasonable, you know? Someone really, really wanted me dead, and they’d taken the necessary steps to make it happen. “The assassin used a poison resistant to healing spells,” I said. “In other words, they knew me well enough to counter my abilities. Whatever else is going on in the Healer’s Lodge, killing me wasn’t some bonus objective—it’d been a critical part of the assassin’s mission.”
After that, the hunters talked among themselves for a while, discussing the situation and coming up with ideas to address it. I immediately squashed the ones that involved me going back to Voorhei or being cooped up at the inn. Several hunters pressed for it, but I refused to budge.
They were clearly worried for me, but frankly, they needed my spirit eyes and Uncanny Tracker talent, while I needed to address the situation directly. I’d committed to facing this world head on, and if that included assassins, then so be it.
I couldn’t run every time things became dangerous. Instead, success came from adapting to danger, to finding ways to ameliorate and overcome it. Like trading the magic knife to Ikfael. Like becoming dear friends with Yuki. Like going to Voorhei and joining the Hunter’s Lodge.
This world demanded engagement, and the Way of the Hunter required me to constantly test myself against it.
Before the attempt on my life, I’d never really thought of myself as being on a path. Sure, I’d considered myself a spiritual seeker in my previous life, but path with a capital P? That had always seemed pretentious to me—a sign of someone who took themselves too seriously. Now, though, I was on the Path of the Young Forester and had the Way of the Hunter as a soul mark.
And they weren’t just words on my Status. While I’d not been paying attention, they had been at work inside me, like an alchemical process slowly transforming-transmuting-changing one me to another me, from lead to gold. Or should that be silver?
I was changing from hunter to Hunter.
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Ultimately, we decided that Susu’s team should report the assassination attempt to the grandmaster at the Hunter’s Lodge, and then coordinate with her. While that was happening, Dura’s team would head to the Nathta and Geista districts to search for places where Borba might try to sell or pawn Salu’s necklace.
My team’s job was to pick up Borba’s trail directly, if possible. We’d had better luck doing so last night than I thought was possible, but I continued to be pessimistic about our chances. Over time, Borba’s trail would dissipate and/or be masked by the city’s residents.
One thing I made fundamentally clear to everyone: no matter what else happened that day or any other on this trip—I absolutely required time to attend to Ikfael in the evenings. Even if it was just an hour, half an hour, whatever. Nothing could interfere with my obligations to our spirit of the land.
Oh, and we’d do all of the above while watching out for assassins.
Albei, you sure gave us one hell of a welcome.
Comments
3seed
She's literally out of her element.
3seed
Thank you. It's now fixed. That was a last minute change, and I didn't look at it closely enough before posting.
Adrian Gorgey
It looks like Ikfael's not adapting well to life in the big city... maybe she'll get some new talent out of it, like Wandering Spirit?
Adrian Gorgey
Little edit, the last sentence from when -> one
