Family Issue 16 Sep 2021 (Worst case would close Fanbox and Pixiv)
🕑 Added 2021-09-16 10:28:15 +0000 UTC
I know this would happened.
I forget do I mentioned this or not.
After he alive from ICU.
His next step is. Bring his 2nd wife and son back to home.
Have a happy haremlife.
Now he bring his wife to home after tomorrow.
I don't know when his son come.
And he say. That's all for me. His 2nd wife would look after me. HAPPY?
For talking about this. My mental is really unstable now. I don't know can I still keep update.
If I give up my dream. Giveup drawing. I can leave this house. But to do that. I would never draw again.
As drawing never balance my daily cost. (Whole 3-4 years included Patreon life ; never can cover daily cost)
If I giveup it. Being a formal wage slave, at least I can live, I can buy a bread.
Maybe this is a time for wake up. No more dream.
And I need to clarify. I talk this is not supposed you pay me more. It's doesn't help.
Maybe 1-2 months it can reach 2000 USD. But it doesn't keep it, then it's useless.
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由他進急症室一刻，其實我都料到故事會這樣發展
他之後會接二奶回家，然後他的兒子也來
一家人樂融融，發達昇官死老婆，真的是人生大羸家
現在已經確定二奶會明天 / 後天來
我不知道他兒子什麼時間來
他說這也是為我好
多撚謝
說這個是我現在精神狀況糟得一團，我未必可以再穩定更新
或者是夢醒的時間
這個問題要解決是很簡單，我隨便找份工，什麼服務生或打雜也好。就是回去當社畜，找個單位租住。
什麼都解決。
就是和畫畫生涯決別的時候了，其實這3-4年，包括PATREON的時間點。我全是蝕的。
你自己想想，一個月收入只有500 USD左右，你覺得可以維持到什麼生活了？飯$也不夠付。
所以最簡單就是從此封筆，畫畫是不能生活的
現在之所以可以維持時以前我打工積下來的$，再加上沒什麼洗費所以沒大差
但是如果住的方面要支出，這就完全不同回事了
或者這真的是一個夢醒之時，人類就是該當社畜。
別誤會，說這個不是求贊助。杯水車薪1,2個月有2000 USD，不能維持下去是沒有意義。
所以你們也不用因為聽了這個就來贊助，沒什麼意義的。
