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Silver Fox - Chapter 24 (Finale)
🕑 Added 2025-01-19 11:00:03 +0000 UTCSILVER FOX
Chapter 24: The Ultimate Recognition
I was getting ready for my first scene, starring as a bottom.
It was also the first time I was shooting for an actual professional studio. About ten people were working on this shoot.
I had had about a week to prep for this ever since I had the confirmation it would be happening.
I did my due diligence: I used a butt plug, I stretched myself, I trained my hole with various sizes dildos.
Nick did not have the biggest cock in the world, - especially compared to mine -, but it was still quite girthy and a good seven-inch long, I had to take it like a champ.
I was ready.
I met the famous Carlos Sanchez when I arrived on set.
He was very impressive due to his large shoulders and his confident attitude.
He was also very tall and wearing expansive designers’ clothes, but he seemed like a very professional guy.
He made sure Nick and I knew what were in for and he gave us a few advice for the scene.
We also signed a ton of documents detailing our consent for every act we would be performing.
It was an important day for Carlos as well as we were his very first guests on his brand-new studio.
More accurately, it was the first time he would not star in a scene he was producing.
Another step in his development.
Soon, he said, he would no longer appear in a single content, becoming a full-time producer.
“You’ve only been starting while I’ve been at it for years. I’m looking for something else now to give me the thrills. Sexually, I’ve done every trick in the book, I need new adventures.” He explained like a wise man.
This was funny coming from a man almost 20 years younger than I was.
It was also strange to think that I was only at the beginning of my journey. I felt like I had done so much already.
“I imagine that when you’ve reached your level, it’s difficult to remain excited by anything sexually.”
“And it’s not like I’m gay to begin with.” He chuckled.
“I was wondering. After all this time? You’re still considering yourself straight? If you don’t mind talking about that of course.”
I had seen the man getting double-penetrated in the ass while sucking another cock and stroking two more in each of his hands.
And trust me, he looked like he was enjoying it very much!
“Why would I mind? I’m not considering myself anything as I don’t believe in labels but… What can I say? I’ll always be more drawn to a pussy than I’ll be to a hairy ass. Sure, I can take big dicks in my ass for money but that does not have to mean anything. Just like you, no?”
“Oh… Well, yeah… Basically.”
I cringed a little. I was not so sure that it did not mean anything to me.
Carlos stood up and tapped on my shoulder.
“And congrats by the way for walking in my footsteps. I got the call this morning, that’s the ultimate recognition man.”
“What do you mean?”
He stopped himself.
“Oh fuck, maybe you don’t know!”
“I don’t think I do. What are you talking about?”
“Just forget I said anything.”
“Carlos, you cannot leave me hanging like that! What recognition?”
“I have to run, dude, I need to see the director of the scene. We’ll talk later.”
I asked Logan if he knew what the hell Carlos was talking about and he had no idea.
I did not like that.
All morning before the scene, I felt a mixture of excitement and nervousness.
It had been a little while since we had done anything with Nick and it was not like we were shooting at home.
If I could not get hard or properly take that cock, - that was the biggest concern for me -, I would put a lot of people in trouble.
Not even mentioning that I was paid a fortune just to be there.
I could not mess that up.
Nick looked a bit nervous as well.
When I asked him how he was, he mysteriously told me we would chat after the scene, which was another reason to be concerned.
Why all the secrets suddenly?!
Thankfully and as always, Logan was there to reassure me and he helped me relax.
In all fairness, I was no amateur at this point.
For instance, undressing before we started filming and getting oiled up in a room filled with gay men did nothing to me.
That was business as usual.
We would shoot the scene in two parts.
First, I would fuck Nick. Then, he would fuck me.
Yes, I know, it was not rocket-science.
Rico was there also as he was meant to shoot another scene later in the afternoon.
Carlos would fuck his brains out… And he would (finally!) return the favour and fuck his mentor in the ass.
It was very common for the Male Performer of the Year to star in up to three different scenes a day.
I had read somewhere that Carlos was taking a very specific diet to produce as much as cum as possible in his balls and to virtually, always be ready.
I thought I should introduce him to Jimmy because he certainly was sharing some of his secret formula given how strong he had ejaculated anytime I had had the chance to see it.
But I digress.
Logan oiled me up as I would enter the scene in only a pair of jockstraps, shining from head to toes.
Thank God, there was no script to follow.
Carlos knew too well why FansVips was so successful.
Sure, he was using better lighting, better 4K cameras, and he had a full team handling the technical aspects, but as far as the content in itself was concerned, he wanted us to be our authentic selves.
The studio was recreating an office space, a leather couch, a desk, an armchair.
We could fuck how and wherever we wanted as long as our respective cocks would find their ways into our respective assholes.
A man from Carlos’ team yelled “ACTION” and I walked inside the frame.
Nick was already there, oiling his own body in front of the camera.
They were taking close ups of his ass trapped in a pair of red jockstraps and of his hands lingering over his six-pack abs.
I knew that I was biased because I had a thing for the boy, but objectively, he looked stunning.
“You look good, babe.” I grabbed his upper chest and I licked his neck.
“You do too, Silver Fox.”
Nick looked at me in the eyes and I felt the spark all over again.
He started rubbing my chest, playing with the salt and pepper hair around my nipples.
“I’ve missed you, Nick.”
I was not sure why I was saying that, the scene was not supposed to be romantic.
I guess I was just being sincere.
Yes, look at me, being genuinely romantic at the start of my first actual porn scene!
Nick did not say anything back, instead, he started slurping on my nipples.
That worked.
I immediately was in the mood and I felt my cock rising in the pouch of my jockstraps.
It was like as soon as Nick had laid his hands and then his tongue on me, I had forgotten everyone else around us.
It was only him, and I… And his sweet juicy ass that I groped firmly.
Oh, dear Lord, I had missed this peach above all!
Nick kissed and licked my chest but then, I grabbed his chin so I could kiss him on the mouth.
We made out and I sensed one of the cameramen coming very close to capture us.
I added some more tongue in the action so we would provide good footage. Nick had slid his hand in my pouch, feeling my cock bare.
He was soon stroking me underneath the jockstraps.
The guy knew how to turn me on; just like I knew how to get him wild.
I slid my index finger in his butthole, no lube necessary, his bum was ready.
“Hmmm… Already?” He muttered.
“I couldn’t wait any longer.”
I pulled the finger from his ass and I made him lick.
He did it with the most delicious grin on his pretty face.
“Thank you, Silver Fox. I was hungry.”
“For you own ass?”
He kissed the tip of my finger again.
“Mine… Yours… Everything.”
“Get on your knees, boy.”
He nodded yes and he got down.
My dick was throbbing and the cockhead was now slightly poking out of the straps.
However, I was not about to offer him my fat cock. Not just yet.
First, I turned around.
“What can I do for you, sir?” Nick asked in a whisper.
“Why don’t you eat my musky hairy hole?”
“Gladly, sir.”
I could feel his breath against my pucker already.
Two camera men got right around us and I felt the familiar wet tongue searching my insides.
Nick spread my ass cheeks with his hands and went to town with his eager mouth.
He had told the truth earlier; he definitely was hungry!
I extended my arms behind me to grab his blond hair as I bent over slightly, all I an attempt to give him the best path to my pulsating wet hot.
Just like he did to me many times before, I wanted nothing more than smothering him with my ass.
There was a microphone boom close to his mouth, just to catch the delicious sounds of the intense rimjob.
Best ASMR ever, right?
When my hole was sufficiently lubricated with his spit, I turned back around only to hold Nick off the ground, carry him and throw him on the couch.
I was like a lion in heat, I was roaring and jumping on my prey.
I needed to eat his ass, RIGHT FUCKING NOW.
Nick spread his legs without having to tell him to, and I went face first in his pink, no longer virgin, hole.
I was hungry too, starving even, and he was feeding me well.
I took advantage of being down there to swallow his balls as well, and his cock right after.
I was licking him off, from the tip of his shiny cockhead to the depths of his asshole.
Above me, Nick was softly moaning, another camera up his face.
Funny to think I was worried not to be able to maintain a strong erection while I think my cock had never been that hard, slowly but surely escaping from the jockstraps.
“Hmmm… Silver Fox… Yes… Lick me up… Fuck… That’s so good…”
I shoved a couple fingers down his pulsing hole.
“You’re such a skank, a marvellous perfect skank!”
He leaned over to kiss me.
“Thanks for the compliment.”
“Naughty boy!”
I turned him over on the couch and went back to his ass all the while I was milking his 19 years-old cock.
Whatever if he had been taking his distance lately, that man was mine.
He had to be.
He loved being under my care way too much.
After a while, we did get a discreet instruction from Carlos, asking me to offer my cock to Nick.
We switched position, I sat on the leather couch, - not the most comfortable thing -, and I got rid of that unnecessary jockstrap to free my rock-hard dick.
As soon as he was able to, Nick jumped on my dick and sucked it avidly.
“Oh yes… Hmmm… Go deep, Nick… Yes… Swallow it all… I know you can do it…”
He closed his eyes and pushed himself further until my dick was visiting the back of his throat.
“Grrrl.”
He was happily choking on my manhood.
What was there not to like?
Nick was right to wet my dick though, as it would be visiting his insides soon enough.
“Get over there.” I instructed him as I pulled my meaty bone out of his throat.
“Yes…”
“Here!” I pointed towards the desk.
“Yes, sir.”
I spanked his ass.
“Bend over, it’s time.”
I swear, his hole winked at me as I said those words. Nick arched himself against the desk.
I spanked him again.
I may have gone a bit too hard, the purple print of my hand remained for the rest of the scene on his left cheek.
Eh, I had to mark my territory somehow.
I asked him to stretch his cheeks and I went in, raw.
Carlos’ studio promise was clear: “authentic bareback hard fucks”, we had to honour this.
I banged Nick like my life was depending on it and my roommate started experiencing a strong orgasm after just a few back-and-forth in his tight tunnel.
Although tight, not so sure anymore, Nick’s anus was opening up wider weeks after weeks it seemed like.
I had a disturbing thought as I was drilling him.
Had anyone else gone there?
I had refrained from fucking anyone else, but what had Nick done with his new friends?
A bit out of spite, I have to admit, I fucked him even harder, my balls fapping against his luscious ass.
“More… More… Yes… I want more… Oh God, that’s too good… Aaaah… Hmmm… Hmmm… Destroy me… Please…”
I was holding his waist as he was begging me to wreck him.
“You… Got… This!” I shouted, going balls deep, thrusting myself onto him between every word.
We were both sweating and we probably stank like hell but it made the whole thing even more enjoyable.
This was exactly why I had come to love fucking guys better than I loved fucking women.
With another dude, there was this pure raw energy, this masculinity, the scent, the manhood, the raunchiness.
I was not afraid of going too hard or being too dirty.
We were men. We were animals. We were meant to fuck. It was our primal instinct.
Still inside of him, I held Nick once again and carried him away from the desk.
I did not throw him on the couch this time around, the dirty floor would do.
I fucked him doggy-style. Deep.
“Yes, yes, yes! Lord… YEEEEEEEEEES!” He shouted as I was feeling myself exploring uncharted territories.
I put my right foot on his face, smashing it against the cold tiles.
The boy was drooling, I was exuding. I felt powerful.
“You like that, eh?! You like that experienced cock, smashing your tight hole, you fucking bitch!”
He kept on asking for more.
BANG. BANG. BANG.
I kept on giving him more.
BANG. BANG. BANG.
More spanks, more spits, more madness.
I had missed this proper glory hole.
I almost came but this was when I was reminded that we were shooting a scene and not (only) enjoying ourselves.
I had to reserve my cum-shot for later on.
I wanted to be as horny as humanly possible for my first sodomy. Only the thought was giving me chills.
And talking about it, we had the signal it was time to switch roles. I supposed that Carlos had seen I was about to lose it.
I felt butterflies in my stomach.
It had been long since I had not been that anxious and excited.
From this point on, the rest of the scene felt like an out-of-body experience.
I was no longer Bruce, I was not even Silver Fox either, I was someone else completely.
There was a short break, the crew asked us if we were fine, if we needed anything.
Nick told everyone that he had very much enjoyed the hard-fuck and that, “of course”, his ass could take it.
I knew what I was doing, I would have never hurt him or made him feel uncomfortable.
I was asked to bend over on the desk.
I had shivers down my spine.
“You’re sure you want to do this?” Nick asked me, pearls of sweat dripping from his forehead down to the desk.
I licked the salty sweat off from the wooden table.
As I said, I was no longer myself. I was an animal in heat.
“I’m freaking sure.”
He kissed my cheek.
“I’ll be breeding you.”
“Fuck me, Wild Nick!”
I was ready.
I had been for days.
I had been craving this moment for weeks actually.
Way back in my life, taking a dick in my ass would have felt like the worst humiliation.
In my youth, we were mocking the guys who were taking it in the butt.
Where I was now, it felt like the most beautiful privilege. Especially coming from Nick.
The position I was in made me think though.
Right when the director said “ACTION”, I felt like I was missing something.
Nick was behind me, his dick already rubbing against my virgin asshole but…
“WAIT!” I screamed.
Everybody made a face like: “Oh no, he’s chickening out”.
I was not.
Quite the opposite actually.
“Nick… Please… I want to see you while you fuck me for the first time. I need to see your face.”
Noone said a word but I felt a relief inside the studio.
Nick gave me a smile and he tenderly led me to the couch. He was sweet.
I lied down and threw my legs up in the air.
That was how I wanted to lose my anal virginity. In this position, my fucker right in front of me. I wanted to see everything, including the seven-inch cock penetrating me.
I think I will remember the next twenty minutes for the rest of my life.
I was sodomized by another man, 27 years younger than I was!
Nick looked at me with his green eyes and he broke into my ass. He seemed overwhelmed by the act as well.
I am glad that it happened this way.
I offered him the first asshole he would ever fuck. He had been mine a few weeks prior.
All was well.
He pushed himself into me and I understood how much the toys, plugs, and dildos could not compare to the real thing, could not compare to the feeling of a real heated dripping dick invading your hole.
Our bodies were intertwining and once again, just like when I had fucked him, it was a life-changing event for me.
There were three cameras around me, there was a guy for the sound, there was Carlos watching from afar, there were agents and managers in the room, but I could not see them.
I was locked on the beautiful green eyes and lost in the feeling of the penetration.
How lucky I am to have this moment caught on video, still able to re-watch my first sodomy to this day.
BANG
Nick was thrusting his young athletic hips to make me feel good, shoving his hard cock inside of me.
BANG
He was succeeding in making me feel good.
BANG
I moaned, grunted, maybe I barked, even.
BANG
My asshole swallowed his cock like it was easy, like it was meant to be. How?! I used to be so fucking tight.
Not with Nick though. I was wet, lubed-up and opened-up.
BANG
At the fourth thrust, he was fully inside of me. His balls already banging against my ass.
BANG
I expected it to be somewhat painful, at the very least, in the beginning.
It was not.
All I could feel were waves of pleasure.
Well, maybe it hurt at times but I do not remember it that way.
BANG
I was experiencing another prostate orgasm, - my strongest ever -, as he was drilling my too tight asshole.
“Aaaaaaaaah… Good Looooooord…”
BANG
My own stiffed dick was leaking on my stomach. Thick precum. Maybe actual cum.
BANG
It smelt like men in the room.
Horny men.
Beasts.
BANG
Nick grabbed my neck. I asked him to choke me.
BANG
More thrusts, more pleasure, the man knew how to work his pelvis.
How could he be so good at it when he had so little experience?
BANG
A strange thought crossed my mind.
What if I was not only the first guy he had ever fucked? But the first person altogether?
Had Nick ever had a girlfriend?
BANG
Nick leaned over to kiss me while he was shoving his cock even deeper inside me, ramming my prostate, ploughing me like a rag doll.
BANG
I wanted more. I think I begged for more. I was a slut.
I was his.
BANG
I told him that.
We can hear me say it in the video. In the middle of the sloppy raunchy make-out. Loud and clear.
“I’m yours, Nick.”
BANG
He did not reply.
BANG
Instead, he came inside of me, his tongue in my mouth.
“Aaaaaargh.”
I felt his warm juice pouring into my hole. It was like a Christian baptism. I was holding Nick’s back, my hands sliding on his sweaty bare skin.
We were making one.
My own cock exploded and I finally let myself experience the full force of my orgasm.
I was cumming both from my ass and from my dick.
Nick pulled back. He offered his deflating wet cock to my mouth.
In a bliss, I cleaned him up.
I swallowed everything until the very last droplet.
A minute later, it was all over and I was left there, on the couch. My asshole no longer virgin and coated with fresh sperm.
I was drained.
Someone said “CUT” but I spent a moment there, in my own universe. The one I thought I was sharing with Nick.
But was I really?
People moved around hastily to clean up the mess but I stayed put.
So much so that Logan came with some water, looking rather concerned.
“You’re sure that you’re okay?”
I took my time to answer.
“I’m great. I’ve never felt that good in fact.”
I smiled like an idiot.
“Drink that.”
“Log… I… I should have freed myself so much sooner in life.”
Logan stared at my naked body and then, he kissed my forehead gently.
“It’s never too late to be yourself. You’re the ultimate proof of that.”
This was supposed to be about sex, money, business. This was supposed to be about a viral video but it had become so much more than that.
It took me a while to come back to Earth after the scene.
*
Carlos’ studio had all commodities to relax after the shooting: multiple showers, a lounging area, and most importantly, some snacks.
I caught Nick after a long shower, he was eating a banana in the lobby as he was about to leave.
In a room next door, Rico was fucking Carlos. I could hear the muffled sounds of people banging, - hard.
It was funny to see Nick like that.
He was in his shorts and tee-shirt, a backpack on his shoulders.
If I did not know that he had just fucked my brains out, he would have looked like any 20 years-old about to go to one of his college’s classes.
“Oh, Bruce. I thought you were gone.”
“Nah, I just took my time in the shower. I needed to collect myself.”
“Yeah, the scene’s been quite intense. You’re all right?”
“Don’t flatter yourself, dude. Your cock is not that big; it’d take more to break me.”
He smiled faintly.
It was not his usual smirk though. I instantly felt that something was up.
“I… I kinda wanted to talk to you.”
Yes.
Something was definitely up.
He was nervous and even a bit shaky.
“What is it, Nick? You’re scaring me.”
“Don’t be scared. That’s nothing. I mean, that’s good news actually. I… It’s just difficult to say. To you.”
Millions of thoughts were battling inside my head.
My heart started beating fast in my chest.
The life-changing event.
Had he finally felt it too? Had everything happened just like it had for me? Nick had fucked my ass and then, he could no longer ignore his feelings!?
That must have been it!
“Just state your piece, Nick. I can hear anything and we can work through it, whatever it is.”
His faint smile again.
I wanted to kiss him.
For the first time ever, I thought that I might love him. I know, strong fucking word.
“I’m gonna move out.”
“What? From where?”
“The apartment. I… I’ve just told Logan. It’s time for me to move on.”
Remember my heart beating fast in my chest?
It dropped in my stomach.
“What do you mean, moving on? From what?”
Nick scratched his blond hair. With the lighting, they almost looked white.
I was confused.
He looked handsome.
“I think this was my last scene.”
“This was your FIRST scene, dumbass!”
“No, I mean, my last x-rated content. At least, for a while. I… I’ve met someone and…”
I did not let him finish.
I should have let him talked but I was exploding inside.
Talk about a reverse orgasm…
“Who?”
“You know him, Matt.”
“The Youtuber? I haven’t even met him.”
“It would have been weird if he had met you during a date. Don’t you think?”
“Okay… So, you’re dating someone. A guy.”
“I am. You know that I’m gay, right?”
“I kinda have a feeling, yes. But who cares about labels? And what does it change anyway?!”
“I don’t know, I just had to tell you. I don’t want to make a big deal out of this. I hope we’re cool.”
“Cool?”
I snapped the freaking banana out of his hands.
To this day, I do not know why I did that. It was just an impulsive reaction.
I was mad and I had to make it known, somehow.
“What the fuck, Bruce? What is wrong with you?”
Nick looked properly surprised by my aggressive reaction.
“I’m sorry, okay.”
“What’s going on?”
“I… I just don’t get it. You come up with the deal for this scene, you fuck me, you’ve been wanting to have this career forever, we’re just making it and… Right when we’re going somewhere, you just quit, and you quit… me?!”
“I quit you?”
“You know what I mean!”
“Listen, about the scene, man. I… I did it to close the chapter, like, I wanted to end with a bang. Didn’t you wonder why I was paid as much as you when everybody had already seen me getting fucked in the ass?”
“I… I don’t know, I thought… I don’t know what I thought.”
“You were shooting your first bottoming scene and I was shooting my last one, Bruce. That’s why Carlos accepted the deal. He will market it like that.”
I was floored.
Nothing was making sense until everything suddenly was.
Obviously, this 19 years-old fuckboy was not into me!
Obviously, he had been having fun exploring his sexuality.
Obviously, he had met a guy his own age and wanted to pursue something real.
“Wait. But you… Back in Kansas, in my apartment. I know Allan was no longer here when you asked me to eat your ass!”
Nick burst out laughing.
I get it.
I am not sure why I was even bringing that up.
It had probably something to do with the fact that I had kept that piece of information in my mind for so long, as a proof, or at the very least, as a clue, that Nick was genuinely into me.
Either way, it sounded ridiculous now.
“What are you talking about?”
“You know exactly! The live-show you were doing when I came home and… Then, I joined in.”
“Man, I was just horny. Did you… Did you think there was something happening between us?”
That was the worst of all.
The way he was looking at me as if I was crazy.
To be clear, he was not a jerk about it. It was his genuine confusion that hurt me the most. He was not trying to hurt me.
He had never seen things the way that I had.
I ignored his question and asked him a different one.
“Is Matt the one asking you to stop the FansVips?”
“No. He’s very open-minded. Clearly, he had to be for us to date in the first place. But I don’t want him to fuck with anyone else, so I… I think I should do the same. And we have projects together. He’s very creative with building his social media.”
“Wow.”
I was speechless.
I picked up the banana off the floor and threw it in a trash.
“Bruce, are you mad?”
I fought back my tears.
I felt so angry, frustrated, but most of all, I felt terribly stupid.
I was supposed to be the older one, the more mature, the man with experience. And I was a fool.
I tried to get myself together before looking back at him.
“Of course not, why should I be mad? I’m sorry about my reaction. You… You should follow your… Well, your heart I guess.”
“I really wanted to thank you though.”
“For what?”
“For everything, Bruce. Without you, I’d still be stuck in the middle of nowhere. I came to L.A. thanks to you, I met Matt thanks to you, I don’t have to worry about money for the next couple of years, all thanks to you.”
I smiled at him.
I think it was sincere.
“I’m glad then. Thanks to you too, man.”
Nick bit his lips.
“Should we… Should we hug?”
I chuckled.
“Sure. Come here.”
It was the last time I ever touched Nick or smelled his hair.
After that, he said goodbye and left Carlos’ studio. He was so casual.
I was left behind, a mess.
*
After my conversation with Nick, I needed some fresh air and I spent the rest of the day at the beach.
That was the beauty of living in Los Angeles.
The city was crazy but the ocean was always there, soothing.
I wondered how I got there.
I had never been attracted to a guy before.
Maybe that was why I did not put any of my guards up. I did not think it would be possible that I would get hurt.
I did.
Rather quickly, I let go of all anger against Nick.
I truly, genuinely, could not be mad at him.
He was a cocky arrogant brat but what he had done there just showed how much he had changed and how much he had grown.
I had been stupid; it was not his fault.
But what now?
*
*
I returned home very late, way past midnight, but Logan was still up, editing more videos for Rico in the living room.
“You’re working way too much Log, go to sleep.”
He looked above his laptop.
“I couldn’t sleep.”
“Insomnia?”
“I was a bit worried for you actually.”
“Oh please, don’t even start.”
“I know you had feelings for him.”
“You told him that?”
“No. I didn’t say anything to Nick. Did you tell him?”
I collapsed on the couch.
“Of course, not. I’m not gonna stand between two twenty-something men who are seemingly falling in love. I’m not a total asshole.”
Logan sighed.
“I’m sorry, dude.”
“Don’t be. Really. I just feel like a complete idiot.”
Logan went to sit next to me.
We stayed silent for a while.
“The scene was great by the way. Carlos’s gonna make a lot of money with that one, he was really happy with you. If you want to, you can shoot more scenes for his studio.”
“Awesome…”
“Wanna hear some good news to cheer you up? I have a couple in my back pocket.”
There was a hint of excitement in his voice which felt nice to hear.
“I’m listening.”
“Man, something crazy happened today. You’re not ready for this.”
I straightened up.
“God. What now?”
I was expecting anything at this point.
A smile grew on Logan’s face.
“Bruce, I’ve got a call earlier. Someone from the X-Rated Content Awards.”
“And?”
“You’ve got the award, man. They’re naming you Male Newcomer of the Year, meaning you’re the most promising talent to emerge this year.”
“What?!”
“Yes. Like worldwide. You won! It’s the first time someone above 30 gets this accolade by the way.”
“I… I won?! How was I even nominated?”
“Their committee picked someone for this category. And this year, they picked you!”
I stood up, my mind reeling.
This had to mean something! Right?!
“Good Lord! I’m a freaking pornstar.”
“That’s what Carlos won, four years ago, before winning Male Performer of the Year. You’re on to a great track, man. I… I was shook when they told me.”
I giggled hysterically.
I think I had gone through too much emotions that day. I had no idea what I was feeling.
“I think that’s good, right? That’s an accomplishment? That means I’m the best at something.”
“You definitely are. But that’s not all.”
“Come on. My heart, dude!”
“Guess who’s decided to finally open his FansVips?”
I held my breath.
I hoped that this time around, I was not hopeful over nothing.
“Who?”
“Jimmy’s coming here in a couple of weeks. He’ll be staying with us for a few days to shoot content.”
“So, he’s really decided?”
“Yes, he even wants to quit his job. He wants us to help him though. You think we can make him the next newcomer of the year?!”
I jumped on Logan.
“For sure, we can! Have you seen us?! We can do anything!”
“You’re still up for this then? You don’t want to stop?”
“Why would I stop? We’ve only been starting!”
Logan and I hugged.
I cried.
Not sure if it was from happiness or from something else. I did not know what the future held for me, but maybe that was for the best.
[THE END]
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Author's notes.
After a dozen of books, I still have this odd feeling when I wrap up a story. A mix of: "I'm going to miss those characters so much" and of: "Finally, I'm done with this story."
I hope that you have enjoyed following Nick's journey and that you will be satisfied with that bittersweet ending.
As often, the door remains open for a sequel but I felt like the main story-line of this book was naturally coming to an end.
After all, it was mainly about how this older guy, going viral on social media, was slowly but surely diving into the world of gay porn.
As it ends, Bruce has effectively become a successful pornstar. If I were to continue, this would be a different story.
As for the plot involving his relationship to Nick, I never felt like these two were meant to become anything serious.
There was the huge age difference, but aside from that, Nick and Bruce were not meant to be together.
Bruce got lost in his feelings but what did they truly share aside from the (steamy) sex, and common goal of making it in the X industry?
It does not mean that this was all for nothing though.
Not only Bruce learns to open himself sexually, but by the end, he has also learned that he could grow feelings and even fall in love with another man.
That fact alone is a major step in his personal development.
I am thinking that another book focusing on his life as an established pornstar and on his ambiguous relationship(s) with the two other male characters, Logan and Jimmy, could be interesting.
In any case, for now, I am happy to leave our favourite Silver Fox where he is.
As usual, feel free to share you thoughts in the comments.
The E-book will be released next week for the Avid Readers.
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