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New Year and Updates
🕑 Added 2023-12-30 18:08:23 +0000 UTCTL,DR:
I hope you have a wonderful New Year, and I wish you all the best! On my end, you can expect posts once a week, with the exceptional week where I might do two posts. With regards to what kinds of content, expect more Goddess Bea in all kinds of huge scales (from a few km to a larger than universes) and expect the Giantess and the Village story to get more developed, as, frankly, it's a project I'm very invested in. I tried to figure out how to do the universal streaming idea, but as I sketched further, I struggled, so expect that one later in the year, possibly.
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I hope you all had wonderful Holidays, and I wish you all the happiest New Year I can. I hope none of what I'm about to write sounds disappointing to any of you, but I kind of expect that might happen. If it does, I'm sorry, but I do want to tell you what's happened these past weeks, as well as what's coming going forward.
Firstly, two weeks ago I returned to my family for the holidays, with my master's work already a little behind schedule. My mother was sick and bedridden and I basically had to take care of her, and managed to get very little time to do anything when it comes to art. As she did, eventually get better, I started being able to find more time, which I had to direct towards my growingly behind-schedule master's work, which left my art even farther behind. For all of this, I apologize, these last weeks have really been difficult, and finding a balance has really, really, not been easy.
Now, with all that being said, I'm soon to return to my place, and I'm soon to be able to better balance my art and my master's work. Things are, slowly, starting to align themselves again.
With this coming year, though, there are some changes happening, and some things I hope you all to be able to expect from me, which I will lay down here, now.
Firstly, I believe I'm going to start making only one illustration a week, rather than try to do two. The reason is two-fold. I started doing this because I had to find a balance between my masters and my art, but the further I go with this, the more I realize that I can make better work this way. Simply put, being able to more thoroughly experiment and try out ideas for my illustrations is likely to yield better, more interesting art than working at a breakneck pace to produce blander work. I hope you understand this, and I hope, to some extent, that some of the sketches I posted recently reinforce this.
That being said, working on one piece a week, but working more in depth, also means that there are more interesting sketch-phases that might come about. If there's interest in that, I might start posting the sketching phases for the illustrations here on Patreon, too!
Secondly, I feel like I have to come clean with something... the polls I made a week or so ago. Certainly, they were to gather interest and see where I could go next, and none of the ideas are out of the window as of today or as the year starts. That being said, I was partial to one in particular, and that's the one I've been able to explore more thoroughly.
I believe the start of the year will involve me developing the concept for the Giantess and the Village idea further and further, as I've already also spoken to a writer with regards to it, as well as some sporadic illustrations that I have in mind. As the year progresses, you can expect the story of the Giantess and the Village to develop and grow (aha!), but expect just as much to get Goddess Bea in her full glory, in all manners of humongous scales.
As for Goddess Bea, I also want to clear up a thing. Goddess Bea is a self-insert of mine, and thus, is very personal and tied to how I see myself. As you, fellow humans, probably know, these kinds of understandings of oneself are fickle, and on occasion, there might be different portrayals of Goddess Bea, because at the time I made the illustration, the way I saw myself made me feel a particular kind of way. This is specially important with regards to gendered elements, as I'm going through a funny phase in my own understanding of gender.
As for the Universal Bea idea, I tried to sketch out ideas on how to vividly portray it, but I struggled to come up with something that convinced me, and because of that, I ultimately decided to leave it for another time. It's not gone, at least not yet, just on hold until I develop better tools with which to properly convey those ideas. I know it won a majority here, and it also won the poll on my socials, but I can't be dishonest with it and make subpar work simply for the sake of fulfilling it. I hope you understand.
And this leads to the last thing I want to talk about, as we head into this New Year: artistic honesty.
As the months went by in 2023, I became very concerned with making sure my work fit what people were looking at my account for - in making sure the style was always very consistent and samey, in making sure the themes (in my case, giga and omni girls with dicks) was also very consistent and samey. I'm sure this works well as a business decision, but it took me just a few months in order to realize that I was getting burnt out because of it. My latest pieces lack the charm of my first ones, which were made with honesty and eagerness. I feel like I've become cynical because I worried too much about the business side of things, and I want to recapture the spark of the pieces that I actually, sincerely loved to make. It's in part because of this that all the prior decisions happened - taking more time in each illustration, and choosing to go forward with the projects that I'm most inclined to go forward with - and just like everything I've said before, while I believe that may sound disappointing, I hope you understand. That being said, I love size art, always have, love the naked human body, and will continue to make sizey nudes... just with a wider scope than what I've been doing so far.
I understand that you're putting your money here for a reason, and if my changing of direction makes you no longer want to support me, feel free to leave, I'm no victim here.
If you read this far, all I have to say is "thank you". Thank you for bearing with me for the year that passed, thank you for your continued support, and thank you for understanding the confusing, weird mess of a person that I am. I wish you all the best of the year that's to come, and I hope to be able to grow and exceed the expectations I'm setting for myself here.
That 2024 be the best year we can possibly make it!
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