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Devblog + Personal Update 2/25/2025
🕑 Added 2025-02-26 01:29:37 +0000 UTCHello everyone, I hope this year has been treating you well! Here's a devblog on how the current Temptation's Ballad build is going, but first I'd like to make a quick update on my personal life.
Personal Life Update:
I've been struggling with ADHD for the better part of 5 years now, though I've never been formally diagnosed until recently. At first the symptoms were fairly mild and I thought I would be able to keep it in check with the usual methods. You know, reduce screen time, block all distractions during work hours, the pomodoro method, etc. Unfortunately my symptoms kept getting worse until it started negatively affecting all parts of my life, both social and in my art career.
I'm rather proud of the VN work I've managed to put out over the past few years, but most of it was done in very unhealthy cycles. Large swaths of unproductive time passed while I hated myself for being unable to function like a normal adult, followed by a frenzy of sleep-deprived days where I neglected my health to hit deadlines. As the years passed this just kept getting worse and worse. During this entire time, I kept beating myself up and felt like I wasn't trying hard enough. I'm sure some of you have noticed that I've been taking more and more time to push out updates, and for that, I'm sorry. I'm eternally grateful for everyone who continued to support me anyway.
After some talks with concerned friends, they encouraged me to finally get the help I needed. About a week and a half ago on Feb. 14th, I was officially diagnosed with ADHD and received medication for my symptoms.
The change in my life has been incredible. I finally had the focus to complete tasks during the day, and get restful sleep without feeling that I was wasting time. For the first time in years, I no longer feel like a ghost in my own body. In the mere week and a half since I started taking my medication, I've been vastly more productive and got more work done for my visual novels than I have for whole months. My passion for art and writing has come flooding back and I feel so empowered to continue working hard on Temptation's Ballad.
Now I'm just kicking myself for being stubborn and not seeking help earlier. Thank you all for your patience with me during these last few years, I'm so grateful! Going forward, I'm determined to push out more VN updates to you all in a timely matter and I finally feel like it's within my power. I'll work hard to continue earning your trust and support, thank you all so much! ;;w;;/
Temptation's Ballad Progress Report:
Alrighty, now that my ramblings are done, here's the status report on the next Temptation's Ballad build! I'm aiming to have the build ready for release sometime next week.
I'm currently working on 15 illustrations for the next update. I can't show any previews here since they're very spoilery, but they're all currently linearted and flat-colored and should be completed relatively soon. You can see the WIPs on the Discord's #sketch-dump-gallery channel, but mind the spoilers.
There's also 2 new character sprites and 1 new background in the works.
As for the writing, the update's currently hovering at around ~10,000 words, but I'm still in the editing stage so that may change quite a bit as I adjust the scenes.
Thank you all again for your patience with me these past few years! I'm very excited to finally be in the groove again and bring you more stories in Temptation's Ballad! ;w;/
Comments
earlybearly
If you search for "Discord" in this patreon you'll find the post with the link.
tokoyami fumikage
hi, how do I join the discord?
Toroka
Glad the meds are helping! Just try to remember that YOUR health is far more important than OUR entertainment :)
Ty Snool
I had the same issues I was diagnosed with ADHD and took toll on my mental health Iโm really glad your getting help and I canโt wait to see more from you. I really respect you as an artist and writer I donโt think I have seen art like yours. It amazes me every time I read your visual novels.
Andrew
That is so real. I had the exact same experience with the unhealthy cycles until I got medicated for my ADHD, I feel your pain๐ญ
earlybearly
I'm happy that you're getting the help you need and have a better life now. I think you should be proud of all you have accomplished in spite of your ADHD and I'm happy that you can now keep up a productive pace without destroying your health.
Nelson Cabrera
I send you lots of hugs. I have a couple of childhood friends that have ADHD. Now they are ok but during high school they were bullied and they suffered a lot, luckily with my support and their families they got through It. I wish you all the best in the world. Be strong and never let the bad situations to control your life <3
Shade
I was diagnosed with ADHD young in addition to my autism and was on medication for the longest time until I decided it wasn't for me. Hopefully you have a better experience with it than I did. Now I just medicate it with caffeine and cannabis
Xan_Khajiit
<3
J B
Relatable, and glad you have the support you needed โค๏ธ
SPACeDOGT7
That sounds very rough to deal with. If you need a break for self-healing, then take a break. Happy to know things are getting better for you. I'll keep supporting you and your work.
Tilik Kanoma
I'm very happy that things have gotten better for you! What you described sounds very rough. Thank you for your amazing art. I hope moving forward you'll feel more accomplished and happy now that so much friction between completing goals has some relief
Bobby Thornbody
I'm glad to hear things are going better! I look forward to seeing the next update!
