JennyViPham
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Anxious Thoughts at Night
🕑 Added 2025-10-28 05:03:52 +0000 UTCFeeling super anxious about the ending, I feel like my writing style is all over the place because it’s purely intuitive without any plot/outline. I really like the things that are said but they’re lowkey all over the place! And things that I haven’t ever really seen in media (which is why I want to write it). But I wonder if it is too big for me. Or big for this project.
But I like it and I’m proud of it >_<! I think it has to be this ending or I’ll never be satisfied.
Some days, I feel like I’m even scared of my script because of how it hits too close to home or because I’m scared of how people will recieve it. I haven’t said this to anyone because I feel like I have to stay positive all the time but I think it’s eaten at me to the point where I’ve stopped talking to people (because it’s the only thing on my mind, oops!)
But I’ve tried to write things that I don’t care about before and it gives me 0 sense of satisfaction and makes me want to redo everything. So I feel like even if this isn’t good for my career, it’ll be good life experience!
On a financial note, it also scares me! Imagine spending all of the money you have to understand yourself creatively…from a pragmatic point of view! (I am the most pragmatic person I know.) It’s so stupid, when the easy way out is so easy. I understand why big name corporations make easy shitty movies. It’s clean, it’s bland, mediocre—but you know what you’re getting into. I think writing a good ending that’s nice and funny would be so easy, I would just feel unsatisfied my whole life. But maybe that’s what makes me a creative.
Also there’s feelings of not wanting to let my fans down. And the people that supported me all this way, I don’t want to but I have to. Bc if everything goes the way the audience wants to, it’s a boring story, it has to weave its way to make you want something and happy in a way you never thought possible. I think that is what makes a good story/happy ending.
😭 So I won’t know if you love or hate the story until it’s over! Yay! 🥲
I just have to continue remembering that long run it’s a win bc at least I’ll be able to know what people like about my writing 😨 bc I plan to write until I die 🙂↕️
Comments
Niya Stokes
Your writing is amazing you actually give great detail where I can actually visual the moment you are creating with your writing so no matter what you write for ending it going to be great. You make the moment so do it. I will still love it no matter what
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I just want you to know how much I appreciate everything you do I genuinely love anything you write, it always has so much heart. You work incredibly hard, and I can tell how much effort you put into everything. If you ever need to take a day off or even a week please do You absolutely deserve it. I honestly couldn’t do half of what you do and I truly admire you for it.
