Lou Roth
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Weekly Dev Log #7, July 24th 2023
🕑 Added 2023-07-24 13:06:47 +0000 UTCHello everyone, I hope you are doing swell<3 I don't have much to tell about last week— I wrote a little, coded a little, listened to gods silence, went on too many social functions that left me with grass-stained shoes and an empty head, spilled secrets to the bees, you know; the usual for summertime.
I have to say that I'm getting so excited for the twine port that my head is teeming with everything surrounding that- what to edit and add, structuring the hunters arc a bit better; I don't want to divulge anything yet as it feels more malleable when its only me who knows about it, but I have some plans to enhance the knowledge you as a reader has about the blood oath to Oakwerth- might even make it into a ticking bomb, to raise the stakes just a bit more.
All of this is the boring part to wait for; I need time to let it simmer and evolve naturally, or it will be cliche and boring and stale. So most of my time is just spent chewing on a pencil and staring at my outline…
There is definitely something else blocking me too, and I haven't fully diagnosed it yet. I'm still learning, and battling with confidence when it comes to writing, and very tired of this exhausting doubt I impose on myself. It feels like this happens after every update, like I'm micro-dosing on post-launch depression, lol.
Either way! This week my partner goes on vacation too, which means I will be doing my best to get work done in in the morning, to spend the rest of the day outside in some capacity, and I'm really looking forward to that, because as I said above, I have been carrying this weird feeling about me lately. I hope some extra tlc will make my headspace a bit kinder, so I can stop overthinking every word I put on the page!
I'm also hoping I can find some balance with social media this week, as it has been a point of anxiety for me, nothing awful, I am just, you know... a bit awkward, and I'm having trouble seeing my role in it as a creator versus as a flesh and blood person, if that makes sense.
From the research I have made, I am far from the only creator that struggles with this, so I have faith that with a pinch of patience and good reasoning, I can find stable ground.
Sorry for being such a bummer :( I go through these things all the time when it comes to believing in myself, so I promise that I am fine, just going through the motions and trying to employ everything I have been taught in a way that suits my current situation, and I really hate putting up a 'everything is fine' attitude when it is in fact, not fine. Alas. This too shall pass, even if it passes like a kidney stone, or however they say it. Fingers crossed for smoother sailing this week, eh?
I hope you have a great one, too <3
Comments
Monaco
ofc! we'll overcome, always do. 🧡 I hope you have an absolutely wonderful day/night too
honeylou
:') you are truly a gem, thank you. Hugs on the struggles - we will overcome 💪 it is nice to know I'm not alone in the sludge though. I hope you have the best day/night!!!
Monaco
appreciate you and all your hard work a lot lou. thank you, as always, and many hugs (know the overthinking pain & struggles otherwise very well myself, so). sending good vibes for your headspace too 🧡
