Benny Manaligod
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Firefly in the Dark
🕑 Added 2025-06-12 14:24:53 +0000 UTCLife has been good, and even the challenges can be considered "good problems." Slowly, I forget the pain of the past. Memories of those difficult situations, and the negative feelings that come with it, are starting to fade. This is a good thing.
But in forgetting the pain, I hope I never forget the moments that met me and moved me so powerfully in those moments. In the darkness, light shines the brightest.
One night, in the pandemic, I was having one of my crying sessions. I forgot what I cried about. Maybe it had to do with art. Maybe it had to do with the fact that I was approaching my mid-twenties and had achieved nothing. Maybe I remembered a loved one that I lost. Maybe I remembered this lifetime will never be enough for some things I hope for. Reflecting on that moment now, I can find no explanation for my tears.
What I do remember is a tiny firefly that met me where I was. (You would not believe your eyes... Just kidding.) Something about seeing that tiny light in a pitch-black room made me cry harder, only this time, some tears were actually those of joy. I remember remembering God in that moment. It was so sublime. I couldn't tell you why that particular moment was beautiful; I could only tell you that it was profoundly so.
A song or a story about a firefly in the dark is next on my list. I'll keep this entry here as a reminder.
