Bombs Ahoy
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Important Update
🕑 Added 2025-07-03 05:51:16 +0000 UTC
Hello, Patrons!
I'm writing this update to let you guys know that I've been considering a new plan for helping the Patreon grow.
The plan is very simple: Only upload one full piece to Twitter and Newgrounds once a month, while making Patreon my main upload site. This means Twitter and Newgrounds will become more so advertising spaces with mainly cropped images instead of fully rendered portraits.
I used a similar plan to this to build my Newgrounds. Whenever I'd get a banger on Twitter, I would just make a reply to the piece urging people to go follow me on Newgrounds, and it worked quite nicely as I'm now standing at around 2.5k on NG (which I would equate to around having 25K on Twitter).
I'm also thinking of streaming daily on YouTube again, though whether or not that'll be art, I'm not sure yet.
In a moment of transparency, I just wanna say ever since the start of 2025 I've been feeling somewhat disinterested in art-making. I saved up a ton of money working what was a very tiring job at my uncle's bakery, getting up at 3am to go and work anywhere between 7-9 hours to then come home and work on art for anywhere to 3-6 hours.
I was basically working two jobs, except one I hardly got paid for! I did this with the goal in mind that I could one day use my online following to finance my passion and desire to make art. I left my job at the bakery (which I had for nearly 12 years!) on January 1, 2024 and ever since then I've been trying to figure out how to make this art thing work.
What ended up happening was instead of my passion being a part time grind, it became a full time grind LOL! Commissions pay and some commissions I've done I think are some of my best work, but they're made obligatory by the virtue monetary transactions and therefore kind of a slog at times (I don't like the prospect of owing people things XD). Patreon polls and illustrations are fun, but knowing not everyone is going to be able to see something you made was kind of a bummer to me. I pretty much spent all of 2024 trying to articulate a way to make this experience fun to me, but I realized what urged me to make art before was the fact I had limited time to do so.
When I got home from work, I would have to push my self past the exhaustion and small amout of free I had to get art done. I had a "fire under my ass" as we say here, and it pushed me to my (unhealthy at times) limit. Now, my savings are down to half of what they were at the beginning of 2024, and I can feel that same fire lighting under my ass again.
It's happened a few times now where I look back at the almost FIVE years of uploading art to the internet and I think I've honestly done pretty okay. Like, if I left things as they are now, I'd be pretty satisfied. I got to earn money making art, I made lots of bangers, I reached a level of technical skill I never thought I would, I joined artists' servers and got to talk and make friends with them, and I even got the chance to be part of my own little 24 hour controversy with the whole Smile Fetish thing. I got to do nothing, but make art for a WHOLE year.
Why not just say it's been a good ride, and put the pen down? It would take so much pressure off of me and I'd be able to move on with my life. And I tell myself "Because this is the only way I can become my own boss" and "I still have one more milestone I wanna complete!" And so, if I can't make a career out of drawing exactly what I want to draw by the end of this year... Well, maybe I will just put the pen down, but not before making these last pieces the best I've ever made!
Regardless of what happens or what I decide to do by the end of the year, I just want to let all of you who have supported me up until this point, be it through money or words, to know that I appreciate your unwarranted kindness to no end!
Peace! 
