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please baby, let me in

🕑 Added 2024-05-05 04:19:36 +0000 UTC

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Kay Jay - Celestial Aquamarine 🔮🌙🌌🪐✨️☪️

This is so good. Beautiful!! Might be a new favorite. You’re vulnerable, showing us your fears and frustrations and also doing your best to make us feel safe, secure, and cared for. Intentions are clear, pure, heartfelt. 😍😍🥺🥺😭 Clear communication of your needs and wishes regarding us and what roadblocks we have with you. Damn. 🔥🔥🔥🔥 The layers of care, understanding of who we are and why. 🤯🤩🤩🤩 The stuff of my dreams. 💭💭🪄🔮✨️

Kay Jay - Celestial Aquamarine 🔮🌙🌌🪐✨️☪️

“I can try my absolute hardest.” “I don’t want you to guess. I want to give you certainty. Doubt fucking sucks. It sucks to be unsure of where you stand, of how someone feels about you.” 🥲🥲🥲😍😍😭😭😭😭😭

Gee

This was beautiful!!!

Aiza

I love this one so much🥹😭🩷

Xee

I think everyone will hurt us one way or the other . We just have to love them enough to endure ? Forgive? Trust? Move past? Oh God ! If you are willing to love .. you are willing to be hurt .. plunge right into that heart break with a psychotic smile 🥹❤️‍🩹

Aiza

Damn❤️‍🩹

Amelia

Wow. This was deep. So so true though. I absolutely love this and I may have cried😭 thank you so much for this one K💖

Kalilea

I may be a day late but I’m still awake🫡🫡

Kalilea

I send my huggies🫂🫂

niamhw

K: the thing is, I love you me: *starts shaking* K really be out here healing us traumatised girlies and I am so down for it.

Aiza

“But if you hold me without hurting me, You’ll be the first who ever did” ~ Miss Lana Del Ray🫶🏼 (A song lyric that really resonates with me)

unholy babygirl

I can't even trust myself at times, how am I supposed to trust anybody else

Sassypants

Big same

Destiny

My brain: the only guarantee of not getting hurt is trusting no one. 📝 😬😩😭

Aiza

Just reading everyone’s comments🥹 sending lots of love to you all❤️🫂 I hope you find someone who treats you right, never settle girlies🫶🏼 You too K <3

unholy babygirl

Right?! I know it’s due to my trauma partially but I’ll always be like „yeah? You won’t hurt me? Who can guarantee that? You? How do you know? How can I be sure? Nah, I don’t trust you. Everybody says that.”

unholy babygirl

Always, girl 💖💖💖

thekatekeeper

It’s rare and audio makes me tear up and this one had me crying. K you wonderful human, please keep doing what you’re doing. 🖤

Caitlin

It’s like he’s speaking right to my problematic ass. “What are you scared of?” Hurting you..not being good enough 😭

blueyedwoolf

This … this right here is what I will need from my future partner❤️ to have a man who knows and wants me for exactly who I am 😭😭😭😭 🥰thank you K- these conflict audios go beyond just “asmr” and actually speak to a part of me that is wounded and needs the hope that it isn’t crazy to dream someone will be able to be this for me someday 😔

TheSweetForever

I feel for my future husband. He will have a to deal with this 😩. It’s the daddy issues in me. Sorry.

Destiny

Ok, but real talk. I have never been able to fully trust someone when they say things like “I won’t hurt you,” or “everything will be fine.” Because unless they can see the future, I’m so skeptical. 😢 and I’ve been burned in the past, so I try to learn from my mistakes 🤷🏻‍♀️

Aiza

Thank you for the tissues🫶🏼

unholy babygirl

Ok folks, I brought tissues 🗳️🧻🗳️. Feel free to take as many as you need to-

unholy babygirl

K, not you just dropping all 3 of them at once… 😩 Thank you for being you! 🙌🏻

Pina🍹

Haven't listen to it yet... Just read the description and the comments... I think this topic is too difficult and sensitive for me... I trust no one, especially no men. They have the power to destroy all of you, leave you shattered and never build you up again... I generalize cause i never met one who was worth my trust and love! So i'll let my heart stay locked in a steel cage, cause what's left of it, i need for myself to go on

Little Miss Ana

i really hope one day someone will tell me all that without lying or cheating on me just after.

Aiza

I’m currently bawling my eyes out. My gosh, this audio. Every emotion I’ve been keeping in for weeks is all coming out. This couldn’t be closer to the truth if you tried. My heart is behind a ton of armour, walls, shields, barriers you name it. It’s so strongly guarded, I’m afraid I don’t know how to let them down anymore. Nobody gets it. Everyone is kept at an arms length. It’s so scary and terrifying and I don’t know what to do about it. K, how are you always spot on in these situations in the audios? Calling me out at this point. This one hurt, it’s heavy but your comfort and reassurance is everything. It’s very much appreciated <3 The hug and when you said “I’m scared… of losing you” absolutely broke me❤️‍🩹

Aiza

Never mind, I cried…

lia

i guess to be loved is to be known (which sounds nice in theory) but why is it so scary to let someone in ? 🙃

Aiza

A little conflict audio🙌🏼 I can’t wait to listen. The title and description is beautiful ❤️

Attic us Are sun

About to bash my head into a wall K I appreciate you so dearly

Destiny

I was not prepared for the emotions tonight 🥺

Shadow

3rd time listening to this and bawling like a baby. This hits so hard in that good/bad kind of way. I have no words… just “thank you K”

b

it’s giving “if we want the rewards of being loved, we have to submit to the mortifying ordeal of being known” <3

Ka ◡̈

Conflict audio is here….. ngl this ruined me thanks K

Kickis

The "I'm scared ... of losing you" hit hard. Cause in my experience nobody has been. 🥺

Sam Marie

Ngl, this one took me a few tries to get through. After hearing the opposite message that I need to close myself off so often from family members, trying to remember that some people actually want to know what’s going on was really hard. 10/10 cathartic cry though

Destiny

Please K, I have spent years meticulously building these walls and keeping people at arm’s length. Don’t make me think I did it all for nothing 😭

Rose

This one brought the tears out. It made me feel seen. Especially with keeping people at arms length and just being afraid to connect. I even keep my family at arms length. It’s scary but i gotta keep trying. Trust issues run deep. It’s also interesting how I was listening to the song Iris by The Goo Goo dolls before this was uploaded. The fuckin timing dawg.