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i don’t want to say goodbye...
🕑 Added 2025-02-10 21:40:23 +0000 UTCi don’t know how to do this. i don’t know how to pretend this is just another goodbye, like i am not counting down every second, like i am not already feeling the weight of the space you are about to leave behind. my arms are locked around you, holding on like i can somehow keep you here, like if i just hold you tight enough, time will give up and let us have just a little longer. but it never does. it keeps pulling you away from me, no matter how much i fight it. i bury my face into your shoulder, breathing you in, memorizing everything, because soon this is all i will have left. just memories. just a space where you are supposed to be.
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Leah
Oh, wow 🥹 just wow. 🥹
Kay Jay - Celestial Aquamarine🌙🔮🌌
I keep listening to this. I’ve tried to put my thoughts and feelings into words but I just end up crying. Multiple times now. My heart hurts. 🥲🥲😮💨😮💨😭😭😭🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺😢😢😥😓☹️ I would do almost anything for the right love, for the right man. Probably would do anything. My bounds of care, love, and expression know no limits. Or at least I haven’t found one yet. It’s fucking crazy how love can make us think, feel, act…ways we swore we’d never do. How it strips us bare and remakes us as one with that person, that love becomes woven and sewn into every single particle of us. But that kind of love? It’s so worth it, especially when the love is such a special person with a beautiful soul. That’s what I hope and dream of. 😇🥰 I’m scared that the universe or God *IS* punishing me for something. It feels like that sometimes. For what, giving up on romantic love for so long? But I got past that, opened my heart and mind to it again. I frantically, frustratedly search my brain and past actions trying to figure out why me, or why not me. I just want the small things. Nothing big. Just mutual reciprocated love and personal connection. I struggle with keeping my heart open when I feel like this. I want to become stone, or ice. Or to just not feel the ache I feel. 😢💔 One day it won’t be like this. But when? And will I make it there to that *day* in one piece or will I have given up for good by the time it finally does come my way? Sending everyone love who feels the difficult, sad, complicated feelings no matter what or who causes them. May you have moments of joy and peace, even during stress and sorrow. May you comfort and restore yourself and have others in your life that help that way too. May all the love and good things work out in your favor in the end. Which means it might suck now, but work out in your favor for good eventually. Love you all!! 💕💘💕💘💔💔💔
Ally
this audio esp about five minutes in is giving me the same vibes as the bridge scene in the amazing spiderman 2
unholy babygirl
There genuinely was no need to make me cry like that okay 🙄
🥀📚Kenzie📚🥀
I just started my period. I did NOT need this right now😭
Kitten🐈⬛
Exactly, I almost dropped my phone.
Kitt
that's that two seasons of bridgerton and twice in a row pride & prejudice watch talking here 🤌🏼✨🥹
Angel
Based on the description, I thought we died 😭
Aiza
My heart❤️🩹
Caelum
noo bc i read the description for this and was like h0 is we cool wym???? 😭😭
smilehoyaaaaa💜
Me too 😭😂
Rose
the “ho” has me dyinggg ☠️
katmat0
ho is u an actor or smthn
bunny
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️🤩
Lyn
Yea collective hug to the big guy <3
Caitlin
He’s so good at acting (at least I hope it’s acting and not him actually feeling sad!)
Aiza
The way you’d move heaven and earth for her is so beautiful 🥺❤️
Lyn
He has so much potential, someone convince him to do a whole series 😔😔
ewa
I would come back from the dead to listen to angsty K
🥐
I LOVED THIS IT WAS SO EMOTIONAL
Fab
Having been in this situation so recently, im fucking crying 😭, counting the days down till September
ewa
in the clurb we all cry 😭
Kickis
This audio has GOAT Long Distance tag vibes. 🫢✨👌❤️
C
There’s so many long distance audios… my heart is breaking.
rhi rhi
well this just hit me right in the chest ✌🏼
Grt58
can we get a „longing” tag? thx
Kalilea
Girl that’s a solid night routine I’ll give it to you 👏🏼👏🏼 I was at work when this dropped I’m so happy I didn’t get a notif and had my heart drop
lexoxle
I wonder how many people couldn’t have this beautiful yet heart breaking moment with these detainments happening as we listen to this. that’s where my mind went to. I hope one day everyone is able to be united with their loved ones soon💚
Ally
I saw the notification and thought we were dead ngl
ashley
i just want to fight 🗣️
Lyn
Either way, my heart is breaking 😃😃
Jess
I'm glad he said we're not breaking up its not a choice because i was about to lose it
linds
me when i ask for some argument conflict and he’s like no <3 but here’s long distance reverse comfort ENJOY ☹️
Lyn
Me, angst enjoyer: God, I wish K liked angst audios 😔 Also me whenever he drops a sad audio: 🥲🙃😢😔😭
Caitlin
K...my god...why did you do this to me?? I had such a lump in my throat, I felt sadness for someone who isn't even mine but would defy gravity for lol and if it were physically possible, I would've been coiled around him like a damn snake, refusing to let go. Didn't know what a real broken heart felt like but that was it...
Destiny
The run time of 12:34 helped my heart a little bit after that ordeal 😅
Caitlin
Everytime K is sad or crying, my soul literally dies
Destiny
Ok, there was no need to give me a heart attack with that title 💔😭
⃞
u better stay i just got here gdi
Carrie
So K chose violence to start the week...good good...I'm fine I did not just have an existential crisis followed by uncontrollable sobbing.
Aiza
Thank you🫶🏼
Aiza
This was cruel💔 and yes I cried😭 This is so painfully beautiful. Hearing your voice tremble, and the crying tone in your voice broke my heart and crushed it up❤️🩹 This is so raw and emotional 🥺
ReneeX
Okay so I'll save this for when I can slot in some crying time😭🤧
Gabrielle Wing
Am I the only one who thought the listener was about to die after reading the description?😂
Rose
This has, “Wherever you go, i go. You ride, i ride. You fight, i fight. And if you ever die on me Dominic Toretto … I’m gonna die with you” vibes ❤️
Rose
i almost broke at the “ i need you” part. that shit hurt 🥺😔
Len
My heart skipped a beat reading that title omg
Flower
🥺 nooo..
Lyn
I was drawing and didn't have my phone next to me so I actually got the notification through my mails, the way my heart dropped, this is not a funny title 😭
Caitlin
Only just read the description and that alone is tugging hard on my heart strings 🥺 don’t go K, bubba nooo
Len
Happy Birthdayyy 💙
ewa
oh naah 🥺 I'm on my period and am teary eyed after reading only a half of this description 😭
WatchTheStars
The caption almost did me in. 🥺💔 But I'm a glutton for angsty fiction. 🙈
Michaela Ameise
💋💋💋
alisha
MY SHAYLA
maia
here i was minding my own business procrastinating sleep with my nightly routine of playing project makeover and listening to bedtime kaudios... and then he dropped this?!
Lani
Time to get the tissues out 😔
Colleen
The notification for this definitely had me doing my Doechii breathing exercises 😮💨
Kalilea
This is the only moment I’m happy I’m not getting notifications 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
Aiza
Thank you❤️
⋆. 𐙚trina ⊹ ࣪ ˖
no the tagssss… conflict 😭😩 i can’t wait to go home, lay in bed, and cry to this
sapphire
omg k the title scared me
kennedy
i’m ngl this title scared me LMAO #team ABOLISH ellipsis
TheSweetForever
Happy birthday 🥰
Amy
k i’m in tears already im not even 5 minutes in
TheSweetForever
Why would you scare me like this?! I thought this was the end of our virtual relationship 🥹
KoffeeBeanss
K!! Now why would you try to bring me to tears at 5 in the afternoon???😩
Kitten🐈⬛
The notification of this just scared the 💩 out of me....it was just Kithaniels name and the title...
Shenise
I'm glad there's a "long distance" tag, because I thought someone had died 😅
maia
the way my heart literally dropped when i saw the notification pop up on my screen...
K’s babygirl
Hey so descriptions like this make me cry 🥲👍🏼
Aiza
Thank you!!🤍
Aiza
“I burry my face into your shoulder, breathing you in”💔🥺 my Shayla
harmony
oh this description already has me tearing up
alisha
perfect timing im just abt to get into bed (i will probably cry myself to sleep listening to this)
morgan
happy birthday!!🤍
Aiza
1234 for the time!!🙌🏼
Mter26
Oh so you plan on breaking my heart on valetine’s week?? Rude (i actually love angsty audios)
Aiza
I love a gut wrenching long distance audio😭❤️🩹 The description has me in tears already!! Ahhhh🥺 My heart is breaking😔
nako niko
are you trying to make us cry in the middle of the afternoon mr. k 🤨
Ally
oh this is definitely gonna make me cry
Aiza
Another birthday audio, thank you K!
