NekoMaruSan
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Explanation of my current situation and so on
🕑 Added 2025-09-05 21:26:05 +0000 UTCAs you all know, I've been posting content irregularly for at least a year, and this last time has been the longest period of inactivity.
So I'll recount how this started:
As I already tried to explain in this post here: https://www.patreon.com/posts/about-my-absence-110130793
In the end, my grandmother came out without any serious illness and is still with us. She has short-term memory problems due to the after-effects of the two embolisms she nearly suffered. When I say embolism, I mean something related to a thrombosis. I remember the doctor saying something else, not a embolism, but I don't remember that. Well, the fact is that my maternal grandmother is still with us.
Now, what I didn't mention in that post is that during that time, there were a lot of conflicts within my mother's family.
Blame, fights over money, arguments over who takes care of my grandmother more or less, problems with my grandmother's problematic children, like her daughter (my aunt), who has a drug problem and is considered by my grandmother to be her reason for living and her only concern, making it impossible to do anything with my aunt without her manipulating my grandmother. So you can imagine how exhausting that is for everyone.
That lessened over time, and now everyone takes care of my grandmother one day a week. Obviously, there are days when someone simply doesn't want to take care of her or can't, and things like that, which change all your daily plans from one moment to the next. Now, regarding my relative who has addiction problems, if anyone here has dealt closely with someone with addiction, they know that they get into trouble very regularly, so this is an issue that is currently still causing problems regularly.
I could go on, but I think this explains the situation and it's not at all pleasant to tell this about my family.
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Now about the recent events.
Well, as I said, things were improving very slowly, still with problems, but now practically without arguments and the like. Well, over a month ago, my mother's husband started going to dermatologists for a skin problem, and they ordered a biopsy, and the result was positive for skin cancer.
This was very shocking news, and it really brought our spirits down. I started spending my free time taking my mother out a lot to clear her head and not be locked up, since her husband works in another country, and he'll be paying for the treatment alone through medical insurance.
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Now, as for me.
I became a hypochondriac years ago, and although it took me more than two years to overcome the illness, unfortunately, I sometimes relapse, especially when I receive news of serious illnesses.
Since my greatest fear when I was in the throes of illness was the terror that I thought I had cancer and a host of other illnesses, I spent all day worrying about my body's every reaction, distrusting medical results, and the like.
To be more specific, I was suffering from this when I shared cards here: https://kenzato.uk/booru/nekomarusan Creation games, which I love, have really helped me a lot.
Whenever I tell my acquaintances, friends, and close people, or when we talk about the past, about how difficult it was to be a hypochondriac. Psychologically speaking, I compare it to the accident I had as a child when I was run over and nearly lost part of my right leg.
Psychologically, being a hypochondriac was infinitely worse. I always describe it as the two darkest years of my life.
Well, when I mostly overcame my condition months later, I started Patreon. Some time later, the situation with my grandmother and family happened, and now the situation with my mother's husband.
Honestly, it gave me a very strong emotional breakdown just thinking about the possible problems and complications that would arise. Besides dedicating my attention to my mother, I didn't have the time to do anything else.
Fortunately, they explained it to us, and apparently skin cancer isn't very serious compared to other types of cancer. Now we're waiting to hear what my mother's husband tells us after he's seen by the oncologist.
And well, this is why I started submitting irregular content, or, as in this case, not submitting anything at all.
I was very reluctant to explain and share my situation, but I understand they deserved a reason and explanation, aside from the fact that I'm not known for being very communicative, hehe.
I don't know how this will be understood since, as you know, my native language is not English, so if you have any questions, I will answer you.
Comments
NekoMaruSan
You're right, life isn't just about good times, I hope the good times will come soon, thanks for your good wishes n.n
GrandmasterSFM
"It always rains before the rainbow." Hope things start looking up for you soon.
