Blake Hart
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40 Is the New 30
🕑 Added 2025-12-30 20:00:03 +0000 UTCEveryone in this story is 18+
I’m standing in the suite in nothing but black boxer briefs and a half-buttoned tuxedo shirt, phone wedged between ear and shoulder, shirts draped across the bed like evidence. The city is already glittering below, snow starting to swirl against the windows, and my stomach feels like I swallowed a puck.
I hit the FaceTime button before I can talk myself out of it.
Grayson picks up first, hair damp and wild, clearly fresh from the shower. Jake’s face slides into frame a second later, shirtless, sprawled sideways. They are practically glowing. Someone’s been thoroughly fucked in the last thirty minutes.
“Uncle Chris,” Grayson drawls, lazy and smug. “You’re calling early. Party doesn’t start for three hours.”
“I need a tiebreaker,” I say, flipping the camera so they can see the carnage on the bed. “White spread collar with the midnight navy Tom Ford, or the black peak-lapel Zegna with the subtle herringbone?”
Jake whistles low. “Jesus. You dress better than us. Why are you asking us?”
“Because I’m losing my mind,” I admit, flipping the camera back to my face. “I’ve changed four times. Everything feels like I’m trying too hard or not trying hard enough.”
Grayson’s expression softens. He props the phone against a pillow and sits up, sheet sliding low on his hips. “You’re nervous.”
“Terrified,” I correct. “Nate’s going to be there. Twenty years since I saw Nate and then pretended it never happened. I’m about to walk in looking like I’ve spent two decades thinking about that night.”
Jake leans closer, eyes bright. “Good. Let him see what he missed.”
I huff a laugh that doesn’t feel like a laugh. “Easy for you lovebirds to say.
Grayson smirks. “You and Nate could be the new lovebird.”
I hold up the navy jacket, then the black. “Then, help me.”
Grayson tilts his head. “Navy. Makes the silver in your hair look deliberate instead of distinguished. And the cut is sharper. You want him thinking about dragging you into a coat closet by the lapels.”
Jake nods. “Seconded. Also, skip the pocket square. Too try-hard. Open collar, top two buttons.”
I glance at myself in the mirror. The white shirt is crisp against my skin, collar standing exactly right. I undo the second button, then the third for good measure. Spotting the edge of the tattoo I got six months ago—small blackhawk feather over my heart, inked the week the divorce was final.
“Better,” Grayson says softly. “You look like money and bad decisions.”
Jake grins. “The kind of bad decisions that end with someone’s wedding ring on the nightstand.”
I exhale, slow. “You two are enjoying this too much.”
“We’re enjoying you,” Grayson corrects. “There’s a difference.”
Silence stretches, warm and familiar. I can hear Jake breathing, the faint rustle of sheets. They’re still naked, I realize. Probably will be for hours.
“You’ve got this,” Grayson says. “You’re not the kid who panicked and pulled away anymore. You’re the guy who flew me to London and also fed us strawberries off his tongue. You’re the guy who taught me how to want out loud.”
Jake’s voice drops. “Walk in there like you already know how the night ends. Even if you don’t.”
I look at the navy suit hanging on the valet stand, fabric catching the low light like oil on water. I pick it up, slide my arms in. The weight settles across my shoulders exactly right.
“Midnight blue it is,” I say.
Grayson smiles, slow and proud. “Send us a picture when you’re dressed. We want to see the final look before Nate ruins it.”
I laugh for real this time. “If he ruins it, I’m billing you both for the dry cleaning.”
Jake winks. “We’ll start a GoFundMe. Title it ‘Help, Daddy Got Railed at Reunion.’”
I flip them off, but I’m smiling when I end the call.
The mirror shows a man I’m finally starting to recognize. Forty very soon. But, free. And dressed to destroy twenty years of regret in one night.
I fasten the jacket, adjust the cuffs, and head for the door.
Time to go find out if Nate still knows how to handle a stick.
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The ballroom is a wall of noise and body heat, the kind of loud that only happens when forty-year-old former athletes decide they’re still twenty-two. Bass from the DJ thumps under the low roar of voices telling the same five stories they’ve polished for two decades. Someone has already spilled beer on the carpet near the bar; the ice sculpture, and the air smells like IPA, cedar cologne, and the faint ghost of locker-room bravado.
I move through it like a shark in a suit.
Murph finds me first, red-faced, clutching a double bourbon. “Jesus, look at you, pretty boy. Divorce looks good on you. You doing Pilates or some shit?” He slaps my stomach hard enough to test for ripeness. I let him. He’s harmless.
“Private equity pays for personal trainers who hate me, I guess,” I say, and he howls like that’s the funniest thing he’s heard all year.
Next comes Tully, still built like a refrigerator, now with a beard that makes him look like a lumberjack who wandered into the wrong tax bracket. “Heard you’re playing for the other team now,” he stage-whispers, elbowing me. “Good for you, man. More pussy for the rest of us.” He winks, proud of himself. I just smile and sip my whiskey, letting the burn answer for me.
Every thirty seconds my eyes flick to the double doors.
A guy who looks almost like Nate walks past in a gray suit, same height, same shoulders, and my heart slams once against my ribs before the way it did freshman year when the goalie rang one off the post. I actually take a step forward before I realize the hair is wrong, too dark. Just some random dad here for the open bar. I drain half my glass and keep moving.
Lauren corners me by the silent-auction table. Her dress is fire-engine red and fighting a losing battle with gravity. She smells like champagne and the kind of perfume that announces itself three zip codes away.
“You look edible,” she says, fingers already tracing the lapel of my jacket. “I always had a thing for you in college, you know.”
I open my mouth to deflect when another Nate-shaped silhouette appears near the coat check. My head snaps around so fast I nearly spill on her. Same stride, same way of rolling his shoulders when he laughs, but then the guy turns and it’s just some other blond guy with a dad bod and a wedding ring the size of a hockey puck. Not him.
Lauren is still talking. Something about her condo on the lake and how the guest room has blackout curtains. I nod like I’m listening, eyes on the doors again.
Ten-fifteen becomes ten-thirty becomes ten-fifty. Every time the doors swing open my pulse spikes. A latecomer in a black tux, no. A cluster of wives in sequins, no. A waiter with a tray of sliders, definitely no.
I’m starting to feel pathetic. Scanning a hotel ballroom like a teenager waiting for his prom date.
Someone cranks the music louder. A drunk former defenseman tries to start a “Let’s go Hawks” chant that dies after three claps. I slip away from Lauren mid-sentence, mumbling about the bar, and plant myself near the windows where I have a clear sightline to the entrance.
The snow is falling harder now, fat flakes smearing the glass. I check my phone. Nothing from Nate. The RSVP list said yes, but people flake. Lives get in the way.
I’m halfway through that spiral when the doors open again.
This time the silhouette is right. Shoulders filling the doorway, snow in his hair, no tie, top button undone like he couldn’t be bothered. He shakes flakes from his coat, scans the room the same way he used to scan the defensive zone: slow, almost hunting.
Our eyes lock across fifty feet of drunk former hockey players and overpriced floral arrangements.
Everything else drops away.
He smiles, small, crooked, exactly the same.
My lungs forget how to work.
He lifts one hand in a lazy salute, like he’s known I’d be standing here waiting all along.
I smile back, helpless, feeling twenty-one and forty and every impossible year in between all at once.
The room noise rushes back in, but it sounds different now, like the countdown just started and nobody told me.
Nate starts walking toward me.
I don’t move. I just stand there in my midnight-blue suit with my heart trying to climb out of my throat, watching twenty years walk straight at me wearing the same half-smirk that wrecked me the first time.
He spots me. That same half-smirk. Twenty years disappear in one heartbeat.
Nate meets me halfway. We stop a foot apart like we’re afraid the air between us might combust.
“Thought you bailed,” I say.
“Traffic. My kid drove me. He’s eighteen now, wanted to make sure the old man didn’t drink and drive.” He shrugs, sheepish. “He’s with his mom tonight.”
The word wife is already forming in my mouth.
Nate reads it. “Not a wife. To be frank, I Knocked her up right after graduation. We tried the whole ‘make it work’ thing for about five minutes, then I figured out I’m gay, she figured out she’s a lesbian, and we decided co-parenting works better when nobody’s faking it.” He laughs, easy. “Rowan’s a good kid. Heading to Michigan next fall on a hockey scholarship. Lives with me most of the time.”
My pulse is somewhere around stroke levels. “So you’ve been out since…”
“Since about six months after graduation,” he finishes. “Took me that long to admit the reason I couldn’t look at you on the ice was because I kept picturing your hand on me instead of your stick.”
I almost drop my fresh drink.
We find a corner near the windows, away from the speakers. The city glitters behind us like it’s rooting. We talk fast, overlapping, twenty years of inventory in twenty minutes: the way we used to race for the shower first just to watch each other strip, the road-trip hotel room in Duluth when we pretended to be asleep while the other jerked off three feet away, the night I scored the game-winner against Michigan and he tackled me in the hallway afterward and we both pretended it was just adrenaline.
Then quieter: how he came out junior year of grad school, how I married the sweetest but safest woman on the planet instead.
“I still think about it,” he says, voice low. “Your abs covered in both of us. Never got that image out of my head.”
My back hits the wall. His hand lands beside my head, casual but not. “Me neither.”
We stare. Snow taps the glass. Somewhere a countdown practice starts for midnight, but we’re not there yet.
He leans in, breath warm against my jaw. “Men’s room. Two minutes.”
I’m there in one.
He follows thirty seconds later. The lock clicks. Then his mouth is on mine, twenty years of hunger in one collision. Teeth and tongue and the scrape of stubble. My hands fist his jacket; his slide under mine, palms skating over shirt to skin like he’s confirming I’m real.
He drops to his knees for half a second, mouth hot through fabric against my zipper, then stands again laughing breathlessly when voices pass right outside the door.
“Jesus, we’re not twenty-one anymore,” he whispers.
“Speak for yourself.” I’m so hard the seam of my trousers is painful.
He presses his forehead to mine. “Rowan’s with his mom till tomorrow night. My place is twenty minutes away. Brownstone in Lincoln Park. Nobody there but us.”
I smile like the idiot I am.
“Get your coat,” I say.
He kisses me once more, quick and filthy, then unlocks the door.
We walk out separately, five seconds apart, hearts hammering loud enough to drown out the band.
I text the boys on my way to grab my overcoat: I found him. Happy New Year boys <3.
Three heart emojis come back instantly.
I step into the elevator with Nate right behind me, his hand already sliding into my back pocket like it belongs there.
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The Uber is a black Yukon with tinted windows and a driver who mercifully keeps his eyes on the road. We slide into the back seat together, thighs already pressed, and the second the door shuts Nate’s hand is on my zipper. Mine is on his. No words, just the soft rasp of expensive fabric and the click of seatbelts we never bother to fasten.
Snow streaks past the windows in white ribbons. The city is a blur. All I feel is his palm sliding inside my trousers, wrapping around me with the same sure grip I’ve jerked off to in secret for twenty years. My fingers find him just as hard, thicker than memory, leaking over my knuckles on the first stroke. We breathe into each other’s mouths, foreheads touching, trading messy kisses that taste like whiskey and anticipation.
He twists his wrist exactly the way he did in that locker room, thumb swiping the head on every upstroke, and I have to bite the inside of my cheek to stay quiet. I return the favor, squeezing just beneath the head until his hips jerk and he huffs a laugh against my lips.
“Still a goddamn menace,” he whispers.
“Takes one,” I answer, smirking.
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The second the front door slams behind us we’re on each other in the foyer, mouths crashing, teeth scraping, coats still half-on. Nate tastes like cold air and the last sip of whiskey he took in the Uber. I back him into the wall hard enough that a framed photo jumps on its hook. My tongue is in his mouth, his hands are under my shirt clawing at skin, and we’re both laughing breathlessly at how stupidly desperate we sound.
I rip his coat off, then mine. Shoes get kicked somewhere down the hall. By the time we reach the staircase we’re shirtless, belts hanging open, trousers shoved low enough that every step is a hazard. We don’t care. We kiss the whole way up, sloppy and hungry, stopping every third stair so I can shove a hand into his boxer-briefs and wrap my fist around his cock. He’s already wet at the tip. He’s thick, heavier than I remebered, the foreskin sliding back easy under my thumb, and the sound he makes when I twist my wrist is illegal in several states.
We stumble into the bedroom and the moonlight hits him like a spotlight. Nate at forty-one is broader than I ever let myself picture: thick pecs dusted with dark-blond hair, arms corded, stomach still hard but softer than college, that perfect V disappearing into black boxer-briefs stretched over his dick. A bead of precum has already soaked a dark spot at the head.
I drop to my knees right there on the rug. I mouth him through the cotton first, feeling the heat, the throb, the way his hips jerk forward when I drag my tongue up the outlined ridge. Then I yank the waistband down and he springs fully free, flushed dark, curved up toward his navel, foreskin peeled halfway back, slit glossy and open. I lick the bead away, salty, sharp, then take the head between my lips and suck slow. His fingers fist in my hair hard enough to sting. I take more, deeper, until my nose presses into the hair at his base and my throat flutters around him. He curses, thighs shaking, and pulls me off before he loses it.
He drags me up, kisses me filthy so he can taste himself on my tongue, then shoves me backward onto the bed. The mattress bounces. He crawls over me, boxer-briefs gone now, and swallows me down in one slick glide that punches the air out of my lungs. His mouth is hot, wet, perfect suction, tongue pressing the vein on the underside while his hand cups my balls, rolling them gently. I thread fingers through his hair and fuck his throat shallow until he gags just enough to make us both laugh.
I haul him up, flip us, pin his wrists above his head with one hand while I kiss down his chest, bite a nipple, lick the sweat from the groove between his pecs. Then lower, tongue tracing every ridge of his abs until I reach his dick again. I jerk him slow, watching the foreskin glide over the head, spreading the slickness, while I mouth his balls, suck one, then the other, feeling them draw up tight. He’s leaking a steady stream now, dripping onto his stomach.
I push his thighs wider, hook his knees over my shoulders, and lick a long, wet stripe from the base of his balls all the way up to his hole. He jolts, swears, spreads wider. I do it again, slower, pressing the flat of my tongue against the tight ring of muscle, tasting clean skin and faint salt and pure want. I circle, tease, then push inside with the tip of my tongue until his hips roll helplessly. I add a finger alongside my tongue, then two, working him up, curling, searching until I find the spot that makes his back arch clean off the bed and his dick slap wet against his stomach.
He’s opening now, wet and sloppy I add more lube for good measure, three fingers now, three fingers now, four, twisting slow, watching his hole flutter and clench around my knuckles. Every time I pull out he whines and pushes back for more. I lean down and lick around my own fingers, tasting lube and him, feeling the stretch, until he’s babbling my name and begging without shame.
I pull my hand free, lube up my dick in one long stroke, and push his knees to his chest. The head nudges his hole and I watch his face as I sink in, inch by inch, no rush, letting him feel every thick vein, every throb. He’s impossibly tight, heat gripping me like a fist, and still so greedy he tilts his hips to take me deeper. When my hips finally meet his ass we both exhale like we’ve been holding breath for twenty years.
I start slow, long drags that make him curse, then faster, harder, the bedframe slamming the wall in a brutal rhythm. Sweat drips off my chest onto his; our stomachs slide together, slick with precum and spit. I hook his legs higher, almost folding him in half, and pound that spot inside him until his eyes roll back and his dick leaks a steady stream across his abs.
I pull out, flip him onto his stomach, haul his hips up. He scrambles to his knees, forehead pressed to the mattress, back bowed like an offering. I slam back in and he shouts into the pillow, fists twisting sheets. The angle is deeper; every thrust punches a broken sound out of him. I lean over him, chest hair rasping his back, teeth on his shoulder, one arm banded across his chest, the other jerking him rough and fast.
He comes first, my fist working him as he shoots thick across the sheets with my name wrecked in his throat, hole clamping down so hard my vision blurs. The clench drags me over; I drive in to the root and unload, my balls flooding him deep, hips jerking through every wave until I’m empty and shaking.
We collapse sideways, still joined, my front to his back, my arm locked around his waist. I stay inside him until I soften and slip out, then pull him close, legs tangled, sweat cooling, hearts hammering against each other’s ribs. His hole is puffy and wet, leaking me in slow pulses down his thigh.
Fireworks bloom somewhere over the lake, red and gold and silent through glass.
We sleep exactly like that, naked, sticky, wrecked, finally home.
“Happy fucking New Year,” Nate mutters against my neck, voice hoarse and wrecked.
“Happy fucking New Year,” I answer, laughing into his sweat-damp hair.
We say it at the exact same second, breathless and stupid, then cling tighter, legs tangled, hearts still hammering against each other’s ribs while the first fireworks of 2026 bloom red and gold over the lake.
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I wake up sticky, sore in the best places, Nate’s arm heavy across my waist and his breath warm against my shoulder blade. The room is pale with January light and the quiet after snow. He’s still out cold, mouth slightly open, one leg thrown over mine like he’s afraid I’ll vanish if he lets go.
I ease out from under him, careful, and pad naked to the en-suite. The shower is one of those rain heads the size of a dinner plate. Hot water hits my shoulders and runs down my chest, washing last night’s sweat and lube and come off. I brace one hand on the tile, let the steam fill my lungs, and feel my dick stir lazily at the memory of Nate’s body under mine, the way he opened up, the way he sounded when he came.
I give myself a couple of idle strokes, half-hard and smug, grinning like an idiot, when the bathroom door creaks.
“Already ready for round three?” I say without turning, water drumming on my back, stroking myself a little more. “Ready for more?”
I spin around, cock still in my fist, expecting Nate’s smirk.
Instead I get six-foot-three of wide-eyed, dripping-wet déjà vu.
A young man stands frozen in the doorway, sleep-rumpled blond hair, same shoulders, same jaw, twenty-years-younger version of the man asleep in the next room. The towel that was around his waist is now a puddle at his feet, and Jesus fucking Christ, the kid is hung. Even completely soft he’s thicker and longer than I am hard, heavy against his thigh like he was built in a lab labeled “genetic jackpot.”
Our eyes lock.
His face goes nuclear red.
“Fuck, sorry!” he yelps, voice cracking somewhere between mortified and strangled. He scrambles for the towel, almost slips on the wet tile, yanks it up, and bolts, door banging shut behind him.
I stand there under the spray, dick in my hand, water pounding my back, brain blue-screening.
From the bedroom I hear Nate’s sleepy, amused voice drift in: “Rowan? That you, son?”
Rowan’s panicked sprint thunders down the hallway.
This was about to get complicated…
Comments
Jules
Loving this continuation / second chapter! Happy New Year!
Brendan Gavin
Mmm Rowan
