RedBlast_X5
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sorry sorry sorry
🕑 Added 2023-07-31 16:30:01 +0000 UTCAlright, I don't know how to start with this update, but first, an apology for the inactivity I've had these months. I already mentioned it in my last post, but I'm going to mention it again in case some people didn't notice. I got temporary work for 3 months, but my contract already ran out at the beginning of this month. I should have posted an update that I was free, but, I didn't, and again I apologize for that. These days since my contract ended, I was meditating about my life. I know it will sound stupid, but I'm still fighting with my depression, and that mentally exhausts me a lot, but hey, my problems are separate and I want to list the things I want to talk about.
- 1: Diane's Short Animation - I know I commented that Diane's short animation I posted in May would have sounds. Well, I was waiting for the voice actress to send me the sounds, and I never received anything, so I changed VA, and I finally have the audio for the animation. (I won't give details of the previous VA, since I respect her privacy and I don't want to expose her) It will be published the first days of August with sounds and in 4K at 60FPS without image compression for the bronze and silver tiers. An apology for everything, but even that was out of my control.
- 2: my temporary job: yes, I got a temporary job for 3 months. I mentioned this before but I still think that there are people who did not read or did not realize it. I tried to work on Diane's animation when I came home from work, but the routine of eleven or more hours a day would not allow it, I would literally just come home and fall asleep even without taking off my uniform. My contract ended earlier this month, and I think I should have mentioned it or given some sign of life, sorry if I disappointed some people. really.
- 3: Problems with the company where I was interning and some other things: I still haven't got my university degree, I was doing my internship at a company and honestly I had too many problems with the project manager. Shit if you ask me, a lot of work for a project that didn't have a defined direction. I ended up with burnout symptoms, and in the end I left the project and the company because I started to hate everything related to animation and graphic design and I didn't want to get to the point of abandoning what I like. That was a very hard period for me, because I entered a phase where I didn't know what I wanted to do in life, and I looked for ways to leave this world, and I had some fights with my dad because of my suicidal thoughts. It is for this reason that I looked for a job to try to distract myself and forget about my problems, leave the routine and the space that was killing me inside. It was honestly the best thing I could have done, I learned to value life, the people around me, myself and the coworkers I had. one of them helped me stand out and see the positive before the negative and I really appreciate it. She was like a mother figure to me for at least a month before she left the company to raise her children.
This got very personal and I'm truly sorry.
- 4: Diane's Valentine's Animation: Honestly, I didn't measure how ambitious this project was, a lot of dialogue, interaction between characters, sounds, rendering, animation, ETC. It got out of hand, and no, I haven't abandoned it, but there are going to be many changes with that project. After thinking about it, reviewing the script and the progress of the animation, while I was at work, I realized that I wasn't comfortable with the project as it was then, the person who helped me write the original script, reviewed and suggested changing the original script. so now it won't be set on Valentine's Day anymore, and it will be more of a normal situation, but trying to stick to Diane's personality, and I'm afraid to tell you that the original project is "canceled". but that doesn't mean that I'm not going to do an animation of Diane anymore, but since the script is different, but taking some things from the previous one, I'll have to redo the animation from scratch. but I think it's for the best, because even I wasn't satisfied with the direction the previous one was taking. so taking advantage of the fact that I am going to redo everything from the beginning. I made the decision to improve Diane's model and redesign some parts of her body, as well as redo the Rig from scratch as well. I'm sure it will be worth it, and I'm very sorry if this decision upsets you and I'm sorry if I have disappointed you with it.
- 5: Model of “Porsha Crystal” (in theory): I made a model of Porsha in my spare time at work using the Steam link on my iPad. It was torture due to the large amount of lag, but there is already another character to animate.
And that would be all. there are some other things that have happened to me in these months, but they are less important and I think it's better to talk to a psychologist, I don't think it's worth mentioning here.
I want to apologize wholeheartedly to all of you. I have not abandoned you, I do not intend to. I'm sorry if you feel scammed, I don't blame you if you really do. I shouldn't have disappeared all this time, I shouldn't have. I will continue
doing what I am passionate about, that I assure you. whatever comes up I will mention it, and I will not leave my community behind again.
Thank you for still here and to everyone who supported all this time.
-RedBlast
Comments
Jake
I hadn't answered to this post before and only found out now checking around my patreon. I do hope that everything's going better now. Life has it's up and downs and it's rough, but I know you can make it :)
Flightsim2
No problem Red, Take some time and rest (mentally too). Heatlh comes first, we can wait. It's nice to see you trying to continue the animations because your work is really nice. Have a nice week.
