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NYP Ch. 94
🕑 Added 2025-12-25 01:53:45 +0000 UTCOver the next few weeks, things shifted in ways Kenji couldn't quite identify.
It started small. Honoka had always brought him food when he worked late. But instead of leaving a plate on his workbench and retreating, she'd pull up a stool and eat with him, asking about his progress while they shared the meal.
"How's the chakra flow issue?" she'd ask, and wait for his answer.
He'd explain, half-expecting her eyes to glaze over like most people's did when he got technical. But she listened. She even asked follow-up questions that showed she'd been paying attention to previous explanations.
"So if you adjust the conduction rate here, wouldn't that create an imbalance in the opposing joint?"
He'd pause, consider it, then realize she was right.
It kept happening.
Dinner became a regular thing instead of an occasional occurrence. They'd sit at the small kitchen table, and she'd talk about her medical training or things happening in the village. He'd tell her about whatever technique problem he was working through. The conversations lasted longer each time.
---
Three days after their conversation in his workshop, Ikkaku stopped by to return some analysis tools he'd borrowed.
Kenji was reviewing puppet designs when his friend knocked.
"Come in."
Ikkaku entered, set the tools on the workbench, and glanced around the space. "Where's Honoka? Usually she's around when I visit."
"Medical training."
"She works really hard." Ikkaku leaned against the wall. "She hasn't needed my help in weeks, actually. Her chakra control is solid now."
"Yeah, she mentioned you'd finished the basics with her. Thanks for that."
"It wasn't a burden." Ikkaku watched him for a moment. "You know, you're lucky to have her."
Kenji looked up from his designs. But before he could ask what he meant, Ikkaku pushed off the wall. "Anyway, I should get going. I just wanted to drop those off."
"Thanks."
After Ikkaku left, he sat there for a minute, the comment still echoing in his head.
You're lucky to have her.
He was. Honoka made the apartment feel less empty.
---
Two weeks later, Kenji found Honoka at Training Ground Seven.
He'd been looking for her because she'd mentioned wanting his opinion on a healing technique she was developing, and when she hadn't been at the apartment, he'd checked her usual practice spots.
She was sitting against a tree, one hand pressed to her ribs.
Kenji crossed the distance quickly. "What happened?"
"I'm fine, just—"
"Let me see."
"I can handle it—"
"Honoka." He crouched in front of her. "Let me see."
She moved her hand reluctantly. Her shirt was torn along the side, and underneath, an ugly bruise was already forming.
"Who did you spar with?"
"It doesn't matter. I got careless."
Kenji's hands moved over the injury, checking for deeper damage.
"Does this hurt?" He pressed lightly on her ribs.
"A little."
"And this?"
"No."
"Nothing's broken. You'll need to rest it for a few days." His fingers traced the edge of the bruise, and he frowned. "You're lucky it wasn't worse. What were you doing?"
"Practicing medical combat techniques. I wanted to see if I could heal while defending myself."
"And clearly that went well."
Despite the pain, Honoka almost smiled. "Your sarcasm is showing."
"You're hurt. I'm allowed to be sarcastic." He pulled medical supplies from his pouch. "Hold still."
He worked quietly, applying a healing salve to reduce the bruising and wrapping her ribs.
"You don't have to do this," she said quietly. "I can treat it myself."
"I know you can." He didn't look up from his work. "But I'm here, so I'm doing it."
"Why?"
That made him pause. He met her eyes.
"Because you need to be more careful. I don't want to see you hurt."
Honoka's breath hitched slightly. "I'll be more careful."
"Good."
He finished wrapping her ribs and sat back. "Take it easy for at least three days. No combat training, or heavy lifting."
"Yes, Kenji-sama."
"I'm serious."
"I know. Thank you."
He helped her stand, keeping a hand on her arm until she was steady. They walked back to the apartment together, Kenji matching his pace to hers without comment.
---
A month passed.
It became routine: Honoka would wait up for him when he worked late. She'd bring tea or just sit reading while he finished whatever project had consumed his evening. More often than not, she'd fall asleep on the couch before he finished.
The first time it happened, Kenji stood over her for a moment, unsure what to do.
She looked peaceful. Her face was relaxed in sleep, one hand curled under her cheek. The book she'd been reading had slipped from her fingers and lay open on the floor.
He picked up the book, marked her page, and set it on the table. Then he retrieved a blanket from the closet and spread it over her.
He should wake her, and tell her to go to her room. Instead, he settled into the chair across from the couch with his own book and just stayed.
When she woke an hour later, groggy and disoriented, he pretended he'd only just sat down.
"You should go to bed properly. Sleeping on the couch will hurt your back."
Honoka rubbed her eyes. "What time is it?"
"Late."
"Did you finish your work?"
"Enough of it."
She stood, stretching slightly. The blanket fell away. She noticed it, looked at him, but didn't comment.
"Goodnight, Kenji."
"Goodnight."
---
After that, it became a pattern. She'd fall asleep waiting, and he'd end up staying nearby instead of waking her right away.
The night she caught him, Kenji had been sitting there for a while.
Honoka was curled up on the couch, her breathing slow and even. He'd covered her with a blanket earlier and gone back to his chair with a scroll on puppet mechanics.
He wasn't reading it. He was watching her.
Honoka kept her eyes mostly closed, watching him through her lashes. Her heart started to race, her breath catching just enough to give her away.
Kenji looked up at once. Their eyes met. For a moment, neither of them moved.
"You're awake," he said.
"Yeah."
"You should go to bed properly."
"I will." She sat up, keeping the blanket around her shoulders. "Were you reading?"
"Trying to."
"Tired?"
"Something like that."
She stood and headed for her room, then hesitated in the doorway.
"Kenji?"
"Yeah?"
"You don't have to stay up watching over me."
"I know."
"But you do anyway."
He didn't answer.
Honoka smiled, soft and small. "Goodnight."
---
The village festival happened in early autumn, a celebration marking the harvest season. Lanterns hung throughout the streets, food stalls lined every corner, and people crowded the main plaza where musicians played traditional songs.
Kenji knocked on Honoka's door that evening.
She opened it, surprised to see him. "Hey. What's up?"
"There's a festival tonight. Want to go?"
Honoka blinked. "You want to go to a festival?"
"Why not? We've been cooped up working for months. Figured we could both use a break." He shrugged. "But if you're busy—"
"No! No, I'm not busy. Just... give me a minute."
They walked to the festival as the sun set. The streets were already packed with people moving between stalls, children running with candied fruit, couples walking hand in hand.
It had been a while since either of them had just done something like that.
"Here." Kenji handed her a skewer of dango from a vendor they'd passed. Three-color, the sweet kind.
Honoka took it, and said, "Thanks."
They ate as they walked, threading through the crowd. Honoka slowed whenever something caught her attention, drifting toward stalls with bright banners and shouting vendors. She stopped in front of a game with stacked wooden targets and a bucket of worn balls.
"Want to try?" Kenji followed her gaze.
She eyed the targets. "I'm bad at those."
"So am I, probably. But it looks fun."
He paid for three throws. The first ball struck the center of the stack, sending the top targets scattering. The second followed just as cleanly, knocking the remaining pieces loose. By the third, there was nothing left to hit, the wooden blocks already scattered across the stall floor.
The stall owner reached beneath the counter and set a small stuffed fox in Kenji's hands.
Kenji turned it over once, then held it out to Honoka. "Here."
She blinked at it. "What am I supposed to do with that?"
"Up to you," he said. "Keep it. Give it away. Throw it at someone."
She laughed, shaking her head, and tucked the fox under her arm. "Thanks."
They kept walking, voices and music blending together as they moved through the festival. Near the main plaza, the crowd grew dense, people packed shoulder to shoulder around the musicians.
Someone bumped into Honoka from behind, and she stumbled forward. Kenji caught her, hand going to her waist to steady her.
"You good?"
"Yeah, I'm fine."
His hand stayed there for a second longer than necessary before he let go. The crowd shifted around them, but neither of them moved right away.
Honoka looked up at him. The festival lanterns reflected in her eyes, and for a moment, everything else faded into background noise.
Then someone else pushed past, breaking the moment.
They ended up near the edge of the festival grounds, away from the worst of the noise, where the music was quieter and fewer people passed by.
Kenji slowed, then stopped.
"This is nice. We should do this more often."
Honoka glanced at him. "Go to festivals?"
"No. Just take time off." He looked back toward the lights in the distance. "I forget to do that."
"Forgetting isn't the same as not wanting to," she said.
He gave a quiet huff of a laugh. "Maybe not." After a moment, he added, "Still. I'd like to remember."
Honoka's expression softened. "Me too."
They turned toward home, the sounds of the festival fading behind them.
Kenji found his thoughts driftingd.
For years, his life had been structured around survival. Training, missions, developing techniques, planning for threats. There hadn't been room for anything else because staying alive took priority.
Maybe it was time to live instead of just survive. But could he do that?
He glanced at Honoka walking beside him, the stuffed fox still tucked under her arm. Somewhere along the way, she had slipped into his days without him noticing, until coming home meant the sound of her in the kitchen, dinner shared at the table, and conversations that stretched late into the night without ever needing a point.
When had started being something he looked forward to?
When they reached the apartment, Honoka turned to him.
"Thanks for tonight. I had fun."
"Yeah. Me too."
She smiled and headed inside. Kenji followed after a moment.
---
Three weeks after the festival, Kenji found himself standing in his kitchen at two in the morning, staring at a cup of tea.
The apartment was quiet. Honoka had gone to bed hours ago. He should be in his workshop, or reading intelligence reports, or doing literally anything productive.
Instead, he was standing here thinking about the fact that she'd fallen asleep on the couch again tonight.
That wasn't normal behavior.
He picked up the tea and took a sip.
The problem was simple: he'd started noticing things he shouldn't care about. He even tried to imagine coming home tomorrow and she wasn't there. The apartment empty. No one to cook dinner or leave lights on or fall asleep on the couch waiting for him.
The thought bothered him more than it should.
Kenji set down his tea and ran a hand through his hair. He knew what this was. He wasn't an idiot. Honoka had made it pretty clear over the past weeks how she felt, even if she'd never said it outright.
She was in love with him.
And he didn't know what he was.
He knew he didn't want her to leave. He knew he liked having her around.
But was that love? He had no idea. He'd never felt it before.
Well. Once, maybe. A long time ago. Someone who'd gotten tired of always coming second to whatever project consumed his attention. That relationship had ended exactly how he'd expected it to: badly.
Maybe that's what would happen here too. Honoka would realize he wasn't capable of giving her what she wanted. She'd find someone better.
The smart thing would be to maintain distance. But when he thought about her eventually leaving... He didn't like it.
He picked up his tea and dumped it in the sink.
---
The next evening, Honoka was in the living room when he came back from a meeting with Minato.
She looked up from her book. "How'd it go?"
"Just standard briefing on village security protocols." He set his mission pack down. "You eat yet?"
"I was waiting for you."
"You don't have to do that."
"I know. I wanted to." She stood and headed toward the kitchen. "I made curry."
Kenji followed her, watching as she moved around the kitchen. This was her space as much as his now. Maybe more, considering how rarely he cooked.
They ate dinner together, talking about nothing important. Honoka mentioned a medical technique she was working on. He told her about a puppet design flaw he'd finally solved.
When they finished, Kenji started washing dishes. Honoka dried and put them away.
"Honoka."
"Hmm?"
He set down the dish he was washing and turned to face her. "Can I ask you something?"
"Sure."
"Why do you stay?"
She blinked. "What do you mean?"
He leaned against the counter. "You've been training as a medical-nin. You could get assigned to a hospital position, and get your own place. You don't need to live here anymore."
Honoka set down the dish she'd been holding. "Do you want me to leave?"
"No. I just don't understand why you haven't."
"Because I don't want to."
"Why not?"
She looked at him for a long moment. "You really don't know?"
"I have theories."
"Theories... Huh?"
"Yeah."
Honoka laughed quietly. "You're impossible sometimes, you know that?"
"I've been told."
She picked up the dish again, dried it, and put it away. When she spoke again, her voice was softer. "I stay because being here makes me happy. Being around you makes me happy. That's it. That's the whole reason."
Kenji watched her. "Even though I'm not easy to be around?"
"You're not as difficult as you think."
"I'm serious."
"So am I." She turned to face him fully. "You think you're some kind of broken person who can't connect with people. But you're not. You're just careful. There's a difference."
"Careful people don't make good partners."
"Who said anything about partners?"
Kenji held her gaze. "I know you have feelings for me. I'm not blind."
Honoka's expression didn't change. "And?"
"And I don't want to hurt you. You're good, Honoka. You deserve someone who can give you what you need."
"What I need," Honoka repeated slowly. "You think you know what I need?"
"I think you need someone who's not going to disappoint you."
"You're right. I do have feelings for you." She stepped closer. "And I know you're scared. I know you think you're going to mess this up somehow. But here's the thing, Kenji: I'm not asking you to be perfect. I'm not asking you to suddenly become some romantic ideal. I'm just asking you to try."
"What if I can't?"
"What if you can?"
He wanted to argue, and point out all the reasons this was a bad idea. But she was standing close enough now that he could see the fire in her eyes, and the words wouldn't come.
"I thought you'd lose interest eventually," he said quietly. "Realize I'm not worth the effort."
"I'm still here, aren't I?"
"For now."
"Kenji." She reached up and put her hand on his chest, right over his heart. "I'm not going anywhere. Not unless you tell me to. And even then, I'd probably argue with you about it."
He almost smiled. "You're stubborn."
"I learned from the best."
They stood there in the kitchen, her hand still resting against his chest.
He'd killed people, fought in wars, and survived things that should have killed him. But standing here looking at Honoka, he felt more uncertain than he had facing any enemy.
"I don't know if what I feel is love," he admitted. "I don't know if I'm capable of it, honestly. But I know I don't want you to leave. I know I miss you when you're gone. And I know that when I think about the future, you're in it."
Honoka's eyes brightened. "That's enough. We can start there."
"It might not go anywhere."
"Does it have to?"
"I could hurt you."
"You could. But you won't." She smiled. "Want to know how I know?"
"How?"
"Because you're standing here worried about it. Someone who didn't care wouldn't bother having this conversation."
Kenji looked at her, this woman who'd somehow slipped past every defense he'd built, and realized she was right.
He was terrified. But he was also tired of pretending he didn't want this.
"Okay," he said.
"Okay?"
"Let's try."
Honoka's smile widened. Then she reached up, pulled him down, and kissed him.
It wasn't his first kiss. But it had been a long time, and definitely never with someone who was this aggressive. For a second he froze, caught off guard by the suddenness.
Then he kissed her back.
When they finally pulled apart, Honoka was smiling. "See? You're not as bad at this as you think."
"That was one kiss."
"Want to try for two?"
This time he initiated it.
---
The next few weeks were strange.
Kenji wasn't good at relationship conventions. He didn't know what he was supposed to do, how he was supposed to act. But Honoka was patient. When he forgot to hold her hand, she took his. When he got absorbed in work and lost track of time, she'd come get him instead of waiting for him to remember.
Slowly, he learned.
Small touches became normal. Sitting close on the couch while reading. Her head on his shoulder. His arm around her waist.
It felt foreign at first. Then it felt natural.
---
One night about a week after that kitchen conversation, they were in the living room. Honoka was reading a medical text, curled up against his side. Kenji had a scroll on chakra theory in his lap, but he wasn't really reading it.
"You're staring," Honoka said without looking up.
"Was I?"
"You've been on the same paragraph for ten minutes."
"Observant."
She set her book aside and turned to look at him. "What are you thinking about?"
"That this is weird."
"Weird bad or weird good?"
"Just weird." He set his scroll down too. "I keep waiting for it to feel wrong. For you to realize this was a mistake. But it doesn't, and you don't."
"Disappointed?"
"No. Surprised."
Honoka shifted so she was facing him properly. Then she reached up and touched his face. "I know you're still figuring out what this is. But I'm not going anywhere. Okay?"
Kenji covered her hand with his.
They sat like that for a moment, just looking at each other. Then Honoka leaned in and kissed him.
It started gentle. Like their other kisses had been. When they pulled apart, Honoka's eyes were darker. "Kenji?"
"Yeah?"
"Take me to bed."
"Are you sure?"
"I've never been more sure of anything."
He stood, taking her hand and pulling her up with him. They walked to his room together, and when he closed the door behind them, it felt like crossing a threshold they couldn't uncross.
Honoka stepped closer, her hands going to his chest. She kissed him again, and this time when she pulled back, she was smiling. "Stop overthinking. Just be here with me."
So he was.
---
Later, they lay tangled together in the darkness, both catching their breath.
Honoka's head rested on his chest, one arm draped across his waist. Kenji stared at the ceiling.
"You okay?" Honoka asked softly.
"Yeah. You?"
"More than okay." She pressed a kiss to his shoulder. She was quiet for a moment. Then she said, "I love you. You know that, right?"
"I know." He tightened his arm around her. "I don't know if I love you yet. But I care about you. And I don't want this to end."
"That's enough for now."
They lay there in silence, neither of them ready to move or break the moment.
Eventually, Honoka's breathing evened out and Kenji realized she'd fallen asleep. He should probably sleep too, but he wasn't tired.
Instead, he stayed where he was, holding her.
He didn't know how long this would last. He had a habit of ruining things, and he wasn't good at loving, not in the ways that seemed to come easily to other people.
But she was here now. For the moment, that was enough.
