namakxin
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I will be taking a considerably long break.
🕑 Added 2024-04-15 21:59:17 +0000 UTCHello! This is namakxin.
Many of you have been waiting, and I am truly sorry for not writing this notice sooner.
I have currently paused my Patreon.
I needed time to organize my thoughts, time to make a decision, and I have been continuously contemplating how to convey this to all of you.
First, I think I should start by sharing some personal stories before discussing namakxin.
Over the past year, I have been completely obsessed with "artwork creation" itself. There have been countless days where I worked through the night. With the thought that it would be nice if it could help my activities financially, I started selling artworks and opened a Patreon. I am grateful that quite a lot of people showed interest in what I wanted to do, and I was also able to stay addicted to it all day long whenever I made good artworks.
However, things that should take precedence over artwork creation have emerged in my life. I seriously pondered for a long time about whether to continue my activities, and I could no longer immerse myself in artwork creation all day like before.
As my knowledge of artwork editing grew, I began to notice more clumsy parts that needed correction. I started to become obsessed with details, which eventually led to increased work hours. As a result, there were many days when I stayed up all night even though I should have been sleeping normally.
My health has deteriorated significantly compared to a year ago. In the end, I had to compromise to some extent on the production quantity and quality I had set for myself. As I started to compromise, I thought, "This artwork is beautiful but doesn't resemble the character," or "This artwork turned out really well, but it is expected to take too long to revise." For various reasons, I began to wonder if I was forcibly making artworks just to meet the quantity.
These thoughts started to consume me, and until recently, it was difficult to even look at artworks. Even growing the namakxin account was a huge stress. I lost the sense to distinguish which artworks were good, and unlike before, I wondered if I was doing this because I wanted to. In this situation, it was not right to keep the Patreon open, but I am truly sorry for not closing it sooner as the period of contemplation lengthened.
As I mentioned earlier, I was able to live as namakxin because I was obsessed with artwork creation itself, and thanks to those who appreciated my passion, I was able to continue creating artworks. I truly lived as "namakxin," not as "myself." During the Patreon suspension period, I plan to live as "myself" before namakxin, take a short break, and ponder what I want to do. Honestly, I myself feel that there is no taste in supporting me as a creator, so I sincerely ask Patreon supporters to cancel their support. If I were you, I wouldn't support a creator like namakxin who doesn't communicate well, uploads late, and so on.
Actually, I still haven't made a proper decision.
How long can I continue this? Will reducing work solve the problem? Should I close Patreon and start another business on the side that has a much higher financial expectation and less work within the scope of my knowledge? Should I create artworks as a hobby from now on and release them for free? Should I pay more attention to making a living? If I do other activities, should I do them under the name namakxin? Should I pay attention to communication? Should I resume SNS? Should I recreate the Discord server? And so on... I originally wanted to decide on each of these one by one and write, but I am still pondering.
I need to utilize and learn new things and spend time on them, but each day feels too short.
Anyway, I will take a considerable break and make a decision. I sincerely appreciate you for watching over and supporting my journey. As I always say, I always mean it. Thanks to your interest, it was the first time in my life that I burned with such passion for something. I hope everyone has a great week.
Comments
joeydtx
Please enjoy your well deserved rest, let the peace of mind slowly lead you to where you want to be. I will sincerely miss seeing your creations monthly, which for me was a high ranked favorite of mine. Personally, I hope whatever you decide we still get to enjoy your creations at some point in the future when you are ready. I believe your supporters here like myself will hang around and if you decide to create again, we will all be here for you. <3
THE AFK GUY
Take care of yourself fist before anything else
