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A little life update
🕑 Added 2024-03-28 01:13:27 +0000 UTChi yall!
sorry for the hiatus, i feel like everytime i start really getting on track- life happens and im just completely thrown off. dont worry though- im already getting back on the saddle to finish the content for this month and april ^_^
anyway, just a little bit as to where i have been:
this year has been an odd time for me. things that have been building since last september, that had me in that fun little space during the holidays season, finally hit its climax this month.
without giving too much of my own privacy away- the situation i was in basically had me at a crossroads. i had been slowly heading toward this crossroad for over 5 years now. i just didnt know it, because i could not see it- until that september...
i realized either i would stay on this road that i was familiar with, that is stable and predictable but not enthralling- not thrilling and not my dream. or i would have to abandon it. forever forgoing what the reality of that road would be for the unknown.
for just a chance at happiness. for just a chance at my dream.
it was terrifying.
so- i put off choosing. and i coped with whatever substance and distractions i could get my hands on. i put it off and off and off and begged and prayed for the road that i was on to be the right choice. to be the easier choice. for me not to regret it.
much like a child having to get rid of their safety blanket, i didnt want to do it- but i knew that to grow i simply had to. so i did what i had to do. and it has completely changed the trajectory of my life forever.
and i know that it may seem dramatic- but for those of you that find this situation to be familiar you know how devastating this is. im in mourning for the future that would have been.
im now facing the unknown. but im not scared. im excited.
Comments
Artey
I think chasing our dreams eventually brings uncertainty with it, so maybe it's normal that you're feeling like this. I don't know what you did, but I hope the risk you took will pay off. Happy Easter, Lovesick.
bacon sandwich
Good luck
Esteed
I'm glad you're excited about the future again, and think it's really brave that you were able to make that decision and take action on it. Take whatever time you need, and like the others said, we've got your back, whatever comes next.
Arc of Carona
Do what you wanna and gotta do, Lovesick, but know we’ll be here for you
Diabolical D3vil
I know we don’t know each other well Lovesick, But I’ve been in that situation several times where I had to make a life-altering choice. Every time it is never an easy choice, but it changed it trajectory of my life. Making the right decision doesn’t always feel right in the moment. I have every confidence that you have done what’s best for you, And that your internal guide is pointing you towards a path where you will be happy and doing what you want to do. Best of luck, I know you’re gonna do well.
dale garrett
We miss you, but you gotta do whatever is right for you, sometimes that means stepping outside your comfort zone, we've got your back, just make sure you're taking care of you first and foremost ❤️
Infamous Nightraid
It's always best to take care of yourself! Whatever it takes, it'll be okay! You got this and people have your back.
