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Depression - I need a break :(
🕑 Added 2025-02-01 16:41:56 +0000 UTCDear Patreons,
Although this Patreon does not yet exist for a long time I need to pause it for my own well-being.
I have indicated it in the chat a few times, but the few depressed days have indeed manifested into a proper depressive episode.
The reason for that could just be overworking or something I suspect to lie 20 years in my past. Nothing traumatic per so. No bad event or anything. Just something I was never able to cope with and now 20 years later it has come forth.
You can write me in private if you want to. I am very open about this. But maybe not to the degree that I share it in an open post.
So what does that mean for you:
For the moment I am not doing any monthly requests. The depression has made me loose almost all motivation in doing AI and I went from near 100% AI in my free time to near zero.
My hobby that I have monitized become a burden for me. At least it currently feels that way. But of course since you are paying I have to be open with you about.
I am looking for therapy places and doing online therapy ... unfortunately online Therapy is expensive. And missing the money from the Patreon would hit me hard not gonna lie.
So if some of you are so kind to maybe continue subscribing at a lower tier so I do not have to worry about this money ... I would deeply appreciate that. Your call. I cannot force you. Just that it would ease my mind a lot.
Deviantart will also soon get a matching post so they are all informed that even after all that teasing, the launch of Goddess Beyond Cultures is postponed for now.
The next question obviously is ... will I return? ... And I have to be blunt here. I do not know at the moment.
Is my passion for AI gone for good? Will I resume it the same way or in a smaller capacity. Is it just burried in my depression? Loosing interest in hobbies is a sympton afterall. But I dont know.
I can hopefull update you in 1-4 months regarding my status but for the moment Biggi1 needs a timeout.
But those who have me on Discord can contact me any time (or those who want my Discord data) - just let us keep it as PMs.
Now that this step is finally done, I hope some stay with me or not.
But in any case, me deepest appreciation for all of you. And I hope I can deliver some GTS Goodness sometime again, once my head is cleared out.
Best,
Biggi1
PS:
If anyone know a single girl who is into GTS, feel free to send her my way ;)
Comments
Sebastian
Thank you. I deeply appreciate it
Sebastian
Thank you. I am still around though
Sebastian
I am working on it. Thank you :)
Sebastian
I will. Thank you
FinnishAmiibo
Take all the time in the world you need, ill be supporting you every step along the way❤️.
Liu Zhufeng
sad. take care
Rho
damn, that sound terrible man :/ I feel sad for you I hope you get better
oblivionkey99
tis fair, take all the time you need, rest up, and i hope to see you again at some point.
Sebastian
Thank you :) Just do not let us do that in public comments
Vogur
I also hope for your mental health to get better. Know that we are here for you
Shady Muffins
Yeah, I do
Sebastian
You have my Discord?
Shady Muffins
Sure thing, I'm here whenever you need me in private
Sebastian
Deeply appreciate that.
Tim0taQ
Take your time, my sub will stay as long as you need support in the matter
Sebastian
I would appreciate it. Just not in public comments. But via PMs on Discord gladly.
Shady Muffins
Please, I hope your mental health gets better man, I really don't want you to stay this way, it sucks to see. But I'm here for you if you ever wanna talk man.
