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Life update? 😅🛼
🕑 Added 2025-09-17 02:56:13 +0000 UTCHi patronites! I hope your week has started off well 🤗
So... apparently, my body has finally said "enough" 😅 To be honest, it had been giving me signs for a while, I just wasn’t listening. Over the past few months, I was definitely overtraining and pushing myself too hard, trying to do everything at once. But I didn’t believe it 😂 I really thought I could handle it all. After all, I’m disciplined, I’m focused, I’m used to doing hard things, right? Well... yes. But I’m not Wonder Woman 😅
I wanted to lose weight, become a better skater, build muscle, keep up with cardio, stay productive at work, deal with emotional stress, be present for my family, have my own life, and still look like I had it all together. And yeah, I was strong... but at some point, my body asked for help 🥺
The day I got injured, I was already feeling off the whole class. I knew I wasn’t at my best. I was feeling weaker, and even some basic moves were starting to feel more difficult than normal. But I kept going, out of pure stubbornness. And that’s when it happened 🫠 I made a full split, at full speed, without warming up properly (or being able to perform a full split yet), just being totally reckless. And I felt it riiiiight away 😵 Something snapped and it started to really hurt. What a normal person would do? Stop, respect its body and take a break. But me? I didn’t stop 🫠 Of course not. I had so many things to finish before my trip, so I just kept going like nothing happened. Then I traveled. I was already not feeling great before the flight. During the trip, I got worse 😶 Fever, sore throat, sinus infection, total exhaustion. And when I got back home? Oh lord 😂 That’s when my body completely shut down. It was like it said, “okay, now you’re safe, so here’s your breakdown.” I ended up even more sick and had to take ten full days of antibiotics and corticosteroids just to function again.
Last week, after the meds were over, I finally went to a physical therapist and she told me something that hit me hard 😅 she thinks I might have... a higher pain tolerance than normal 🫠 because my condition looked a lot more serious than I thought, in her words 🥲 She then referred me to an orthopedist, and after checking everything, the doctor said it could be a few things… but her main suspicion is an avulsion fracture of the ischial tuberosity. Which I don't really believe, but I have two MRIs scheduled for Friday to confirm it or to look up for another diagnosis. I’m really, reeeeeally hoping it’s not that thing, I’m praying it’s just a tendon or muscle injury and not anything involving the bone 😭 because if it is the fracture, the treatment could involve surgery and months of no physical activity at all. And I can’t even imagine going that long without exercising, especially without doing the one thing that makes me feel most alive: skating 😭
Life is wild, huh? 🫠 In July, I was genuinely happy with my progress (and that doesn’t happen so often 😅). I was improving, I felt proud, I finally felt like I belonged in the rink. And in August, I was supposed to celebrate my 1-year skating anniversary on the 6th... but on the 5th, I got injured 💔 I didn’t even get to celebrate. I had to miss a bunch of classes, knowing I’d already miss more because of the trip. So basically, I didn’t skate at all in August. Now, in September, I’ve come back much more fearful. It honestly feels like I’ve gone backwards. But unfortunately, that’s just how life goes sometimes.
But anyways... Right now, I’m still taking meds 🫠 Painkillers, anti-inflammatories, muscle relaxants, and none of them are working very well. And I've been trying to rest a bit more. Which is also why things might still be a little slower than usual around here. Just being transparent 😔
All of this chaos led me to a conclusion. I think I finally understood that it’s pointless to chase a goal while destroying everything that sustains it 🥺 I don’t want to perform exhaustion just to feel worthy of results. I don’t want fake health that hides burnout. And I don’t want success if it costs me my peace 😭 I’ve felt sooooo weak for needing help. Every time I take a break, I wonder if I’m just being lazy. Or if I’m less valuable for wanting a lighter life... It's crazy cuz I’m such an empathetic person with everyone around me, but when it comes to the way I treat myself… oh, you wouldn’t want to hear the things I think or tell myself 😅 But when I catch this behavior, I try to remember that any living being on this planet deserves to live with energy, joy, and a body that feels like home. Me included 🥺
Anyway… another life update / emotional rant. Just wanted to share it so you know what’s been going on behind the scenes 🤗
Oh, and by the way 🥺 this skating video I’m posting was filmed last Saturday. And yes, I was in a lot of pain. But what hurts the most isn’t the pain itself… it’s the feeling of going backwards after coming "so far". That’s what really breaks me 🥺 But... I keep trying to improve, no matter how long it takes 🙏
Comments
Miles
“but it’s not your fault, it’s the adhd compelling you to try to stack it all in and do 37734673638 things at once “ A famous Vedo catchphrase “24 hours is not enough time in the day lmao” 😅 and now your system has caught up with this 🥺 (chipping away at it)
Miles
Vedo Vedo Vedo Vedo Ve Do “it had been giving me signs for a while, I just wasn’t listening.” Mmhmm, but it’s not your fault, it’s the adhd compelling you to try to stack it all in and do 37734673638 things at once 😅 Vedo system = “woman rest” *throws signals of pain, sickness, aches Vedo = “nononononono, I must do this and train and talk to my family and work and fhjdhrixhdjdhdjcb ” 😂 But will dissect this later just a proof of life
snake7778
First of all, I hope it will be just some minor injury without any long treatments. Second - never ever lose hope that things will be better, no matter how grim they looks at the moment. Wishing you all the best. Take this time for relax and just enjoy things you like ( the not-so-active-things please :D )
dekavader
Torcendo pro resultado ser o melhor possivel 🙏 Se cuida, precisar de ajuda não é fraqueza, descanso não é preguiça ❤️ Sei como é dificil não ser duro consigo mesmo, leva tempo pra sair dessa mentalidade, e mesmo assim, ainda me pego fazendo isso (mais raramente do que antes) ❤️ Espero que você melhore o mais rápido possível ❤️ Você é incrivel ❤️❤️❤️
Bennie Thurmond III
Wishing for the best case scenario, but even if it's what you fear it is, take the time to rest and recover. Health is wealth, my friend. No need to worry about it. You are on your own clock, meaning you reach your goals when you want to and when it's best for you... not for anyone else. You got this, buddy and you know where to find me if you need some encouragement. 🥰
Chrispy Chris
I hope the pain your are in is manageable and you can at least get good sleeps. The skating accomplishments your have done are not lost at least. You gained experience from them and if you did it once, you can get there again. But at Dani's paste please, not Atomic Dani's. 😉
「E」
I know that exact feeling and I got slightly injured myself. Nowhere near as bad as what you went through but still took me out for a couple of weeks. Being stubborn feels like a superpower but you also can hurt yourself pretty bad! Be nice to yourself and your body. We can't do everything, especially alone. We'll always be here to support and help when you need it! Glad you're back in action! its okay to take time to build yourself back up. You're not weak for resting and taking time to heal. You're doing great, Dani!
HitsuBT
Man it's rough going from a "she can do it ALL" to "Damn I need help finding the tv remote..." It always cuts us Productive Peeps deep when we gotta stop working >.>;. I feel that though, sadly it's also the other part of the process I guess. Sorry to hear it's got you down but sadly it's one of those things I think we all have to face. (As you know from our chats I've also been going through some health stuff so trust me, I know what it feels like to want to jump on board and DO everything but then your body is like "Lol NOPE!" Even so, I'm glad you got medical care coming your way. Sending some good vibes that it's nothing serious like a facture and maybe just some pulled muscles. Gotta take care of yourself. (Also it's kinda funny how they said you have a higher pain tolerance. Bad ass in a morbid way really but don't push yourself). I hope you will try to distract yourself from the set backs. Maybe work on some of your digital work for cosplay stuff or start planning another outfit while you're sitting down so you can at least gaslight yourself into feeling you productive. (I always clean my apartment when I get depressed or feel like I've been halted by life stuff. It's soothing lol). Anyways best of luck Dani, you got this, just another notch in the belt and hopefully you'll be back to 100% before you know it! Gotta keep you in tip top shape for your next international excursion xD! Stay strong and healthy!
Victor
The last thing anyone can ever think of you is lazy. You are one of the kindest, most hard-working people I know and you have all of my respect. I'm hopeful that the results of your MRI's come back with good news and that your recovery will be as smooth as possible. I want you to be able to keep enjoying the things you love because you deserve to feel every single bit of joy that you give all of us, and even more. Thank you for just being you. ❤️
