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[M4F] Blinded By Love [Ramble] [SFW] [A Battefield Of Give And Take] [Is It Love?] [Or Lies?] [Or Both?] [Heartache] [Difficulties Of Love] [Positive And Negative Thoughts] [What Won't You Do?] [24:39]
🕑 Added 2023-12-06 20:56:19 +0000 UTCA listener and I have a shared problem. Someone let us down recently and we had furnaced a strong feeling of love inside us, so it hurts! We want to beat ourselves up over it. I've made this ramble talking about the difficulties of love. We often want our dreams to come true faster when we let our heart run free. It's only later where we can discover it was more like a fantasy as we approach the truth. I'm not always nice to myself when I want the loss to hurt either. I haven't been hiding how I feel. I try to make it productive, but sometimes it feels useless to try. Eventually, we want to feel something back to normal or better where we still feel we can love again.
There is always some yin (negative) and yang (positive) to life. When things flip back to the other side, hopefully, we'll appreciate the beauty of the positive side just as much as before. I do like to dream of ideals and my erotic audio project was exciting from the start because I got to dream of love more often without having to have experiencing the consequences. I feel like I still have to worship a dream woman most of the time to feel safe. Love is a dangerous drug that gives us higher highs and lower lows then we'd otherwise have. I am more interested in the idea of love since I hate losing things.
If you feel like you need the help of someone more professional, you could try talking to a therapist if you don't want to talk to friends and family about this. Try to keep up with your normal routine and take care of yourself to not compound the negatives. My inner voice can be too loud sometimes, and make things feel worse. Spending time with other people does seem to help me to reduce the pain.
I'm sorry if I said the wrong thing. I hope we start to feel better in time. 🫂
Comments
Darling you are more vulnerable with us than we often deserve and to me, it’s a treasure to behold. I feel gifted to hear these strong emotions that I can often empathize with, even if not currently. I am glad that this seems to be a healthy outlet for these emotions and you feel so confident to share with us. Thank you.
It sounds like rambling your thoughts aloud is helpful for you, that verbal processing is doing something to make life a little easier on you. I hope it does.
