LostSamurai1974
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I'm back (for better or for worse)
🕑 Added 2025-03-29 23:05:13 +0000 UTCHey y'all,
First things first, I'm sorry for being absent the last year.
As you've all suspected, some things had gotten in the way in life that had prevented me from writing as I finished up my Uni degree. I'll try not to go into too much detail because I don't want to come off as someone who prays for empathy, but I think it's important to spread awareness on the subject.
I've been a bit...well...depressed. I had been going through the last year on autopilot. Wake up, go to Uni, study, work, sleep. Repeat. My writing goals went down the drain. My health and fitness goals got banished to the edges of the universe, and for all intents and purposes I was on a cruise in a sea of oblivion. And with all the terrible things going on in the world, I felt my problems were way too small to even consider. The Israel-palenstine war, Ukraine, freakin' Myanmar (which hits close to home because I come from a country that was in an even worse state in the past than Myanmar is right now), I felt like my mental illness problem was a pathetic thing to have with all the shit going around. So I did what I thought was best-I ignored it.
Sometimes I would wake up, realize my problems, try to fix it, fail, and go back to the autonomy that gave me comfort. But it doesn't work guys. It doesn't. I've only recently decided to try and truly do something about it. Try to fix up my life. Make myself uncomfortable. Pop my bubble of delusions. To build my own Eden. To fight for it. Protect it. Chase after it like a bloodhound picking up a scent trail.
I can't promise I won't fail.
But the first thing was to pick up my hopes and dreams again. And here we are.
I had put my page on pause for the past year (despite messages that I should open it up-It wouldn't be right for the guys who'd subbed to my page on a yearly subscription before my break as I couldn't write in the time I paused). So I stopped the billing entirely until earlier this month.
Yet as I came back to announce my return, I find myself surprised that there's still so much of you guys left. I don't know if it's intentional that you guys left your subscriptions on, but if you did and you had faith in me coming back from that sea of oblivion, I thank you guys deeply. Seriously. I am filled with gratitude.
Now, what can you expect from now?
I'll be writing as much as I can and will try my best to post weekly (Sorry in advance if I fail to do so--I've been in writing slumps before but now I believe i'm better equipped to deal with it...hopefully).
I'll be revamping NHRK, putting in a blender sort of, changing some parts for consistency (perhaps a lot of parts...perhaps it will become a different thing entirely) but I hope to catch up to my recent chapters as soon as I can. It will, however, take a few weeks to do all of this.
I'll also be working on new projects to come so keep an eye out on those!
To anyone finding themselves in the same boat, mentally wise, I can only say to keep fighting, struggler. We'll have to get through this one way or another.
Comments
The Anti-Simp
The lad lives lol
Vic Hops Shaquille
I understand, Lost. Sorry of how things has been happening to you for the past year and I'm glad that you're focusing on your own life and getting back up. Your story, NRHK, is what got me being a huge fan of your work and still be Here. Glad you're back, can't wait to see your new chapters and blessings on your self-healing.
